Weird Dreams #6
I did NOT need the mob to find me interesting, they could find me boring.
I would be a little sad since they said we were family, but overall, it was probably for the best. I took another drink and set it down.
I snorted, “Over two hundred emails. That’s a bit excessive.
Oh look, the Mob Boss sent me a lot of emails.
There’s Lux Vennox, and WHAT?! This is unexpected. NOXUS?!” I clicked on that one first.
Odette,
I heard you think I’d be upset with you and wanted to assure you; I am not. In fact, when I heard about you, I had lovely thoughts of what could’ve been. For all intents and purposes, I should’ve been your stepfather.
In another life, maybe even your father. Then you wouldn’t be you though, and that would be sad. My sons and I are worried about you. Please let us help you, Odette. Let me protect you as I would’ve if you’d been raised with us.
I hear you’ve met a boy who makes your head sing, hypothetically. He’s probably not good enough for my little girl, but a higher power thinks he is. I can understand the lonely life you have likely had, more than most really.
Your mother used to be different. I imagine she acts with you how her stepmother did to her at first. Unfortunately, she probably went even more extreme with you after swearing she’d never be like that. I fear that is truly the case.
Your mother is complicated. Things happened, hard things. Your mother’s and I are officially over. You were the nail in that coffin, but not for the reasons you think. It’s not that you exist, it’s the things she’s trying to do to you.
There are things you do not understand. Things that cannot be explained or believed in an email.
I can explain that I cannot hold onto the love we once had for each other when Morgana is treating an innocent child the way she is.
Your mother very well knows if she’d come home to me with you; I’d have protected you both.
You would’ve been raised as my daughter.
I want to tell you something I know your mother has never told you: You are special and rare, Odette. Your mother was the first female born in her family line in generations. No one expected a girl in the family for quite some time.
You are more surprising than you think. Definitely more than the brother you know about.
My sons are overjoyed that they have a sister and new brother to love.
While they are simultaneously very worried for you.
Also, they are very angry they haven’t gotten to know you for sixteen years and your brother even longer.
As for myself, I also mourn the years that were stolen from us. I would’ve been there the first time you crawled, for those first steps, your first words, I would’ve crushed any boy or girl who hurt your feelings. I would’ve shown you such love, along with your biological father.
Knowing your mother as I do, I can tell you something about him which might surprise you. That man has no idea you exist. Your mother wouldn’t have told him. If you’d been a boy, she would’ve. I’m sure that doesn’t make sense to you just yet.
We do worry for your brother, Lux, along with you. We also want to find him, but he’s being protected according to what you told Lux V; whereas you’re vulnerable and alone. Stay near the boy who makes your head sing. You can come see us again that way.
I am sorry that you have been so alone. It was not what I would’ve wished for in your life. I’m sure you wonder why we aren’t in your mother’s life anymore. I can’t imagine what Morgana said about her family, but she did some very bad things.
We’ve held out hope she would come home regretting her actions; however, it’s clear that will never be the case.
It saddens me deeply. For my son’s sake, I was hoping I was wrong because I do know your mother quite well.
Morgana’s never regretted a thing she’s done.
She’s quite calculating, but I’m sure you know that.
While somewhat amusing, I do need correct something you believe. We are not in the Mob. I hope you let that notion go. It appears to make you scared of us. Please, let us help you. We wish you no harm, I swear that to you.
I’m sure Morgana has made you leer to trust anyone. She would’ve made sure you had nothing, and no one, so you never realized how special and rare you are. Morgana has her agenda, and I promise it’s not for your benefit.
Please know, I will always love the version of your mother that has long since died in her soul. Morgana makes my head sing a song too, but the song has dimmed. She had ideas that I could not support. That my sons could not support as it would’ve led us into war.
Not a mob war, but a different type of war. Her stepmother jaded her quite a bit. I tried to bring out that lighter side of her. Your mother and I were happy for so very long. Then her stepmother and father returned. It was the beginning of our downfall.
Her stepmother was remorseful for how she treated her, but Morgana didn’t want to hear it. She doesn’t grant second chances, as I’m sure you know. I hope I’m wrong about the fact that I believe your mother has neglected and mistreated you.
Can you tell me about your diet? I’m sure that sounds like an off the wall question, but I have a reason for it I swear.
I know somewhere in your mother is the woman who I fell in love with.
The woman with whom I had six beautiful boys.
I fear no one will see her again though as I cannot forgive this.
Not abandoning you and trying to force you to be in an abusive relationship.
Luke will not give up, Odette. Their family won’t want to give you up. As I said, you are rare and special. No matter what Luke comes to you and says, don’t fall for the pretty words. They will be lies. Trust that song in your head, it will not steer you wrong.
Your mom stopped listening to hers. Yes, she has a song in her head too. Luke will have a harder time coming to you because Caspian is having him watched. My son is not doing so subtly either. I’m sure Luke will find a way to slip the eyes on him, but it will take him more time.
Don’t worry, the Merrick’s won’t assume it has anything to do with you. We have had tensions with them for years. It is rumored that Luke intends to take a bride then take over from his father within his family. Now, I fear it’s not a rumor and that bride is you.
I can’t let you live the life that sick boy wants for you. Don’t ever let him near your neck, Odette. We can and will kill him if he takes you. I just don’t want it to get to that point. Let us come to you before things escalate. Let us be the family we should’ve been all along.
Noxus
I had to read the email several times because tears kept filling my eyes. This man I didn’t know wanted to be there for me, and I wasn’t even his biological daughter. Noxus must have really loved my mom once upon a time.
If this is what the song in your head could lead you to, did I want to even try with Keaton? It was pointless to speculate given Keaton didn’t want to try with me. Wait. That wasn’t true. My head was foggy. I was going to have to read this email again when I was sober.
I cried reading it through several times. See them again? Wait. Did they have the same dream I did? Was that really them? It made me happier than it should. I couldn’t just not say anything.
Noxus,
I read this. I’m not totally with it right now, and you said so much I need to have a clearer head to respond.
I don’t know if you’re full of crap or telling the truth; however, I would be lying if I said your words didn’t touch me.
I’ve always wanted a father. Lux’s was so good to him and made me wish for my own.
Odette
P.S. If my mom made your head sing, I should probably stay away from the boy who makes mine sing. I can’t be hurt anymore, and you can’t be hurt when you’re alone. That’s my safe place.
I sent it and clicked on the most recent email from Caspian. His email subject lines were hilarious. This was not a man used to someone not answering him. He was getting shouty in his subject lines the more he sent. I clicked on the latest one.
Odette,
Please answer me. I am not a man accustomed to saying please. I REALLY do not want to scare you, Odette. I AM NOT A MOB BOSS. Please stop saying that. I am not a bad man, I promise. Our mother wanted me to be though.
Mom wanted me to plunge us into something we have no business being involved with.
I know if she’s told you about me that she’s said I turned my back on her.
It’s not true, little sister. Mom turned her back on our way of life.
She got greedy and wanted to do something that would cost many people their lives.
It’s what she’s trying to do with you, that’s what I believe anyway. Saying you’re dating Luke really confirmed it for me. I’m sure it is hard for you to trust people. I don’t want to imagine the version of our mom you had.
I had a very loving woman as my mother most of my life.
I was an adult when she turned bitter and angry.
You are dealing with her anger, and you do not deserve it.
You’ve done nothing wrong and seem very innocent and naive.
That’s not a bad thing, but there are certain things you are naive about that make specific things dangerous.
I know you think I’m dangerous, and I won’t lie to you little sister, I can be very dangerous.
Our mother should be quite terrified of me right now.
You should not be because I won’t hurt you.
If you end up with Luke, I will come for you.
I will come at that piece of waste with everything I have, and I will win.
My fear with that is that you will suffer more than you ever have before we manage to get to you.