24. That was quick
24
That was quick
Talon
I leaned forward, rubbing my forehead. I didn’t really have any experience with this, but Kaine had just…left. He’d practically run out, not even looking at me, and it made my cheeks hot. I mean, maybe this was part of his play? So far, he’d seemed to intuitively know exactly what I wasn’t able to voice, perfectly delivering the degradation that made me fall apart. But if this was calculated on his part, it was the first mistake he’d made. Rushing out and leaving me alone in this mess was humiliating, sure, but also just made me feel unwanted.
I slid off the stone table and slowly pulled on my pants. My eyes pricked, and I blinked, hard.
Grow up, I told myself. Ugh. Kaine had no reason to give a shit about me. But I certainly felt very different about him, now that I wasn’t trying to kill him. I’d thought, after he’d told me about his past and how relaxed he’d been with me today, that he might have felt a bit differently too.
Obviously, I’d been wrong. Of course, I had. He’d made it quite clear I was nothing more than a distraction for him .
I sniffed, clenching my jaw, Mirilith’s fervour stirring as I struggled to remain calm. It was my own fault, my lack of experience that was causing this pain. I needed to suck it up and accept that Kaine just wanted me to be his fuckboy. Which was a good thing, really.
It’s a good thing he didn’t care. Why would he?
I told myself that over and over as I made my way back to camp, each time hoping that, maybe, it would hurt a little less.