26. Catriona
Twenty Six
Catriona
“…she’s so not my type…”
His voice travels through the open door and hits me smack in the solar plexus.
I know he’ll never want me for anything but a bit of fun, but does he have to be so blunt about it?
Did he have to stand me up so easily? He has no idea what it’s taken for me to accept what was going to happen – how many hours I’ve spent justifying to myself the actions that I’ve yet to commit.
Acts that I was counting down to – only to be scrapped in seconds?
At least Rian corrected Leo when he accused me of being a lesbian – who has the personality of a brick.
I blink rapidly as the screen turns blurry.
It’s not the first time I’ve heard rumours about my sexuality.
My standoffish approach to the men in the office is destined to create such whispers.
Men tend to seek reassurance that any rejection lies outside their control.
While women would think they’re not pretty, sexy, or charming enough, men will say she’s a prude, bitch or lesbian.
The lesbian rumours have never bothered me before, but hearing them through the door, accompanied by the girls’ spiteful giggles, is hard to take. Especially since it adds to the hurt of how easily Rian dumped me.
No, not dumped me, but dumped our plans. We’re not a couple, so he can’t dump me.
We are not a couple, so he can’t dump me.
I add another few chants in my head as I try to ignore Rian and his rich obnoxious friends as they noisily leave the office. Rian’s head never turns my way, and his hand is pressed to the small of Alexandra’s back. Like an official statement. What a fucking prick!
Thank fuck I am not my mother – I haven’t invested emotionally.
Yeah, fuck him. This ride is well and truly fecking over and gone and done with.
Rian can fuck his whole drooling office fan club if he wants, or the fucking perfect Alexo-ondra, but this woman is not fucking bowing to him ever again!
I suck in a deep breath and sit taller in my chair.
It’s a relief to feel the anger take over my body, and I’m not going to count how many times I’ve said fuck in my head the last minute.
Good fucking riddance to bad fucking rubbish!