Chapter 11
Chapter Eleven
K asi soaked in his declaration that she was his like sunshine after a long, cold rain.
What would she give to truly be his…forever?
She desperately wanted the future Levi saw so clearly, but there were too many negative thoughts clouding her vision. Uncertainty about her family’s situation, fear of being hurt if Levi changed his mind or realized she wasn’t the one, as well as the never-ending trepidation about giving her heart to someone.
Losing her mother had nearly destroyed her, broken her heart in a way she’d never experienced. And she could admit to herself that she hadn’t truly picked herself back up since Mama’s death. The pain was still there, only slightly more manageable than in the weeks right after the funeral. She wasn’t sure her heart would recover if Levi broke things off with her. Adding new pain to the existing wounds would kill her.
Of course, all those reasons weren’t helping her keep her distance because Levi was too easy to be with and too easy to fall in love with.
No matter how many times she told herself to play it cool, play it smart, she failed. Because even with those mental pep talks running on repeat in her mind, her heart was already slipping away from her, falling just as hard and fast for Levi as he said he was falling for her.
This evening had been a roller coaster of emotions and a whirlwind of activity. Kasi’s life these past eight months had begun to feel like one endless day of the same monotonous routine. Nothing different ever happened. Or if it did, it was always something shitty that never failed to add misery to the boredom.
Levi changed all that, adding excitement and fun to her world, as well as offering her support and compliments and beautiful words that wiped away the agony she’d begun to believe had left a permanent stain on her heart.
Maybe she didn’t know what tomorrow was going to bring, but by God, tonight she was going to be selfish, going to take what he was offering because she simply couldn’t say no.
Kasi lifted her hands, pulling off her blouse as Levi took a step away, giving himself a better view. Once she slipped the last button free, she slid the silky blouse over her shoulders, dropping it to the floor.
Levi’s eyes were glued to her breasts. The desire darkening his gaze and the way his jaw tightened made her feel like the most beautiful woman alive. She’d never given a whole lot of thought to her looks, always accepting that she was passably attractive, pretty enough in her mind, but not drop-dead gorgeous, not the type of woman to turn most men’s heads.
The way Levi drank her in said he saw her as so much more than that.
She reached behind her back, unfastening her bra, adding it to the growing pile of clothes at her feet. Any shyness she felt around Levi had vanished over the past couple of weeks as their encounters on the couch progressed. He had seen her bare breasts just last night, when he’d lifted her shirt.
Her nipples pebbled in the cool air of the cabin as she recalled the way he’d taken them into his mouth, sucking on them, nipping at them, driving her out of her mind with the sensation.
While she was technically still a virgin, that didn’t mean she didn’t have experience with other aspects of sex. She’d made out with a few guys during high school and after. Kasi had gotten pretty good at dry humping and over-the-pants hand jobs. She’d even had a couple guys play with her tits, but always through the barrier of her bra. In truth, she’d never considered her nipples an erogenous zone, never played with them herself in the quiet of her own bedroom when she brought herself to orgasm with her fingers or a vibrator.
Levi had shown her the error of her ways last night, his touches, kisses, sucks, and licks so intense, she’d come close to climaxing. From just breast play.
She expected Levi to touch her as she stood before him shirtless, or to begin stripping off his own clothing, but he did neither. Instead, he tilted his chin up just once. “Keep going.”
His deep, velvety voice shot through her system like champagne. She never failed to get light-headed and giddy whenever he whispered sweet nothings in her ear or told her all the dirty things he was going to do to her when he got her alone.
Levi was a master of drawing hot, horny, kinky pictures in her mind, a porntastic Picasso.
She reached for the button on her jeans, slipping it loose before sliding down the zipper. Levi’s gaze was locked on her hands, following her progress like his life depended on him not missing a single second. She wasn’t sure he’d blinked in the last few minutes.
Kasi shimmied her hips, dragging her jeans and panties down together, her need too strong to draw this out. Once the denim and lace hit the floor, she toed off her sandals, then stepped out of the rest of her clothes.
She expected to be nervous, standing before Levi completely naked when he hadn’t shed a single article of clothing, but instead she felt…powerful.
Especially when Levi dropped to his knees in front of her, his eyes taking in her bared pussy. He’d yet to see that part of her, though he’d touched it. He never did more than open her pants, never pulling them down, telling her that his self-control was a finite thing and if he started seriously exploring below her waist, he’d never be able to stop himself from taking her.
He leaned forward, kissing the top of one thigh before moving to the other, skipping over the part she wanted him to touch the most.
Kasi reached down, gripping his strong shoulders, digging her fingers into the soft cotton of his shirt. “Take it off,” she said, plucking at it.
Levi shook his head as he looked up at her with a stern expression that was so fucking sexy, she feared she might spontaneously combust.
“Sit on the side of the bed, sweet girl, and spread those legs wide.”
“God,” she whispered, trembling with need as she followed his command, sitting on the mattress, parting her legs.
“Lay down,” he added.
Kasi fell to her back, aware of just how vulnerable this position was, and equally aware that it wasn’t a bad vulnerable. She was opening herself up to a man she trusted with her life. She felt safe…and free.
But she was still entering uncharted territory, no man having ever seen her completely naked or touched her most intimate part with?—
She gasped when Levi’s thumbs parted her labia, his face close enough that she could feel the heat of his breath.
“All shiny and wet,” he murmured. “Just for me.”
Levi ran his tongue along her slit, from her anus to her clit.
“Holy shit,” she breathed, her voice quivering with need, suddenly discovering just how much she’d been missing out on.
Levi stroked her with his tongue, over and over, until Kasi was writhing on the bed, out of her mind with desire.
“Please,” she said on a gasp, tugging at his hair, trying to drag him up her body.
Levi lifted his head, chuckling darkly. “Oh no, sweet girl. We’re nowhere near that part. And you’re going to have to beg a hell of a lot more than that before we get there.”
“I need you,” she barked, unable to temper her tone. She’d never been this desperate to come. Hell, some nights, if she couldn’t get herself there with her fingers or her toys within a few minutes, she’d give up, choosing sleep over an orgasm. Considering her self-induced climaxes had been tepid at best, that stood to reason.
But now, she was certain she would literally perish if he didn’t…
“Fuck. Me. Now.”
His eyes narrowed, the alpha male he made no attempt to hide shooting her a warning glance. Levi was in charge here, and he let her know that without uttering a single word.
Why would he when his actions were much more effective?
He nipped at her inner thigh, the brief, sharp sting of pain her punishment for trying to wrest control from him.
“Please,” she tried again.
Levi bit the other thigh. Not hard but enough to leave a red mark.
Suddenly, she was overcome with the craving to do the same. To dig her teeth into his flesh, to leave tangible proof that he was hers.
He’d made that “mine” proclamation quite a few times in the last two weeks, but tonight was the first time Kasi understood the true power behind that word. How those four letters could evoke so many emotions—from obsession to desire, from jealousy to passion—was beyond her. All she knew was tonight…Levi was hers too.
When she didn’t speak again, Levi returned his attention to her pussy, driving his tongue inside her, thrusting in and out several times, showing her with his mouth exactly how he planned to take her. His thumb found her clit, circling it several times before finally applying the perfect amount of pressure. Her hips jerked upward in response, her pussy clenching.
Levi moved his free hand to her stomach, pressing on it to hold her more firmly to the mattress while he drove her arousal to the peak with his tongue and thumb.
Kasi erupted like a volcano, her orgasm coming out of nowhere, shocking her system as if she’d just touched a live wire.
“Ah!” she cried out loudly, grateful Levi had found them a private place to be together. There was no way she’d be able to get through tonight in silence.
She shuddered as the last vestiges of her climax faded, lying limp on the bed while waiting for Levi to rise from the floor, undress, and join her.
He didn’t do any of that.
Instead, he lowered his head and began to kiss her again, his tongue gliding to her clit, toying with the ultra-sensitive nub until she saw stars.
Her hands flew to his hair, pulling it. “I can’t,” she gasped. “Not again! Not so soon.”
Levi lifted his head. “Yes, you can.”
“Levi,” she started to protest, sure another orgasm right on the heels of that last one would destroy her.
“Kasi. It’s your first time. We’re not rushing this. When I take you, I’m going to make damn sure you’re ready for me and that the pain is as little as possible.”
She sighed. “I may be a virgin in the sense I’ve never been with a man—unintentional, remember?—but there’s no hymen. I have a vibrator and a dildo at home.”
He gave her a crooked grin. “Next time you take those toys out, we’re going to play together. No more getting yourself off without me. And I’m glad you told me about that experience, but we’re still doing this my way.”
Levi backed that assertion by pinching her clit, the sharp touch a blend of pain and pleasure she really liked.
She groaned.
Levi’s eyes narrowed with sudden interest. “You like that. When I’m rough with you.”
She considered his bites and pinches, then nodded because there was no way in hell she could hide the truth of that statement. That sense of vulnerability was back as she opened the door for Levi to things she’d never told anyone before. When she masturbated, it was always rough, her fantasies tending to go to darker places. The make-believe lovers in her mind were strong alpha men who took what they wanted without apology.
For a time, she worried there was something wrong with her. Because there was no question the fantasies that turned her on the most, that never failed to bring her to orgasm, were the ones where she was kidnapped or chased or tied up by a man determined to claim her—with or without her consent. The dirty words her fantasy men always whispered were graphic, threatening, things that should scare rather than arouse.
“I like when you’re rough,” she whispered. “I like when it hurts.”
“You like it as in, it turns you on?”
“My fantasies…” she started. “They’re not tame.”
Shit. Why had she revealed that? She frowned, but before she could try to backtrack lest her confession bothered him, he spoke.
“You can be damn sure we’re going to unpack that comment more later,” he said. “But for now…all I want you to do is concentrate.”
With those words, he took her clit back into his mouth and her head fell back.
Concentrate, indeed. What choice did she have? It was impossible to think about anything except how good this felt. Especially when he pushed two fingers inside her.
“God,” she gasped, as he took off the kid gloves, driving his fingers at the same relentless, hard pace she used when playing with her dildo. “Yes!”
Between his fingers fucking her pussy and the wicked, wicked things he was doing to her clit with his mouth, Levi brought her right to the edge within minutes.
“Give me one more,” he urged, lifting his head even as he continued to pound his fingers inside her. “One more orgasm, and then we’re going to be very intentional about getting rid of that virginity of yours.”
She might have laughed if she could have spared the breath, but there was no more air in her lungs. Her body shifted into overdrive as a second climax roared through her. She’d been a fool for thinking the first one powerful.
“Jesus. Christ,” she choked out, as every nerve ending in her body lit up like a goddamn Christmas tree.
Levi continued stroking her, his fingers gliding along her inner muscles as they clenched, drawing out the orgasm until she feared she would faint.
Something she couldn’t do—again—because she’d reassured him she wasn’t the kind of girl who passed out all the time.
“Please.” Kasi’s voice was hoarse from her cries.
“Fucking gorgeous,” Levi murmured.
She opened her eyes, looking down to where Levi was still kneeling between her outstretched legs.
“You’re perfect, Kasi,” he said.
Tears welled in her eyes. The last person to call her perfect was her mother, who never held back from telling her she was the perfect daughter.
Mama used it not as a way of making her feel like she had to do everything right, but as a term of endearment, or for comfort whenever someone made Kasi felt stupid or inferior or less. In Mama’s eyes, she was perfect just the way she was, and Kasi had never felt more loved than the times when her mother would envelop her in her arms, nearly smothering her in her large, pillowy breasts, and whisper those same words in her ear.
Kasi pushed herself up, reaching out to Levi, wrapping her arms around his shoulders and hugging him tightly. “So are you,” she whispered.
Because he was. Perfect for her. So perfect.
Levi returned the embrace for a moment before pulling away and giving her a look that was almost feral. “Crawl onto that bed, little bear, in the middle.”
Kasi wished she knew what it was about that demanding tone in his voice that had her hopping to obey, so anxious to please him. She quickly did as he said. Placing a pillow against the headboard, she sat in the middle, watching and waiting for him, so ready for what came next.
She should have been physically spent—those first two orgasms were no joke—but instead, she was completely energized and still horny as hell.
Levi reached behind his head with one hand, tugging his shirt off with a strong tug. She’d seen him shirtless countless times in her life. Farmwork was hot in the summer, so it wasn’t unusual for men to shed layers as they worked.
The summer her crush on Levi sparked, he’d been twenty-seven, and it was the first time she’d truly looked at a man and appreciated what she was seeing. The years had only improved him, honing his muscles to chiseled perfection, his tanned skin golden brown.
Levi winked when she finally managed to peel her eyes away from his chest to look at his face again.
She laughed, then repeated his chin tilt gesture. “Keep going,” she said, repeating the same command he’d issued earlier.
Levi sank onto the edge of the bed, reaching down to tug off his shoes and socks. Unable to resist, she leaned forward, placing a kiss on his shoulder, her breasts rubbing against his bare back. This was the most incredible, intimate moment of her life, and she never wanted it to end.
Rising, Levi turned to face her again, and Kasi bit her lip as he unfastened his jeans. The denim dropped to the floor, revealing his commando state.
Not that Kasi gave that more than a passing thought because…
“Holy shit.”
Levi smirked. “You’re good for the ego.” He gripped his extremely large cock, running his hand along the shaft from base to tip a few times as she watched.
“I probably should have invested in a bigger dildo,” she murmured.
Levi barked out a laugh. “This is gonna fit just fine.” Placing one knee on the mattress, he gripped her ankle, tugging until she fell to her back before climbing over her.
His cock bobbed, smacking her stomach as he pushed her legs apart, settling on his knees between them.
She was diving right into the deep end with Levi and his monster dick. Again, she thought that idea should frighten her, but all it did was make her empty pussy clench with need.
Resting on his elbows, Levi kissed her, in no apparent hurry to move to the next part, even though she thought he must be hurting. His hard-on was so…well… hard that he must be overwhelmed by the need to fuck.
Levi’s fingers gripped her hair, fisting it tightly enough that her scalp stung. He was obviously taking her words about liking it rough to heart, and she adored him for it.
She jerked when he bit her lower lip during their kiss before tugging on her hair again. The stinging pain sent jolts of pleasure straight to her pussy, which was dripping by now.
She groaned, digging her nails into his shoulders, giving him a tiny taste of his own medicine. Levi’s growl told her that he liked the pain as much as she did.
Breaking the kiss, Levi pushed up enough that he could take his cock in his hand again. She held her breath as he dragged the head over her slit, sliding it through her arousal, coating it. He slid it up and down, causing her to moan every time it stroked her clit. All her girlie bits were super-sensitive and it wouldn’t take much for him to give her another—third!—orgasm.
“Are you on the pill?” he asked after the sixth slide.
“I get the shot,” she said, silently thankful for her bad periods for the first time ever.
On his next glide, Levi stopped, the head of his cock resting at her entrance. He paused, their gazes connecting.
She smiled. “Need more begging?” she teased. “Because I’m more than ready to?—”
Levi cut her off, not with words but with action, when he slammed inside with one rough, hard, amazing thrust.
She’d reassured him he wouldn’t hurt her, and while she wasn’t in pain, she also wasn’t accustomed to feeling this…full. Between his length and his girth, there didn’t seem to be a place inside that he wasn’t touching.
Levi paused, giving her time to adjust. Or maybe the pause was for him.
His eyes were closed, his expression one of absolute bliss.
She cupped his cheek, stroking his beard. Levi’s eyelids lifted as he held her gaze.
“I’ve never been inside a woman without a condom,” he admitted.
Just like when she’d discovered the power of the word mine , Kasi now understood how Levi must feel, realizing he was the first. It was heady to think he was giving her something he’d never given anyone else.
“Good.”
Levi grinned at the possessiveness in her tone. “You gonna be a jealous girlfriend, little bear?”
“Extremely,” she warned, her response clearly pleasing him.
“Good,” he said, giving her word back. “Now hold on.”
Levi withdrew until only the head remained, and then he thrust back in deep. This time, there was no pause, no restraint, as he took her with all the force she’d requested.
Her fingers gripped his upper arms, digging into his thick muscles. She had no choice but to hold on because this was unlike anything she’d ever imagined, ever dreamed of.
Every stroke was harder than the first, stoking embers inside her that burst into flames. Less than a minute passed before she felt herself flying apart. Her back arched, even as Levi continued his brutal, beautiful assault.
“Fuck,” he said through gritted teeth. “You’re squeezing the life out of me. So. Fucking. Tight.”
Kasi couldn’t reply, couldn’t remember how to speak. Her body thrummed, the orgasm lasting for decades, eras, eons, and she panicked slightly, wondering if a person could die from too much pleasure. Her heart was thudding at a dangerous pace, and her pussy throbbed so rapidly, so continuously, she feared it might never stop.
“Levi,” she cried. “Too much. Too good!”
He shook his head. “Never,” he declared, though mercifully he slowed his thrusts, giving her some time to recover.
Finally, after a few minutes, she regained control. Levi was still inside her, still moving, though much slower. She blinked several times, trying to focus her vision.
Levi smiled when she managed to find his eyes. “There you are.”
“I thought I was going to die,” she confessed.
He wrapped one strong hand around the side of her throat. “Is that what the panicked look was about?”
Was that why he’d slowed down?
“I had no idea it could feel that good, that it could go on for so long,” she admitted, her words breathless as she struggled to fill her lungs with air.
“To be honest,” he confessed. “Neither did I.”
She giggled because it felt crazy that they were having this conversation with him still slowly fucking her.
“Levi,” she said. “Come inside me.”
He closed his eyes briefly. “Best offer ever.”
He increased his pace, though he didn’t take her as hard as before. For which she was grateful. She was stretching muscles she didn’t know she had, and he was no small man. She was going to feel the effects of this night for the next few days.
Kasi lifted her legs, wrapping them around his waist, the position tilting her hips so that he began to hit a different place inside. She gasped at how good it felt.
Dear God. There was no way she was going to come again, was there?
Levi gave her the answer to that unspoken question when he reached between them, rubbing her clit.
“Come with me,” he grunted.
And she did. Instantly.
Levi was with her this time, his groans and panting breaths mingling with hers as his hips jerked one last time, coming inside her.
They remained connected, motionless as statues for a few moments before Levi lowered himself to his elbows again, kissing her senseless.
When they parted, he placed one last kiss on the tip of her nose, and she laughed. Then he dropped to her side, drawing her body over his so that he could tuck her against his chest.
Kasi rested her hand flat on his bare chest, her fingers absentmindedly caressing his soft skin as she let what had happened sink in.
She wasn’t a virgin anymore.
She’d given it to Levi Storm, who’d revealed himself to be a force of nature in the bedroom.
She also went ahead and accepted that she’d fallen victim to that cliché about one man ruining a woman for all others.
Because there wasn’t a guy on the planet who could top that. Ever .
They lay there in silence for so long, Kasi thought Levi had fallen asleep.
She was physically exhausted enough that she should have drifted off instantly, but her brain wouldn’t shut down. It was too excited, too happy, too determined to relive every second of what had just happened.
Kasi startled briefly when Levi broke the silence.
“About those fantasies…” he mused.
Kasi buried her face in his chest, groaning. “Oh my God. Please forget I said anything.”
He chuckled. “Not a chance in hell. You piqued my interest. Besides, if you don’t tell me what they are, how can I make them come true?”
She lifted her head. “You would do that?”
“Little bear, how do I make you understand? There’s nothing in the world I won’t give you.”
And there went her heart.
So much for holding on to it.
Kasi placed a soft kiss on his chest, then rested her chin there, looking at him with a mischievous grin. “You really sure you want to know?”
Levi pushed a strand of hair out of her face before drawing the back of his knuckles along her cheek. “Hit me with your best shot.”
So she did.