Chapter 16 It Was Not Love
Back then, Fu Jiye had wanted to confess to me the moment we graduated. Gu Qunian beat him to it.
Whenever that came up, I could tell Fu Jiye was angry.
"That Gu Qunian is a total idiot. Where does he get the face to come back looking for you? You already have a Boyfriend as handsome, rich, smart, and clever as me. If I were him, I would have tucked my tail and behaved a long time ago."
After Gu Qunian learned my real identity, he came looking for me quite a few times.
Without me, he was even more down and out.
Li Yuqiu was the one he had kept chasing. After she found out he was gay, and that he had still gone after her while he was with me, she seemed disgusted. She found people to beat him hard.
From then on, everything he had carefully hidden could not stay hidden.
Gu Qunian came running back to me again.
"Liao Xing, I regret it."
"Love me one more time, all right? If you had said earlier that you were Young Master Liao, with all this money, why did you have to pretend to be poor with me?"
"If your family had just put out a little more money, we would not have ended up like this."
Fu Jiye happened to walk in on that. We teamed up and beat Gu Qunian again.
"Gu Qunian, you are disgusting. Someone like you makes me want to throw up if I look at you one more time. How was I ever blind enough to like you back then."
"If you dare come looking for me again, I will hit you every time I see you."
Only then did I feel that what I had for Gu Qunian might not have been love.
That night, he just happened to be beside me. I had mistaken being moved for a crush.
At the start, I still thought it was interesting.
After all, I had never been in a relationship that bland and tasteless.
What would a top student like Gu Qunian be like in love?
I started imagining what it would be like to rent a place with a boyfriend.
I scrolled through videos like that on all the big platforms.
We would get up together every day. We would use couple toothbrushes. He would squeeze the toothpaste for me, and I would pick the clothes that matched for him that day...
We would buy groceries and cook together. We could even keep a cute little cat. Every piece of furniture could be a color we liked.
Since I was little, I had longed for a real home.
Loving and harmonious, like Fu Jiye's home.
But after I lived with Gu Qunian in the Rental Apartment, all those beautiful fantasies of mine fell apart.
No money. Life was a total mess.
Gu Qunian was not willing to take care of anyone. He always put on that proud, aloof act. I had never done any housework either. Neither of us would lower our heads.
He seemed to have acted on a whim. I had been pitifully stupid. From start to finish, we were not suited at all.
I only understood that then.
But Fu Jiye was different.
His mouth was a little mean, but in what he did, he never let me lose out.
He said, "Ah Xing, you are good. You do not need to change. I just like you like this."
"I have liked you since early on. In my eyes, you really are good. I only like you. Even abroad, your photos helped me get through it."