Chapter 28
She was bent over Luca’s bed, her girlfriend’s hand massaging the skin she intended to spank if Sarah didn’t fess up to what bothered her so much.
Had Sarah asked for this? Hadn’t she? When she told Luca she needed to be freed from the crushing weight on her heart, she knew something like this would happen. In fact, she welcomed it, even with the trepidation fluttering in her chest and rocking her stomach.
She had been spanked before. Lots of lovers got off on lightly tapping her jiggling ass and sometimes getting a little rougher, if the moment called for it. However, this would be her first cathartic spanking, and she had no idea what to expect.
But in Luca’s expert hands? Sarah should have known there was nothing to fear.
“Name one thing that troubles you,” Luca growled.
Sarah braced herself, hands clasped together in front of her face. “My heart hurts.”
Luca lightly spanked her left cheek. Sarah gasped, her thighs quivering from the impact.
It had felt good, but it wasn’t hard enough. She needed to be smacked out of her mind. She needed to transcend the aching regrets in her heart and embrace a higher plane of pleasure and freedom.
The people who went to her former boss’s club called it subspace. While Sarah never considered herself the submissive type in the bedroom – not like those other people referred to it – she knew it was the only way to restart her system.
Angel would have embraced it. So should Sarah. All a part of becoming whole again.
“Why does it hurt?”
She winced. “Because someone hurt me first.”
“Latch onto whatever ails you, my love, and let it go when you feel the pain. That’s the poison leaving your soul.”
Luca spanked her hard enough to send her across her bed. Luckily, Luca had her hands on Sarah’s bra and wasn’t likely to let her get away.
“Good.” Her voice never wavered, unlike Sarah’s, which cracked beneath the sudden pain swarming around her midsection. “Who hurt you, Angel?”
She clenched her hands together, biting her lip. “A cruel man.”
Fingers dug into her malleable flesh. “How did he hurt you?”
“He…” Sarah dithered between the ache in her skin and the ache in her heart. “He didn’t treat me like a human being. He used me. That wasn’t the worst thing he did.”
Luca gently yanked on her underwear. “Do you want to tell me the worst thing he did?”
One tear fell down Sarah’s cheek, and it had nothing to do with how hard her girlfriend spanked her. “He took the only thing I cared about away from me. He took away my ability to decide my own fate.”
Even though she knew it was coming, Sarah was still not prepared for the spank that forced a yelp out of her throat.
She had smacked so hard that Sarah’s mind completely blanked on her. All she could think about was the pleasure now manifesting in various parts of her body.
Like between her thighs, and definitely beneath Luca’s firm hand.
“You like it, huh?” The purr returned. How many days had it been since Sarah last heard this gorgeous tone in her girlfriend’s voice? “You like it when I spank you, don’t you, Angel?”
Her legs wobbled. I can’t stand it. It feels so… Angel was used to a good spanking that got her wet enough for whoever she was with that night. Sarah, on the other hand, viewed spanking as that thing she saw at her former boss’s nightclub and tried to ignore.
“Yes, ma’am.”
“Do you feel better after I spank you?”
“Yes…”
“Or maybe you simply like it when I touch you, Angel.” Luca rubbed the breadth of Sarah’s pussy through her underwear. Such a gentle touch compared to what she had experienced on her ass. “You’ve always been pretty easy, haven’t you?”
Sarah lowered her chest to the bed, arms reaching out for nothing in particular.
“Remember when we first met?” A finger dipped inside of her.
Didn’t think it would be that easy for her to do.
Fuck, how wet am I? Apparently, Sarah was wet enough to take a finger with no friction whatsoever.
“You threw yourself at me. Demanded that I pay attention to you. So confident, so beautiful… how could I resist you?”
Dare she say it? “You tried to resist me.”
“You’re right. I did. I knew you were fucking trouble, Sarah.
I knew giving in to my lust would doom me to more than pleasure for one night.
I was right, too. I never once stopped thinking about you that weekend.
” Luca unzipped her trousers with her other hand.
Meanwhile, her finger continued to slowly fuck Sarah, making her wetter and opening her up for something bigger.
Sarah gasped into the bedspread beneath her.
She’s going to fuck me, and I won’t be able to stand it.
Her neurons were already on fire from that hard spanking.
Her brain wasn’t as purged as she wanted it to be, but would it ever be?
“I tried to forget about you because you were nothing but a one-night stand. Yet there you were Monday morning, as captivating as you had been dressed as another persona.”
She pulled Sarah’s hair back into a single, manageable fistful. Sarah’s head went up the moment Luca’s strap-on touched her opening. She immediately shuddered.
“Did you think about me too?”
“Yes.” It wasn’t a lie. “I thought I would forget about you like all the others.”
“But the universe didn’t let you forget about me. It made sure you knew that you and I were meant to be together, didn’t it?”
“Yes…”
“What was that? I can’t hear you, Angel.”
“Yes, ma’am!”
Luca teased her with the promises of hard sex. Yes. Give it to me. Make me wild for you, Lu. Make me lose my mind and not care about who I am anymore! Just fucking take her!
But Luca didn’t enter her. She pulled away, also releasing her grip on Sarah’s underwear.
“If you could have anything right now, my love.” Luca could use that voice to drive her wild, anyway. Sarah was quickly reaching the boiling point with her insatiable lust. Who knew I had this much desire in me when I was… like this? “What would it be?”
“Use me.” She turned, sitting back on her legs, eyes glancing between her prominent jaw and the strap-on she had put on in the bathroom. “Make me feel like I did in that video.”
Luca chuckled, the most lighthearted sound all night. “I’m only one woman, Angel.”
“Not to me you aren’t.” She pressed her hands against Luca’s chest. “Have your way with me. I need it. Go at me hard. Take me places you’ve only fantasized about.”
“I don’t want to hurt you.”
“You gave me a safe word before we began.” New York. Where they met. “You have to understand. It’s eating away at me in ways I can’t explain. I need to feel that. I need you to take me down to that level before I can build myself up again.”
“I could never debase you.”
“That’s the secret, isn’t it? You won’t be.
It’s all role-playing.” Sarah wouldn’t tell her that she would be far from playing a role to begin with.
This was reality for Sarah. A reality she was desperate to dismantle and rebuild anew.
“Please, Luca. You don’t understand. Where my mind was back then…
where it could be now… I have to know I can feel something like that and honest to God enjoy it.
I’m fucked up, you know? The fantasies I have, the kind of things I used to go out and do…
they’re so fucked up! How else will I get through them if I don’t have someone I trust helping me? ”
“Angel.” Luca smoothed back Sarah’s hair and brushed away one of her stray tears. “You’re not fucked up. You’re not broken. You were handed a bad hand, and you’re trying to make the best play possible.”
“So what does that make you? The dealer?”
“Let’s hope not. I’m terrible at poker.”
They shared a soft kiss that would usually make Sarah smile. Now, all she could do was sigh against Luca’s lips.
“Please,” she said again. “Give me what I need. I know my limits. You know me.”
“I’m still getting to know you, little by little.”
“Now’s your chance to find out a lot about me.”
She kissed her again, this time with more power behind her mouth. Oh, Luca wanted her. She must be dying beneath her skin to fuck Sarah like a beast would in the wild. Yes, yes, oh my God, yes! Sarah held onto her as she attempted to draw Luca down onto the bed.
That wasn’t good enough for Luca, who soon gave her what she wanted.
“Not yet,” she snapped. Sarah fell forward toward the edge of the bed. “You earn something like that, Angel. Now, who are you tonight?”
She held her hands behind her back. Where had this sudden vulnerability come from on her part? “I’m yours, ma’am.”
“Yes. You’re my dirty princess who throws herself at strange women to get what she wants. Tell me, what’s stopping me from using you as if you were born to be my thrall in the bedroom?”
The snap in her words kept Sarah on her knees. Please, for the love of God, tell me to get you off. She yearned to feel that power inside of her. For Luca to share it with her. Please. I need it. I’m so weak on my own.
“Absolutely nothing, ma’am.” Nothing but her safe word, and Sarah had no reason to use it yet. “Take from me whatever you want. Make me feel like you’re five women in one.” May the universe have mercy on her and make her feel like the last woman Luca would ever need.
Even Sarah was amazed that they could both easily fall into their respective roles.How much had Luca been holding back whenever they made love? How often had she looked at Sarah and fantasized about doing what she did that night?
Telling her to eat her out, to get her wet, and proceeding to fuck her face until she happily gagged.
Ripping off her bra, tearing apart her tights, and slamming the strap-on inside her, her thrusts so damn hard that Sarah lurched forward with every motion.
Spanking her ass every time she wiggled, as if she could control her movements with a firm hand.
Calling her every dirty, filthy name in the book and listening to her get off on them.Making her come from how she handled her, fucked her, sucked her skin, and teased her with more orgasms she never delivered.