Chapter 12
TATE
Is she kidding? She’s thanking me again?
“I told you. I’m the one who should be thanking you, beautiful.” I carefully pulled out, placing a soft kiss on her forehead.
“Where are you going?” she asked as I got up.
“Condom…” I muttered before hopping off the bed.
She looked alarmed. As if I wanted to leave her right now…
I rushed to the bathroom, discarding the condom and quickly returning to the bed, not wanting to waste precious seconds with her.
Blair reached for me, bringing me into a kiss, her body pressed against mine. My cock began to stiffen. How the hell? I’d never been so easily aroused. And I’m supposed to leave this girl in less than a day?
When Blair pulled back, she smiled. “Look at that.”
“What?”
“The worst has happened, and we’re both still in one piece. The sky hasn’t fallen. The world hasn’t ended.” She pointed her finger at my chest. “You were worried for nothing, big guy.”
If only it were that simple.
“While I’d love to believe that, I’m not so sure we’ll make it through this unscathed.
You really think you’re not gonna be more hurt after we leave each other now?
” I studied her a moment. “Don’t get me wrong.
It was worth it. But we’ve made things a lot harder, even if you don’t realize it yet, Blair. ”
Her eyes filled with mischief. “I plan to make things hard again.”
“It won’t be very difficult.” I chuckled. “Trust me.” My dick twitched.
Her smile faded. “Seriously, though, you don’t regret it, do you?”
“Fuck, no. I can’t regret something that made me feel better than I have in a very long time. But separating will be more difficult now. That’s all I’m saying.”
“Leaving each other is gonna be difficult either way,” she said.
“Thanks to your prank earlier, I already have firsthand experience with that. So yes, I agree.” I glared.
Her face reddened. “I’m sorry again for doing that to you.”
Deep down, I knew guilt over having sex with her would also set in once we left each other.
But that wasn’t enough to make me regret something that had felt so natural, so mind-numbingly amazing.
At least I’d have the memory of it now, even if it tortured me.
Nothing was worse than the regret I’d felt when she supposedly left earlier.
Now I’d never have to experience that again.
“What do you want to do today?” she asked.
I leaned in and kissed her. “This.”
She smiled. “You want to stay in bed?”
I spoke over her mouth. “Pretty much.”
She turned away, pressing her ass against my cock. I wrapped my arms around her, pulling her close. A peace came over me as I held her. I wished we had more time together. Even if I wasn’t right for her long term, she was happy with me now. We made each other happy. That had to mean something.
“The time is passing too fast. Stay here with me an extra day—until Sunday,” I said before I could think better of it.
Blair rolled over to face me. “Are you serious?”
I nodded. “It’s probably prolonging the agony, but I’m not ready to say goodbye.”
“I’d have to stay here with you, because I can’t afford another—”
“That’s a given, beautiful. Of course I want you to stay with me. No need for two rooms anymore.”
“Well, then it’s a no-brainer.” Beaming, she ran her finger along my chin. “I’ll change my flight, and we can make the most of the extra time we have.”
My dick was now fully hard and ready to go again. That had to be a record for me. But we’d been so frenzied earlier, I hadn’t had an opportunity to appreciate her beautiful body. I’d just been ravenous. “Can I look at you for a little bit?” I asked.
“Of course.”
I lowered the bed sheet so I could take my time exploring her.
I wanted to burn this moment into my memory, never wanted to forget it.
Didn’t want to miss a single detail, not a single crevice from head to toe.
Her beautiful blue eyes, her upturned nose.
The way her bottom lip was slightly bigger than the top one.
Her long, dirty blonde hair that lay messily down her back.
Her soft skin. Her perfectly pink nipples the size of half-dollars.
Her innie belly button. The thin layer of light brown hair that covered her pussy.
Her smooth legs. Even her toes were perfect.
“Are you scanning me?” she finally asked.
“If there were a way to do that and keep this sight permanently etched inside my head, I would.”
Her smile softened. “Maybe it’ll be better over time if you forget, though.”
“Never.” My chest tightened. “It will never be better to forget you.”
“Well, you pointed out how painful it will be when we leave each other, so maybe it would be easier not to remember details and just hold on to a vague memory. Maybe it’s the details that will make it harder.”
“Is that what you’re hoping? To forget the details?”
She shook her head. “I don’t want to forget you, no. But I think over time, the details will inevitably get blurry, whether we want them to or not. All I’m saying is that maybe forgetting will make it easier by default. Almost like a protective mechanism.”
The mood had turned more serious than I was ready for, especially considering the incredible time we’d just had. Then she solidified the change in vibe.
Blair cleared her throat. “I’m just gonna ask this once, okay? I’m not gonna make it a thing. And I’m not gonna pressure you.”
I swallowed. “Okay…”
“Do you think there’s a chance you and I could ever work out?” Her voice shook. “You know, if we did keep in touch?” Her face turned red, a true reflection of her feelings for me. The stakes were high, because no matter how I answered, I was bound to hurt her.
I looked away for a moment as dread filled me.
Even though her question had thrown me for a loop, it shouldn’t have surprised me.
I desperately wanted that fantasy, too, but I knew with every fiber of my being that I wasn’t good for her in the long term.
The more time Blair and I spent together, the sooner she’d figure that out.
She hadn’t even started her life yet. I’d already ruined the lives of several people, from my son’s mother, to my son, to the men whose deaths I’d been responsible for when I was deployed.
No way in hell was I going to ruin Blair’s life, too.
That left me with no choice but to hold strong.
I finally found the words. “I would love the opportunity to explore this beyond the resort, to keep in touch and not to lose you.” My stomach knotted as I hesitated.
“But I don’t think that would benefit you, Blair—for so many reasons.
Once we start down that path, it will be too late to turn back.
So I think it’s better for you if we end things when our trip is over. ”
She nodded as if she’d been expecting that answer. “You think it’s better for me… But what about you?”
“I told you, I don’t deserve you.”
“But you’d want to be with me, if it weren’t for worrying about how it would affect my life?”
Fuck yes. There was no debating that. But I had to think carefully about how to respond. I couldn’t lead her on. She’d try to convince me she’d be okay with seeing where this went. It was too big of a risk, and I didn’t trust that I couldn’t be swayed with the way I felt right now.
“The answer is complicated,” I said. “But whether I would want to be with you is irrelevant, okay? It doesn’t change anything.”
“All right.” She sighed deeply, sadness on her face. “I’m not gonna push. I’m gonna choose to enjoy the remaining time we have.”
I brushed the back of my hand along her cheek. “I already feel myself getting way too addicted to you. And addictions generally need to be broken before they consume us.”
She moved in closer and whispered over my lips, “Well, then, if we’re on borrowed time, we’d better stop wasting it talking.”
My dick grew fully erect within seconds. I had the libido of a teenager suddenly. And I recognized the irony.
Blair raked her fingers through my hair. “I can’t get enough of you, Tate.”
“How do you want me this time?”
She blushed. “I want you to take me from behind.”
Shit.
She somehow knew that’s what I wanted to try. That position had always been my weakness. But with her? Her beautiful ass for the taking? I wasn’t sure my damn heart could handle it.
I kissed her hard before flipping her over. Blair promptly got on her hands and knees, sticking her gorgeous ass up in the air.
Fuck.
I couldn’t help rubbing my shaft along the slit of her ass for a few seconds of skin-to-skin contact. But before I could give in to the reckless urge to sink inside her bare, I hurried over to grab another condom. I couldn’t slide it over my dick fast enough.
I jerked myself a few times as she swayed her gorgeous ass from side to side, a silent invitation.
While I hadn’t given in to the urge to slip inside her raw, I would indulge another desire.
I lowered my face and devoured her from behind.
Blair gasped as my wet mouth found her flesh.
She moaned as I alternated between tonguing her ass and her pussy, my cock dripping with excitement.
Once I’d had my fill, I took a moment to appreciate her ass before I entered her. “You’re so ready for me, aren’t you?”
“Yes,” she mewled.
I dug my fingertips into her ass cheeks. “Such a good girl.” Fuck. Now I was playing into the age dynamics? I was losing my damn mind.
“Fuck me, Tate. I can’t wait any longer.”
Without further ado, I sank inside of her, the tight pull of her opening nearly too much to take. I shut my eyes to compose myself before beginning to move in and out of her. “Your ass…is exquisite,” I panted as I thrust.
She bucked her hips backward. “I love the way you fill me.”
“I fucking love filling you.” I grabbed her hair and bunched it into a ponytail, using it as leverage.
What started as slow and controlled now graduated into harder, skin-slapping movements. I’d aimed to be gentle, but that just wasn’t possible with how crazy she made me.
“You’re so deep,” she breathed, always knowing what to say to take things up a notch.
I tugged at her ponytail, bending a moment to kiss her neck as I attempted to stop myself from coming too soon.
“Don’t stop,” she pleaded.
I lowered my hands to her hips and guided her over me, fucking her with even greater force.
Blair fisted the sheets, hanging on for dear life as the headboard banged against the wall. That would suck for anyone in the next room, but I didn’t give a shit about anyone hearing us.
“Oh my God…” she yelled, and then she shrieked.
When I felt her body quake, I tightened my grip on her ass and let myself go, coming even harder than the first time.
As our movements tapered to a slow rhythm, the only sound in the room was our breath.
After I carefully pulled out, I showered her back with kisses as she collapsed onto the mattress, letting out a sigh.
“That was so good, Tate.” She sighed again. “So, so good.”
Her words filled me with pride. “It was fucking amazing,” I agreed. I wanted nothing more than to completely rock her world during the time we had left.
After I returned from disposing of the condom, I kissed her hard before looking over at the time. “We should probably go get you fed so you have energy for round three. It’s way past lunch time.”
“I need to shower.” She rubbed her finger along the scruff of my chin and flashed a wicked grin. “Know anyone who’d want to join me?”
I shook my head and laughed. “You’re gonna be the death of me, Blair.”