Chapter 40
Chapter
Forty
Thomas and the publicist, Rhonda, hurried to catch up to her as the doors closed behind them.
“Oh my God,” Rhonda hissed, hyperventilating. “That was a disaster. How was she not prepped for this? Why did she take the podium at all?”
“I thought she did fine,” Thomas said, his voice tinged with laughter. “Better than I could have expected.”
“You and I are having a little talk, boss,” Kate muttered.
“Sure thing,” Thomas said, and left the publicist behind with a quick word of thanks.
Rhonda was still spluttering when the elevator doors shut in her face.
Thomas hit the button for his top floor office, using his keycard it so it would go direct, without stops.
“Listen, I’m sorry about that. It was supposed to be a light feature, not an investigation.
I didn’t think they’d dig that deep, and I sure as hell didn’t think they’d bring up Elizabeth.
Honestly, I thought they’d be more restrained. ”
“Sure,” Kate said. “Because when I think ‘American journalist,’ I automatically think ‘restraint.’”
“I really am sorry,” he repeated. “I thought they’d just take the softball, maybe try asking me a few questions. It never occurred to me that there’d be an issue.” He paused a beat. “Criminal record?”
He would zero in on that. “Dead fiancée?” she shot back quietly.
The doors slid open with a soft whoosh, and he gestured her in. “Come on. I’ll pour you a drink. God knows I need one.”
She followed, loosening her tie. A frickin’ tie, of all things. Damned stylist is on my list, too, she thought darkly, watching Thomas walk with purpose over to the wet bar. He glanced at her, gesturing to the wall of expensive booze.
“Vodka cranberry, if you’ve got it,” she said, sitting on a black couch across from the bar. What the hell. She’d earned it.
He quickly poured her a drink with the proficiency of a bartender, then poured himself something wheat-colored, like a whiskey or Scotch or something—the crystal decanters weren’t labeled.
He handed her the glass, and she was surprised when her hand shook as she reached for it.
Thomas sat next to her on the couch-thing, at the opposite end.
“I should have told you about Elizabeth.” His voice sounded bitter, self-recriminating.
“Didn’t think about it?” Kate supplied, taking a sip of the drink and coughing. Apparently he’d put in just enough juice to turn the thing pink. Ordinarily, she preferred more cranberry, but she struggled through a few more quick sips. She needed to numb.
“There isn’t a day goes by that I don’t think about Elizabeth.”
The raw emotion in his voice had her pausing, gripping the glass.
He took a slow swallow from his own glass, and then started talking, looking out the window. “I met Elizabeth in school. She was a year or two older than me. I went to college young.”
Kate remembered reading that somewhere. She took another tiny, searing sip.
“When I started the company, she volunteered to be my admin because she said I surely needed one,” he said, and the amusement—and pain—in his voice was clear. “It was her support, and her charm and contacts, that helped me become what I am. And yeah, I fell in love with her.”
He waited for a second. Kate squirmed uncomfortably; the couch-thing was hard as granite. She also had a tough time processing what he was saying.
So, he’d been in love with his assistant. And his best friend, from the sounds of it? And he still thought about her every day?
That was sweet, and romantic. And sad.
“We were engaged ten years ago,” he said, his words slow, almost sluggish. “And just after I asked her to marry me…we found out she had cancer. Stage three, fast moving, really advanced. Treatment didn’t look like it would be effective.”
“Oh my God,” Kate breathed, putting her drink down on the coffee table and touching his arm reflexively. “I’m so sorry.”
“I tried everything, looked everywhere. What’s the point of making all that money if you can’t solve a problem like that, right?” His laugh was bitter. “But it just looked like it’d all be over. And that’s when I met this man.”
Thomas’s whole body went tense, taut as a drum. Anger and pain seemed to pulse off him in waves.
“The man who signed you,” Kate realized abruptly.
“Cyril Roman. He said that he could cure Elizabeth. I thought he was full of shit, but I was desperate, and Elizabeth was in so much pain. She begged me.”
“So you signed.”
He winced visibly. “Not at first, and not exactly. I thought he was after my money, or wanted to blackmail me. I thought the supernatural stuff was bullshit. I just wanted results. So I signed a contract that said I’d be his signatory, but that the full benefits of my soul wouldn’t be his for ten years. It was a vesting period.”
“Like stock options.”
He nodded. “The guy must have really wanted to sign me, so he agreed, and he had to prove that he’d save Elizabeth’s life in the meantime. So I signed, and just like that—all of Elizabeth’s tumors went away. Like a miracle.”
Kate realized she was still touching his arm, but also realized it felt natural. She really wanted to hug him, hold him. Help him feel better.
She focused harder on what he was saying.
“For a year, I was the happiest guy alive,” Thomas said, and his voice grew gravelly.
“Business was booming, Elizabeth was planning for the wedding, and yeah, I had signed over my soul, but I figured I wasn’t using it and didn’t really need it, anyway.
Then things started to change. Cyril wanted kickbacks, which was fine.
Elizabeth’s health was more than worth it.
But he seemed to show up at weird times, always making it clear that he knew what was going on in our lives.
In the meantime, I was starting to dig deeper and I found that Cyril left a swath of destruction whenever he surfaced. ”
Thomas winced. “Then, after a year in, the first ‘vesting’ happened—and I got a taste of what I was in for. I think Cyril gave me the glimpse as a way to keep me in line, and also because he was pissed I’d boxed him in on the contract, sort of a ‘play ball, or I’ll make your life a literal hell’ sort of tactic.
It backfired. I started looking for a way out while still keeping Elizabeth alive.
That’s about when he showed up and mocked me.
Said there was no way out. That it’d be better to work with him. ”
“But you didn’t,” Kate realized.
Thomas shook his head. “I told him to fuck off. Then…”
“Then he killed Elizabeth?”
“In a manner of speaking,” Thomas said, his voice tight. “The contract prevented him from killing her. I even had the forethought to say if he accelerated the cancer, the contract was void. But it didn’t say anything about preventing her from being in pain.”
Kate swallowed hard against a wave of nausea.
“I’d never seen anything like it,” Thomas mused, his eyes unfocused, and Kate saw he was remembering the horror as if he were watching a movie. “She begged me to just do whatever he said, to stop the pain. And I came close, believe me. Maybe I should have.”
He sounded tortured. Kate couldn’t help herself; she scooted closer, making a little, sympathetic noise, and squeezed his shoulder.
He didn’t seem aware of her touch. “But something in my gut kept telling me no, that it would only make things worse. That’s how I got in contact with Yagi. I found people who actually knew what was going on. I thought I could stand up to Cyril, that I could negotiate my way out.”
He stopped, putting his own drink down, rubbing at his temples.
“What happened?”
“Elizabeth killed herself.” The words were flat, like a stone dropped on sand. “She left a note saying she couldn’t take it anymore. She couldn’t live with the pain, and she wouldn’t live with a man who would let her stay in pain because of his pride.”
“Oh my God.” Kate felt a surge of sympathy and gave him a half-hug, her arm around his broad shoulders. The look he gave her was bleak as a Siberian winter.
“Since then, I’ve only had one goal,” he said, his voice raw. “Getting my soul back, however I have to.”
They sat in silence for a few long minutes. He leaned almost imperceptibly against her, as if savoring her warmth.
“I’m sorry,” she said again. “And at the risk of sounding all Good Will Hunting…it wasn’t your fault.”
“At the risk of sounding ungrateful,” he echoed with a sardonic chuckle, “bullshit.”
She frowned, absently stroking his shoulder. “Why didn’t she sign?”
He turned to her, startled. “What?”
“Why did you sign? Why didn’t this Cyril guy just offer the deal to her directly?”
Thomas pulled away from her, standing up and pacing back over to the bar. “I had the soul he wanted,” Thomas said. “Something about soul power. Guess mine was considered more valuable.”
“Yeah, Slim told me it’s like currency. I guess you’re rich there, too,” she said, even as a thought tugged at her. Something’s not right with this story. “But he still wound up getting her soul, right? I mean, when you signed her?”
He glared at her.
“I don’t mean to rub salt in your wounds here,” she said, realizing how callous that must have come out, after he’d bared his soul—as it were—about his past.
“I never signed Elizabeth,” he said, his voice sharp as a razor. “Even if I didn’t love her as much as I did, she was a good woman, one of the best I’d ever met. I would never put her soul in that kind of jeopardy.”
Kate stood, too.
“Like you jeopardized mine?”
Her quiet words seemed to catch him up short. “That was a different situation entirely…”
It doesn’t matter, she thought, straightening. “I’m going back to work, boss,” she said, turning toward the doors and walking away.
“Damn it. Kate, you can’t—”
“I know that press conference had another reason,” she interrupted, not even looking at him.
“I don’t know what, but I’m not an idiot.
You had a different goal. Maybe it was to see how well I’d handle it.
Maybe it was to send a message to that Cyril guy that you’ve signed somebody.
I don’t know. But if you tell me why, I’ll be able to do a lot better job, and I might even be able to help you. ”
She heard him sigh heavily. “I’m trying to protect you, Kate.”
The worst part was, he sounded like he meant it.
Don’t fall for it, her head counseled.
He’s a decent man, her heart chimed in, surprising her. But she’d think about that later. For now…
She straightened her shoulders, then turned to look at him. “If you don’t tell me stuff,” she flashed a taut, humorless grin at him, “I wind up saying things like ‘banging my boss’ to the local press. Just sayin’.”
His responding grin was slow, but grateful.
“So you want to tell me what’s really going on?”
He closed his eyes.
“It was a test, like you said,” he answered. “I threw you into the deep end. And while you didn’t do what I expected, you certainly handled yourself.”
He opened his eyes, his blue gaze piercing her with its intensity.
“I’m glad I hired you.”
Her heart fluttered, and she clamped down on the errant emotion.
“Yeah, well, give it a week.” She kept her smile steady, then retreated to the elevator. When the doors closed, she rested her forehead against the cool metal.
I know you’re still lying to me, she thought. But given the story he’d just told her—the obvious pain, his raw emotions that seemed to bring out some strong feelings of her own—she’d let it slide.
For now.