Chapter 24 Robyn
ROBYN
Agentle Scottish mist attempted to cool my skin as I ran along the perfect golden sands of Ardnoch Beach.
It was firm beneath my feet as I stuck close to shore, the water of the firth an arcadian soundtrack to my exercise.
Lucy usually ran with me in the mornings and distracted me from scenery I knew I’d never get used to or take for granted.
Alone, I could revel in its beauty. I’d never seen sand like it and never thought I’d find it in Scotland.
Miles of it stretched before me, a guide along the water as dark green hills loomed in the distance where the earth jutted out into the sea.
Sunbeams cut through gray clouds, spilling angelic rays of champagne light across the water.
I’d needed this.
Some alone time.
Lucy had texted yesterday to tell me she would be in Edinburgh for a few days so to run without her. I’d texted her back but ignored the several missed calls I had on my phone.
One from my mom, and an unopened voicemail.
And two missed calls from Lachlan yesterday afternoon.
I also had a text message from Arrochar reminding me we needed to set a date for dinner together.
Life was starting to feel a little out of my control.
Mac and I seemed to be speeding ahead into a relationship, and there was a part of me still terrified he would hurt me.
Despite my feelings toward my mom, I also hated that we weren’t on good terms and wouldn’t be until I had the chance to speak with her face-to-face.
And Lachlan.
Jesus, I didn’t know what to do about him. My heart warily suggested one thing while my body urged me to throw caution to the wind.
My body was pretty loud about it too.
Ever notice how it’s always the moron who’s the loudest in the room?
And then there was, of course, the glaring, startling reality that Mac’s attacker and Lachlan’s stalker had still not been caught.
The run on the beach allowed me to shrug off my worries and just let myself be. But it didn’t take long for all my concerns to propel themselves back to the fore. Deciding the run was over, and to return to the trailer so I could proceed with my plans for the day, I upped the energy.
There was one person I hadn’t had a chance to talk to. He hadn’t been at the ceilidh. No surprise there since Lachlan was in attendance. Yesterday, I’d taken Mac for a drive, and we’d chatted about everything and nothing, including the case, and I’d asked about McCulloch and the land issue.
According to Mac, Collum McCulloch owned a small farm north of Ardnoch. But the family had insisted for centuries that they used to own land south of Ardnoch that bordered Adair land. It wasn’t a huge piece of property, but it was coastal.
It was Adair land now, and Lachlan’s members had homes on it.
The farm still existed northwest of the village, and it was where I planned to go.
Taking a quick shower and throwing on the nearest clean clothes I could find (not having on-site laundry was a pain!), I jumped into my SUV in investigation mode.
I thought on what a great day I’d had with my dad and how afterward when I returned to the trailer, I’d begun to feel anxious about it.
Dad and I were cut from the same cloth. I noticed things about his personality that I recognized in myself.
For instance, he had to know about my affair with Lachlan, but he didn’t lecture me about it.
In fact, he didn’t even mention it. That was so like me.
If I thought someone might be sensitive about something, I left well enough alone until they wanted to talk about it.
As we drove and he talked about his life with Lachlan and all the traveling they’d done, my wanderlust envied him. Mom had always been perplexed by my desire to journey to different places, but now I realized I’d inherited it from Mac. I just hadn’t been able to afford to do it.
Our taste in music was the same. When I turned on my car, I switched the radio to a rock channel and throughout the day, I’d hear him murmuring the lyrics to the songs I loved too.
While he peppered me with questions about school and work and friends and past boyfriends and everything he’d missed, there were also moments when I stopped the car to take photographs of the scenery, and Mac stood at my side in easy silence.
Comfortable silences that existed between fathers and daughters who’d been in each other’s lives from the moment she first opened her eyes.
We had it. In spite of all the crap between us … we had that easiness.
And it scared me.
It didn’t make sense. The whole point of coming here was to see if I could salvage my relationship with my father. Yet now that I knew it was possible, I was anxious.
It worried me because that bond between us could break my heart all over again if Mac decided he wasn’t interested in maintaining a relationship with me.
While my gut said he wouldn’t do that to me again, that he was enjoying reconnecting just as much as I was, I couldn’t quite rid myself of the fear, though I was determined not to give into it.
Then I remembered a particular part of my conversation with Mac yesterday that had moved me.
“So …” I’d studied Mac as we stood at the side of the road in among hills and valleys.
I’d caught sight of a stag on the hills not far from the road, and the majestic beast had allowed me a few shots before he took off.
It was then I found myself wondering whether I was allowed to ask Mac about his love life.
I was curious. And he had asked about mine.
“There’s never been anyone special in your life?
A girlfriend you thought about settling down with? ”
My father had shrugged, apparently not uncomfortable with the question. “Not really, no.”
“In all your forty-four years, you haven’t been in love?”
He raised an eyebrow. “There’s a distinct difference between those two questions.”
Aha! So he had been in love, just not with someone he dated. “What happened?”
“A number of things. I suppose fear got in the way.”
Surprised, I replied, “I can’t imagine you being afraid of anything.”
“Does reality disappoint you?”
“No,” I promised him. “I just … I’m sad that was the reason. And continually blown away by your honesty.” Not a lot of men, especially not a lot of men perceived as tough-guy bodyguards, would admit to feeling fear over anything, let alone love.
Mac searched my face. “Everything you’ve told me about yourself, everything I can see for myself … I bet you’ve never run away from anything because you were frightened.”
I considered this. “I guess … and I’m not saying this to hurt you because that’s not my intention. This is just the truth. When you left, the pain was … I imagine it was a lot like grief.”
He flinched and I continued, ignoring my guilt for inflicting damage, because Mac wanted the truth.
“And I realized that terrible things happen, things that hurt so bad, it’s almost debilitating, but in the end, you get through it.
Time, if not a healing agent, is kind of a numbing agent.
Almost everything is survivable. Sad, frightening things happen in life, but I truly believe there’s nothing more frightening than fear itself.
” I smiled at him. “Coming here proves that. Because I was scared out of my mind to do this, to meet with you, and I’m so glad I did. ”
My last words took the shadows from Mac’s eyes, and we’d shared a soft, affectionate smile.
Then I’d pushed. “Do you want to meet someone, Mac? Have a family with her?”
Mac guffawed. “I’m a little old for that now.”
“In what reality? You’re forty-four. There’s still time for all that.”
“I’m happy as I am. Bachelor for life.” He nudged me with his elbow. “And I already have a family.”
Sensing he no longer wanted to pursue the subject, I’d let it drop.
But I thought about what I’d said to him, how there was nothing more frightening than fear itself.
Lachlan popped into my head.
Maybe I needed to remind myself of my own philosophy. Maybe I was avoiding him. Not running. Just avoiding. For now. Until I could figure out if our affair was a good idea.
Telling myself to focus as I followed directions on Google Maps to McCulloch’s farm, I missed the entrance and had to wait until I found a passing place on the single-track road to turn back.
The entrance to the farm was another rough, single-track road flanked by fenced-in fields of rolling greenery.
Farm buildings sat in the distance, and the closer I got, more animals appeared.
There were sheep on either side of me. I knew from Mac that McCulloch owned sheep and cattle, so the cows had to be farther afield.
As I slowed and guided my SUV left into the farmyard, the road changed to packed mud, and I thanked God I’d put on my hiking boots instead of my sneakers.
I didn’t see a farmhouse, so I gathered it was somewhere else on the land.
What was here was an L-shaped building made of stone with small windows and doorways that suggested it had been here for a long time.
To my left was a large, doorless structure made of corrugated iron walls that curved up and over in a semicircle. A hoop house. Inside were animal pens.
To my right was a massive barn loaded with hay bales and farm equipment, including a tractor. Behind the barn, beyond the buildings that faced onto the farmyard was another barn.
Opening the door of my vehicle, I was assaulted by the smell.
Well, it was a farm.
I’d just closed my door when a young man appeared out of the darkness of the hoop house and sauntered toward me. He looked to be in his early twenties and had a stocky build. Dressed much like Collum McCulloch, including mud-splattered work boots, I guessed the man was a farmhand.
Hadn’t Mac said he wasn’t aware of anyone working with McCulloch that fit the description of his attacker?
And as the young farmer neared me, my suspicions grew. He had the most beautiful, piercing green eyes I’d ever seen.
Eyes that were hard to forget.
Eyes someone might use colored contacts to mask?
“Can I help?” he asked abruptly, coming to a stop just a couple feet from me.
I studied him. He wasn’t overly tall. Perhaps five ten, five eleven. Broad shouldered.
He fit the attacker’s description to a tee.
“I’m Robyn Penhaligon. I just came to ask Mr. McCulloch a few questions. You are?”
The man crossed his arms over his strong chest, eyes narrowed. “Jared McCulloch. What do you want with my grandfather?”
Say what?
“Grandfather?” Sarah had a brother? “You’re Sarah’s brother?”
“Cousin. Now what do you want?”
“What do you do here, Jared?”
“I work—”
“Don’t say another bloody word!” Collum McCulloch’s voice boomed across the farmyard like thunder. I physically jerked with the surprise of it.
Apparently, Jared was used to it because he didn’t flinch. He did, however, shut up.
I braced myself as McCulloch marched across the yard, face red with fury. “You get off my land!”
What had I done? “Excuse me?”
He reached us and jerked his chin at his grandson. Understanding the silent communication, Jared strode away without a backward glance. I glowered at McCulloch. “Hello to you too.”
“Ach, don’t give me that, lass.” He scowled ferociously.
“You can’t come onto my land, interrogating my grandson with no right to do so.
I know why you’re here, and the police have already interviewed us.
We’ve got nothing to do with whatever mess that man has landed himself in. Now get off my land.”
“What have I done to deserve such a welcome?”
“No Adair interlopers are allowed on McCulloch land.”
I flinched. “I’m not an Adair.”
“You’re as good as.”
“Because I’m Mac’s daughter?”
McCulloch curled his upper lip. “No, because you succumbed to that prick like every other bloody woman does.”
My cheeks grew hot. He didn’t mean what I thought he meant.
He nodded knowingly. “Oh aye, everyone watched the two of you at the ceilidh, and you were spotted leaving Gordon’s office seconds before Adair.”
Oh my God.
“And gossip travels fast.”
The thought of Gordon knowing Lachlan and I hooked up in his office was mortifying, but I pushed through it. “You listen to gossip?”
“Sometimes … when it’s true.” He pointed to my car. “Now get gone before I make you get gone.”
Something in his tone made me think he’d have no qualms manhandling a woman into her car, and I bristled in outrage. However, facts were facts. This was his land, and I was trespassing.
“I think you have something to do with what happened to my father,” I stated, expression hard.
There was no way I’d let this man think he scared me.
Once upon a time, he’d had my sympathy, but not now.
“And you can try to mess with me and my trailer, but you should know I’ve faced bigger and badder things in this world than a troubled old man who can’t let go of the past.”
His eyes flashed dangerously. “Get the hell off my farm.”
Anger simmered in my gut as I got into the SUV. Driving away from the farm, my fingers curled tightly around the wheel with impatience.
Because there was no one else who fit the profile of the stalker and attacker better than McCulloch and his grandchildren.
Like I said: Occam’s razor.
The simplest explanation is usually the right one.
Now I just had to prove it.