Chapter 13
Chapter thirteen
Mia
T’ukka and Axel were inside my mind, and both of them were a little irritating and a little difficult to differentiate from my own thoughts.
From what I could tell Axel seemed to have a sarcastic inner monologue that was running at all times, although maybe some of the sarcasm was coming from me.
He also was often on alert, his mind calculating possibilities of different threat scenarios in a way I found fascinating, but also a little exhausting.
T’ukka wasn’t just grumpy on the surface. It was like there was a cranky old man muttering things inside my head. I couldn’t seem to shut them out, and I couldn’t stop thinking about the ridiculous sex, either.
They’d had time to get used to the strange bond, but I wasn’t allowed that luxury. It had hit me all at once, riding on the back of the most intense series of orgasms of my life.
I didn’t mind hearing them while we were connected sexually, but some peace afterwards would have been nice.
Instead, it felt like my mind never went quiet even when it should.
And I knew I would likely struggle to leave this place.
It was no longer just because of my brother.
I was addicted to them, addicted to knowing what Axel thought about every little thing, addicted to T’ukka’s gruff sort of love.
To the way they were madly in love with each other and yet still welcomed me between them, pulled me into their warm little space.
And most of all, I was addicted to the things T’ukka could do with his cock and his ie’kel, a strange tentacle thing with suction powers.
Axel passed me in the hall, headed for a meeting, according to his overactive mind, and he stopped, cupping my cheek and kissing my forehead. “I know you’re needy. We’ll fuck you tonight, okay?”
“I said nothing,” I muttered, and he paused, his eyes searching mine. He reached out for my hands, smiling a little.
“You okay otherwise?” he asked as he brushed a hand over my cheek.
I paused for a moment and his eyes widened, which made me realize he could hear my thoughts, even as I was collecting them to share with him. Still, it didn’t feel right to communicate it without saying it out loud. “Having you guys inside my head is freaking me out.”
He nodded. “It must be jarring. It happened much slower with me, when T’ukka and I linked. Gave me time to adjust, to learn to love him.”
“Or maybe your personality is just more suited to it.”
“Either way, I hadn’t realized that it would slam you hard like that just because you had sex with him.
Meditation helps. You can clear us out and focus on the present and yourself.
” He stroked his thumb over my cheek and I felt his concern and his want.
His need for me was intense and fueled similar feelings within me, though it was strange not knowing the true source of what I felt.
“Search your mind,” he said. “Find your voice. The one that sounds like you, thinks the things you’d think. ”
I closed my eyes and tried to still my mind, trying to differentiate them. “So, your voice is the constantly horny one?”
Axel burst out laughing, leaning forward to kiss my forehead. “That’d be me, baby girl. And I think in a different sort of pattern... I’m not a linear thinker, if that helps? My mind darts around a lot. I have mild ADHD.”
I nodded, understanding now more of what was coming from him. “You have ADHD but somehow it works for you. Because you’re brilliant.”
He shook his head. “I don’t know if I’d say brilliant, but yes, I’ve figured out how to make it work for me.
T’ukka is easy. He sounds like a grumpy old man.
” And T’ukka’s voice echoed through my mind, letting us know that he’d heard Axel’s comment and that it had made him even grumpier.
This time both of us laughed. Axel smiled.
“But there’s something loveable about him, isn’t there?
Like you just want to give him hugs and tease him until he smiles. ”
That made me smile. “What’s the range?” I asked.
“Apparently a few rooms over,” Axel said, rolling his eyes.
“I can feel him in a general sense when he’s further from me, when I leave the fortress, for example.
I have a feeling I’d know it in my soul if either of you was in danger.
” There was a sense of the affirmative from the voice I had identified as T’ukka, and a sense also that he would protect both of us with his life. I smiled a little at that thought.
“It’s really weird,” I muttered. “But it helps, what you just told me. Can you block it? Focus on your thoughts?”
Axel nodded. “I can’t fully turn you guys off, but I can push you to the background at least, though that’s sort of what it’s like to be me already, with the ADHD.
A million thoughts firing at once sometimes.
But if I focus, I can put you in a place where you’re more background noise.
It just takes some practice. Visualization might help. ”
I nodded and closed my eyes again, seeking T’ukka mentally and sending him a little greeting.
His mind touched mine, giving me a buzz of gruff comfort that matched the big alien, and for a moment it was almost like I was standing where he was, talking to the commander, seeing what he saw.
Then I pulled back, glancing back up at Axel and finding his mind still basically full of lust, which made me smile.
“You can fuck me, if you like,” I said, boldly reaching forward and cupping his cock, tracing over the ridge I could see straining against his combat pants. He groaned, pushing his hips forward, clearly in urgent need of more. More of my touch, more of my attention, more everything.
I turned, facing the wall, and slipped my jeans down over my hips, arching my back and offering him what he needed.
I was as drenched as he was hard. One advantage of a psychic link.
He groaned, pushing against me and pulling my lips around to his for a kiss.
It was so easy to know exactly what would satisfy these men, because I was in their heads.
I felt T’ukka’s impatience with what we were doing from across the building. He was in a meeting, and the thought of teasing him mentally, of fucking until he couldn’t take it anymore and had to join us, made me squirm.
“I like that idea a lot,” Axel said, and I heard the rasp of his zipper then felt the glide of his bare cock as it settled between my ass cheeks.
I whimpered and rose onto my tiptoes, trying to get him where I suddenly, desperately needed him, and our thoughts mixed as he found my clit and groaned.
“It’s lovely to know what it feels like to you when I touch your clit. ”
“Yes,” I whimpered, reaching behind me to cup his cock, stroking it and trying to guide it to where I needed it.
I was a little too short, and he bent his knees and spread his legs before impaling me on it, finally giving me a taste of why men always wanted to fuck.
His mind was warm and fuzzy, driven by pleasure, and I got the strange sense that he felt like he had arrived, that he was where he belonged.
He gripped my ass and pulled back, then rammed in deep, and that sensation intensified.
He was meant to be inside me, and he held me tight as he fucked me wildly, the pleasure compounded by our shared awareness of the sensations.
“What the fuck are you two doing?” T’ukka roared as he slammed in through the door. Axel paused and laughed a little against my shoulder.
“Teasing you was her idea,” he said, completely throwing me under the bus.
“I know what ideas both of you had that entire time, you idiots. That was an important meeting about the coming invasion, and all I could think about was how hard my dick was.” I glanced down at his customary leather pants and gasped.
He came up behind Axel and slapped his ass hard, gripping him and shoving him in deeper.
Axel’s pleasure at the rough treatment surprised me, but not really.
I had been a dominatrix, and I knew plenty about masochism.
“Spank him again. He likes that. I can feel exactly how much,” I murmured, and Axel groaned as T’ukka slapped him hard, continuing the torment.
Axel’s mind was hot with lust, and he pushed back into every rough touch from T’ukka before thrusting deep into me.
I whimpered, loving his pleasure, feeling the rapidly building pressure of his orgasm.
And it didn’t take much more for either one of us to come, because once Axel let go I couldn’t help but tumble over the edge with him.
Looking a little cocky T’ukka turned me to face him, yanked my jeans the rest of the way off, lifted me against the wall, and slammed his cock into me.
He was too big, and I scrabbled for purchase on his broad shoulders, my whole body shaking with the impact of his hard fucking.
His ie’kel established suction on my clit, driving me over the edge into a second intense orgasm that had both men shuddering.
I glanced at Axel as T’ukka fucked me roughly, and he smirked at me.
T’ukka moved fast, echoing what Axel had been doing, sliding into me in rough strokes that left me quivering and wild. He grunted and I felt Axel’s mischief, realized that Axel had slipped two fingers inside T’ukka’s ass and was pleasuring him while he fucked me.
“This is ridiculous,” T’ukka muttered, still a little cranky as he exploded in an intense orgasm that filled me with another load of cum.
It was a mess, fucking these two men, and I could never do it without a long shower afterwards.
But this time, as T’ukka let me down off the wall, Axel kneeled between my legs and started lapping at my pussy, hungry and wild.
He loved T’ukka’s taste, and he spent hours sucking our lover’s dick.
I moaned as an aftershock of an orgasm pushed me over the edge again, burying my hands in Axel’s hair as I met our alien lover’s strange purple eyes.
T’ukka shook his head, frowning at both of us like we were idiots, then buttoned up his pants and stalked out of the room.
Except that we were inside his head, and we knew that the sex had made him clearer, more satisfied, more grounded, and he was grateful for it.
T’ukka’s communicator pinged, and he looked down at it, frowning.
“You two clean up. I’ll be right in,” he said.
“Well, that was interesting,” Axel said, standing and leading me towards the bathroom. “Alien sex is messy as hell.”
As we both stepped under the water Axel pulled me close and kissed me, tasting of T’ukka, and a wave of happiness rushed over me, the source of which I couldn’t pin down.
T’ukka never returned, but I let Axel massage shampoo through my hair, luxuriating in steamy warmth of the shower and the sensual touch of my human lover.
I was more relaxed that I’d ever felt in my life, when the intense wave of fear and anger hit, shattering our peace.
It was intense enough that it made my heart stop.
“You felt that, right?” Axel asked, already moving out of the shower, grabbing a towel and tossing it at me. The sparkle of humor was gone from his eyes, and his mouth was straight. It was as if his military training had flipped a switch inside him, and he even moved differently.
“I felt it,” I whispered, and I followed him out into T’ukka’s bedroom, pulling my jeans and t-shirt on.
The feeling coming from T’ukka, wherever he was, didn’t die down, and Axel didn’t even get fully dressed before he took off at a run.
When I pushed out into the hall I could see Axel, sprinting in front of me, shirtless and barefoot, headed to the conference room we knew T’ukka was in.
The urgency built in my chest as we moved, guiding us towards the danger when we should have been running away.
When T’ukka’s voice in my head was urging me to run away.