Chapter 5 #2
I scrolled further, finding more content that made my chest tight for different reasons.
Griffin’s follower count had exploded past twenty thousand.
There were thirst trap edits of him, slow-motion clips of his smile, compilations of his most charming moments.
The comments were full of fire emojis and marriage proposals from viewers who’d fallen for his golden retriever energy exactly as predicted.
And the edits made something twist inside my chest. Damn.
They weren’t even bad. They made my stomach flutter.
“Look at this one,” I said, showing him a TikTok that had gotten half a million views. It was Griffin laughing at something during practice, the sound slowed down and set to atmospheric music that made him look ethereal.
He watched it with growing amazement. “This is insane.”
“You’re famous now.”
“We’re famous,” he corrected, but his attention was already back on his own phone, scrolling through his notifications with wonder.
On the television, the episode was winding down with a preview of next week’s drama. Tension in the locker room, conflicts with opposing teams, the suggestion of romantic entanglements that would complicate our tight-knit group dynamic.
The room around us buzzed with mixed energy. Toby was practically vibrating with excitement, refreshing his social media constantly and reading comments aloud. “Someone called me ‘baby hockey boy,’ and I don’t know if I should be offended or flattered.”
Mason had his arms crossed, but I could see the pleased smirk he was trying to hide. The rebel persona was working exactly as intended. Even the negative comments seemed to feed his satisfaction.
Griffin was absorbed in his phone, occasionally showing me particularly funny or flattering posts. His wonder was infectious, that childlike joy he brought to new experiences making even this surreal situation feel manageable.
Phoenix sat silent, his expression growing darker as the episode progressed. When the credits finally rolled, he stood abruptly.
“Well,” he said, his voice carefully controlled. “That was something.”
“Come on, Phoenix,” Toby said. “It wasn’t that bad. The gay pioneer thing is kind of badass.”
Phoenix’s laugh was sharp. “Badass. Right.” He ran a hand through his hair, frustration bleeding through his composure.
“They made me into a symbol instead of a person. Everything I say, everything I do, it’s filtered through this lens of being the team’s token gay guy struggling against hockey culture. ”
“But you’re not struggling,” Griffin said. “You’re our captain because you’re good at it, not because you’re gay.”
“Tell that to the editing team.”
The room fell quiet. Phoenix had a point. The episode had framed his leadership through the lens of his sexuality in a way that reduced everything else about him to secondary characteristics.
“At least they didn’t make you Russian,” I said, trying to lighten the mood.
Phoenix’s mouth twitched toward a smile. “Small mercies.”
Damon stood and stretched, apparently done with the drama. “I’m going to bed. Let me know when they make me look interesting.”
His indifference was exactly what the cameras had captured, and apparently what audiences would see.
The comments about him were all variations on “mysterious hot guy” and “strong silent type,” followed by “Whatever happened to Garry Cooper?” or simply a GIF of Tony Soprano lifting his eyebrows.
He seemed genuinely unbothered by the attention.
As the group began to disperse, I caught Griffin’s eye. He was still scrolling through social media, his expression cycling between amazement and something that looked almost overwhelmed.
“You okay?” I asked.
“Yeah, just…” He gestured at his phone. “This is a lot.”
It was a lot. In the space of one hour, we’d gone from college students to internet personalities. Our faces were being dissected by strangers, our friendship analyzed and celebrated and turned into entertainment.
The privacy we’d taken for granted was gone. Every interaction from here on would be filtered through the lens of public expectation. People had opinions about us now, had favorites, had hopes for storylines that hadn’t even occurred to us.
I looked at Griffin again, at the way the living room lights caught the gold in his light brown hair, at the slight furrow of concentration between his eyebrows as he processed his new reality.
In a few hours, thousands more people would know his face, his name, his laugh.
They’d fall for the same charm that had been pulling people into his orbit for years.
That had pulled me there and kept me for a decade.
The thought should have made me jealous. Instead, I felt protective. This was still Griffin, still the same person who’d waited for me at the gym and spotted my lifts and made everything brighter just by being present. Fame might change how the world saw him, but it wouldn’t change who he was.
At least, I hoped it wouldn’t.
“Come on,” I said, standing. “Let’s get out of here before someone starts planning our next social media strategy.”
He laughed, the sound cutting through my worry. “You say that like Phoenix isn’t already three steps ahead of us.”
We headed toward the stairs, leaving the rest of the team to process their new fame. Tomorrow, there would be more cameras, more interviews, more content to feed the machine that had apparently decided we were worth watching.
But tonight, walking up the stairs beside Griffin while he scrolled through comments from people who thought our friendship was goals, I tried to hold on to the simple truth underneath all the noise: he was still my best friend, and I was still in love with him, and those two facts remained constant, no matter how many people were watching.
The notifications on my phone kept buzzing, each one a reminder that privacy was a luxury we no longer possessed. But as we reached our room and Griffin flopped onto his bed with his phone still glowing, I realized the strangest thing about the whole experience.
The world thought they were seeing our friendship clearly for the first time.
They had no idea how much I was hiding, how carefully I’d been guarding the truth of what Griffin meant to me.
The cameras might have caught my obvious affection, but they’d missed the deeper current of longing that ran beneath every shared glance.
In a way, performing for the cameras might be easier than I’d thought. I just had to keep doing what I’d been doing for years: loving Griffin quietly, carefully, and, above all, invisibly.
The difference now was that millions of people would be watching me do it, calling it bromance goals and celebrating the friendship they thought they understood.
If only they knew.