9. Keeping Promises
CHAPTER 9
KEEPING PROMISES
Nisa
I can't believe I'm here. After Hugh died, I wanted to be with the club, but Leo was adamant that I stay away from the club. Every time I'd show up at the door, he would send me away. I tried to sneak in when he wasn't there, but he made sure that all the patched members knew that I wasn't supposed to be in there.
He doesn't understand how much it hurts to be shunned by people who were supposed to love me.
Yet here I am right as my world's about to fall to shit on the back of his bike with my arms wrapped around his muscular waist. My hands roam up his stomach, and he smacks his hand over mine to get me to stop.
"I'm fucking driving, Nisa." He barks out at me when we come to a stop. "Be still."
I huff out a breath and hold on to his sides, ensuring I don't move again. I'm so fucking sicking and tired of Leo. He's an asshole and someone I don't need in my life.
He pulls his bike into the parking lot of the Chrome Creed motorcycle club, and I walk towards the door. A prospect with the tag Shake on his rags opens up the door but doesn't move when he sees me. I guess he finally got the memo that I'm not allowed on the premises.
"Are you going to move out the way, or is there going to be a problem?" I snap at him. I don't want to be here, but there is no way Leo will let me walk off again, especially since my mom came to him for help.
"It's going to be a problem. I can't let you in here."
"Ease off, Shake. She's here with me." Leo says from behind me. He walks by and grabs my hand tugging me alongside him.
"Do you have to fucking manhandle me all the time?" I try to rip my hand away from him, but he turns so that I end up bumping into his chest.
"Yeah, I do. What you don't understand, Nisa, is I don't tolerate people going against what I say. So if I have to fucking manhandle you to get your ass under control, I will. "
My core clenches hard as images of him controlling my body in ways I only ever dreamed about race through my mind.
"I'm not one of your little recruits Leo. You can't control me." I squint my eyes at him and pull at my arm again.
"We'll see. Right now, get your ass in the screen room."
"What for? We're going to watch a movie?" He finally lets me go, and I rub my wrist. I stand there glaring at him.
"God damn woman, does everything have to be a fight with you?"
"Do you not know me at all." I raise an eyebrow at him and am gifted with his deep chuckling laugh.
"Girl, bring your ass."
I follow him into the small room they use as a movie theater and sit in one of the comfy reclining chairs.
"Nisa, I need you to tell me what happened the night of the party." He stands in front of me with his arms crossed over his chest and his feet spread apart.
I bite the inside of my mouth to keep from licking my lips. The man is sexy as sin. Most people fall for a person because of their eyes or their arms. Weird as it sounds, the man's neck drives me wild. I want to lay my face against it, lick up the side until I reach his ear, and bite on it.
I shake my head and try to focus on what he's asking me. Questions I can't answer.
"What are you talking about? I was being crushed under your clubhouse the night of the party." I look down at my nails and pick the last bits of dirt out from underneath them.
"Bullshit, my guys saw you talking to someone minutes before the bomb went off. I want to know who it is and what you were doing with them."
My heart squeezes in my chest. Fuck, someone saw me. I was sure that no one was paying attention.
"I think your little biker buddies may have had one too many. I wasn't talking to anybody. " I flip my hand in the air trying to dismiss Leo.
"Don't you fucking lie to me, Nisa! I know you, and whatever the fuck you're trying to pull right now, isn't it. What the hell happened to you?" He snaps at me, moving closer into my space.
"I grew up. Fast and hard. It's what happens when people are abandoned. They learn to look out for themselves."
He growls and lunges in my direction, "I didn't fucking abandon you, Nisa! For fucks sake, I did what I thought was best for you. I did what I thought your brother would want me to do. What do you want from me!" He screams in my face.
I stare into his eyes, the ones that have plagued my dreams for so long. I see the pain there. He means it. He thinks he is honoring my brother in some ridiculous way.
"I want you, Leo, my family, my security. I want what I had when Hugh was alive. That's all I've ever wanted."
His voice softens, and he grabs my waist leaning down so we are at eye level.
"Nisa, we didn't go anywhere. I'm here for you. The club is here for you. We'll always be here for you."
I let out a shaky breath and lean closer into him. "It doesn't feel like it, Leo. I feel so alone. I'm alone and scared."
I wrap my arms around his neck, and he lays his forehead against mine. It's a sweet moment, not one I would have ever thought Leo capable of.
"You'll never be alone Nisa, as long as I'm breathing, I'll be here for you. Forever." He leans his head back so I can see in his eyes.
"Promise?"
"Yes, I fucking swear it on my soul. I'm always going to be here, Nisa." He licks his lips slightly, and for a brief second, I see his eyes dart down to my lips.
"Just kiss me, Leo," I scream at him internally, but he doesn't move.
I'm not going to let this opportunity get away from me. I've wanted to feel Leo's lips on mine for as long as I can remember. If he won't make the first move, I'll do it for him.
I raise on my tiptoes, catching him off guard, and press my lips to his.
"Mmmph." He grunts out, and his body locks down.
I kiss the side of his mouth and bite on his bottom lip to get a reaction out of him. After a second of him not returning my kisses, I press one final soft kiss to his lips.
"Fuck." He growls out and violently puts his hand in my hair while he slams his mouth down on mine. The kiss is hard and hungry. He commands me with his tongue and hands, and my body complies like it's made to take orders from him.
He overpowers me and pushes me until the back of my knees touches the recliner. I fall backward, but I don't let him go. He falls on top of me and continues to kiss me savagely. I pull him in as close as I can, tightening my legs around his waist.
His cock presses hard against my core through my pants, and I hiss out in a deep need.
"Leo. God."
He pulls my head back and starts sucking on my neck. I move my hands from his neck and slip them under his shirt and around to his muscular back.
I pull my nails down, and he moans loudly and rocks harder into me. He grabs hold of my shirt, but instead of pulling it off, he bunches the fabric in his hand. He tears his mouth away from my neck, and I lean up to try and get to his.
"Stop." His voice is agitated, and his muscles are tense.
"No, you don't want to stop. I don't want to stop." I pull for him again.
This time he grabs both of my arms hard and holds them down. "I said fucking stop. We're not doing this shit. We shouldn't have even done this." He pushes off where I am and runs a hand over his face.
"What? Why the hell not Leo. You don't make any sense. Did you get married, and I didn't know?"
He sighs and tries to leave.
Nope, not this time.
I jump out of the seat and grab hold of him, "No! You don't get to walk out on me after you just promised you'd be here for me."
He shoves his hands in his hair and leans his head back, "Woman, you're driving me out of my fucking mind." He drops his gaze back to me, "I am going to be here for you, just not like that. You don't want to fuck around with someone like me. I'm not supposed to be with someone like you." He shakes his head.
"What do you know about who I want to fuck around with? I'm an adult Leo. I know what I want. I want you."
He closes his eyes as if my words had hurt him, "You can't want me. Just the way I can't want you. I promised him, Nisa. We all did. I'm not going to break that promise."
Promise? What the hell is he talking about? Who did he promise? "What do you mean? You promised who what?"
"Hugh, we all promised Hugh that we wouldn't bring you into this life, that we wouldn't fuck around with you. Hugh was very protective of you." Leo smirks at the memory of my brother, and I have to let loose a chuckle myself.
"Are you serious." This is the most ridiculous shit I've ever heard in my life. "You won't allow whatever the fuck is happening between us to happen because of a stupid promise you made my dead brother?"
"Yeah, and I keep my fucking word, so whatever you think is happening, isn't." He backs up toward the door again. "Look, I'll get a room together for you, get some sleep, forget this shit ever happened, and then tomorrow we'll try this shit again. You're going to tell me what the hell went down and why you're running away. Don't make shit harder than it has to be, Nisa." He squints his eyes at me.
I cross my arms over my chest, "Do you know me at all, Leo?"
He laughs, walking out the room, leaving me horny as hell and with a new goal.
How do I get Leo to make me his?