Chapter Twenty-Six Ren
Never in her life had Ren so ardently wished for the gift of telekinesis. With such a power, she would simply reach over with her mind and tug the hotel curtains closed. The blinding stretch of light between the drapes stabbed like a hot spear through her skull, even with her eyes closed.
Desperate for relief, she rolled over, colliding with a wall.
No, not a wall. Fitz’s bare chest. Ren groaned as rising consciousness brought with it a pounding headache. “Ow.”
A laugh vibrated behind Fitz’s breastbone. “She wakes.”
She groaned again.
“Stay here.” Fitz rolled from bed, blessedly removing the cloying heat of his body, and she stretched out, seeking the relief of cooler sheets. Water ran, bare feet padded across the floor, and Fitz was back, a demon, turning on the light.
“No. Darkness only.”
Another rumbling laugh. “Take these, and drink this.” She heard him set something on the bedside table.
“I think I’m sick,” she mumbled.
“I think you’re hungover.”
“Why aren’t you hungover?”
“Because I weigh fifty pounds more than you, and we only had two glasses of champagne.”
Weakly, she pushed up on one elbow. When a cool breeze from the air conditioner blew over her bare arms, she realized she was in her usual pajamas. But Fitz wore only those brain-melting shorts he slept in. And nothing else. “You’re shirtless,” she said, staring as it sank in: She’d slept pressed against his skin all night.
“Thanks to you.”
Her gaze jerked to his. “You mean I took your shirt off?”
He planted two fists at the edge of the bed and smoldered at her. “You were very insistent.”
She let herself imagine pulling his shirt off, reaching for the button of his jeans. Her face flamed. “I was?”
“Yes. But I stopped us.” He leaned closer, whispering, “When we do those things, I want you to remember how good it was.”
She fell back down face-first into the pillow, mumbling, “Don’t be sexy when I might throw up.”
Fitz laughed, straightening. “You feel terrible because you’re dehydrated, and your blood sugar is tanked. You’ll feel better with some carbs and caffeine in you, I promise. Come on.” He gently urged her to sit up and take the painkillers. “We’ll take things nice and slow and see how you feel. Okay?”
“I feel like a new human,” Ren said, dropping a wadded-up wrapper on the tray.
“McDonald’s is the hangover cure straight from the gods.”
“I think I read that somewhere: The first ever golden arches were on Mount Olympus.” She drained the last of her Coke, and Fitz laughed, standing to take their tray to the trash bin. “Fitz!” she called, and handed him her empty cup. She noticed there was something in his posture, a tiny hitch in his shoulders, that made her feel like she’d just done something wrong.
It poked like a thorn in her palm as they walked back to the hotel, and even though they were talking and laughing and everything in his demeanor seemed fine, she knew him well enough to know how easily he put on a smooth cover, how the Fitz he showed to the world wasn’t the Edward he showed to h—
She stopped abruptly in the middle of the sidewalk. He jerked back when their joined hands pulled tight and turned to look at her. “You okay?”
As she stood there, frozen, it all came back in a blurry rush. The consuming heat of his kiss in the elevator last night, the pressure of the wall at her back once they got to their room, the way his mouth moved down her neck, wild. The fever of her hands moving up under his shirt, feeling the warm expanse of his torso. His insistence that she drink some water, go put on her pajamas, brush out her hair. Standing side by side in the bathroom, brushing their teeth, and then finding him in the darkness, pulling him close again, wanting more. The way he let her climb over him and pull off his shirt, the way they kissed and the desperation in his touch before he carefully rolled her to her back, his chest heaving as he reminded her that they had time to take it slow.
“I think you’re my favorite person,” she’d said drowsily into his neck. “Edward, Edward, Edward.”
“I like that you call me that,” he’d admitted. “It feels really good that you know my name.”
It was the last thing he’d said before she fell asleep.
“I called you Fitz in McDonald’s,” she said now. “I’m sorry. I forgot.”
A smile slowly curved his perfect mouth, and he took a few steps toward her, cupping her cheeks and bending to kiss her. “Does this mean you’re remembering last night?”
She sensed the way her face heated under his palms. “Yes.”
“So you know why I stopped us. I meant what I said. I want us both to remember when those firsts happen.”
Her stomach dropped as the buildings of downtown Nashville seemed to loom overhead, crowding into her visual field. “When?”
His flirty smile slowly straightened as he searched her eyes. “When what?”
“You said when, not if.”
“Sunshine, I’m okay with if, too. We can do as much, or as little as you want. But we won’t do any of it drunk.”
She nodded and pushed up on her toes to kiss him again. They started to walk, but the sights disappeared around her, the tourists banished by the whirlwind of her thoughts. She wanted more with Edward. If she was being honest with herself, she wanted to explore it all. But when? Nashville was the final dot on the map for him, but she still had one more stop. Would things be the same when they got back to Spokane? Or would he go back to being Just Fitz, even with her?
And she’d been so wrapped up in the excitement of the trip and the heat simmering between her and Edward that she hadn’t thought—really thought—about what the next phase of her journey looked like. Suddenly, the idea of leaving him today and heading into the foggy unknown of family secrets felt so overwhelming, Ren got dizzy.
With a flush of panic, she came to a stop, tugging his hand. “I don’t want to go to Atlanta today.”
With a look of confusion, he turned to face her. “You want to stay another night? In Nashville?”
“Yes, but…” she began, suddenly aware that she might be imposing, that she had no idea what he had scheduled here. “Of course I don’t want to mess with whatever your plans are.”
“I, uh…” He trailed off, swallowing. “I have a thing on Thursday. I had some other stuff I was going to do in town, but Thursday is the only thing I can’t miss.”
A thing? Some other stuff? Frustration simmered in her belly. They could kiss and sleep wound around each other, but he was always so vague. Maybe this was how it worked, though. Maybe sexual intimacy came first. It felt so backward.
“Then yes,” she said. “I need to be on a bus back to Spokane by Wednesday, probably. But I want to stay another night.”
One more day with Edward sounded like not nearly enough, but she’d take whatever she could get. She had bigger things to think about, but she’d never felt like this before. She wanted to stay in it a little longer, to savor it. Especially today.
“You’re sure?”
“Yes,” she said, confident again, and stepped forward, tilting her chin to look up at him. “Nothing sounds worse than getting on a bus, hungover, on my birthday.”