Chapter Twenty-Seven
SILAS
Dinner with Kai’s family…well, our family, had gone great. No one had seemed surprised by our news. If anything, they were relieved.
The knowledge that even his parents had known about Kai’s feelings for me had a knot of guilt forming in my stomach. How was it that everyone had been able to see how he felt except for me?
I got why no one said anything, but fuck.
I wish they had. Anything to take back the years of hurt I’d unwittingly bestowed on Kai.
I couldn’t help thinking about all the girls I’d taken back to the hotel, a different one every night.
How Kai would dip out early whenever I hit it off with someone in a club.
How he’d always had an excuse if I invited him along with a girl I was dating.
Little by little, I’d been breaking his heart. And he might’ve said he was fine with it.
But I wasn’t sure I was.
“Okay, what’s wrong?”
“Nothing,” I replied, striding into the bedroom and kicking off my shoes. Like always, we were crashing at his parents’ house. It meant we could have a few beers at dinner without worrying about getting home. “Just tired.”
Kai’s nostrils flared like they had all those years ago in the woods, the day he’d learned the truth about my home life. “Don’t lie to me, Silas. We don’t do that anymore.”
Anymore. Because we both knew he’d been lying to me for a very long time.
I sat on the edge of the bed, leaning on my knees and letting my head drop forward. “I’m just…all up in my head.”
His knees brushed my hands as he stood before me. “About what.”
I groaned internally. “If I tell you, it’s just gonna piss you off.”
“Well, if you don’t tell me, I’m gonna get pissed off anyway. Seems like you’re fucked either way.”
I sighed. He was right. There was no getting around it. “I’m frustrated with myself. For not seeing what everyone else obviously could.”
Kai’s fingers went under my chin, tilting my head up until I looked at him. My mouth went dry at the sight of him smouldering down at me. His dreads were loose, hanging around his head as his eyes sparked with heat. “Okay, I’m going to say this once, and only once. You got that?”
Fuck, he was hot when he got bossy. “Maybe.”
He smirked like he knew the effect he was having on me.
Pretty sure the bulge in my trousers was giving me away.
“You are not to blame for things that happened in the past. It has no bearing on us now. Or maybe it does. Without those things happening, maybe we wouldn’t have ended up here right now. ”
“I still wish I’d figured things out earlier.”
“But maybe if you had, it might not have worked,” Kai said firmly. “We were young and stupid back then. Maybe this is the way it had to happen. Maybe we needed to be ready before taking this step.”
Kai’s words healed an aching wound in my heart.
He was right. It was time to stop living in the past and start living in the present.
My attention snagged on the sizable bulge level with my face, my mind helpfully supplying me with an idea on how we could demonstrate living in the present. “I’m so ready now.”
He went to step back, but I grabbed him around the back of his thighs. “Where do you think you’re going?”
A small wrinkle appeared between Kai’s brows. “Umm…to get ready for bed?”
“But I said I’m ready.” I grinned mischievously as I slid my hands up to squeeze his arse. “And look, here I am at the perfect height to suck you off.”
Kai groaned. “That’s not even slightly what we were talking about.”
“I know…but now that’s done and dusted, I was thinking we could do other things. More fun things.”
“You were thinking about that while we were having a serious discussion?”
“It’s called multitasking, Kai.” I pulled on his trousers, my mouth watering as his hard cock was revealed. “Besides, it’s your fault for dangling that weapon in my face.”
Kai laughed. “You’re the one who got it out.”
My hand glided along his shaft, going underneath to cup his balls. “Because getting it out leads to fun things. I’m just making up for lost time here.”
“Fuuck,” Kai said as I rolled my hand over his balls. “Wait, we’re at my parents’ house.”
I snorted. “Didn’t stop us last time.”
“I guess not…”
I winked at him. “Guess this time you’ll have to be quiet.”
Holding his cock towards my mouth, I studied it for a moment. I hadn’t done this yet. Sure, Kai had sucked me off many times, but I’d yet to return the favour.
“You know you don’t have to do anything,” Kai said quietly.
“I know that, but I want to. I’m just taking my time about it.”
“You don’t have to get it all in.” Kai’s voice was hoarse as he ran a hand over my hair.
“Get all of it in? Fuck, Kai, I’m a bassist. Not a sword swallower.”
He gave a throaty laugh. “You’re a fucking wind-up merchant, that’s what you are. But seriously, just having your mouth on me will be enough to wreck me.”
I took a deep breath. After a week of almost nonstop sex, I was familiar with the size and shape of him. If anything, that made me more nervous than I might’ve been. Now I knew damn well how big he was. I was reminded every time I sat down, for fuck’s sake.
But I wanted this. I wanted to be the one driving Kai crazy with pleasure.
Besides, like he said, I didn’t need to deep-throat him. We could work up to that.
I could become the deep-throating champion.
Maybe.
Starting slow, I flicked my tongue over his slit. The whimper from Kai gave me the confidence to run my tongue over the head. I moaned at the taste, so foreign, yet also undeniably Kai.
“Silas,” Kai whispered. “That’s it, baby.”
I preened under his praise. Opening my mouth wide, I took the first few inches of him into my mouth. Sucking experimentally, I swirled my tongue around him.
“Holy fucking shit, Silas!”
I pulled off with a plopping noise to glare at him. “Shh! If anyone hears us, we won’t ever live it down.”
He looked at me pleadingly. “I can’t help it. I told you what having your mouth on me would do.”
I thought quickly, nudging him backwards. “Come on.”
Within a few minutes, we were enclosed in the ensuite, the door firmly locked. Naked and with the shower running, Kai was free to be as loud as he liked.
Well, within reason. It wasn’t as good as a literal sound booth, but it was better than the bedroom.
Which was good because Kai could not keep quiet. And I was fucking here for it.
“That’s it, baby,” he praised, his hands deep in my hair as I bobbed on his cock. I was on my knees, water spraying over me from the shower. I didn’t care though. I was too focused on driving Kai wild.
His knees trembled, the wall holding him up as I sucked him down. I’d been right. There was no way I could fit all of him in. There was also no way I was ready for him to fuck my throat the way I did with him.
Baby steps. We’d get there.
Instead, I jacked the lower half of his cock with enthusiasm while my mouth took care of the top half.
“Love you on your knees for me,” Kai groaned, his fingers tightening on my hair. “Fuck, Silas. How am I supposed to watch you on stage now without thinking of you like this?”
I couldn’t smile at him, not with his cock stretching my mouth wide. But I looked up at him from under my lashes.
He was debauched.
His chest heaved rapidly, his muscles tensing and flexing. His head was thrown back, water beading down the taut lines of his neck.
And his eyes? They were on me.
“You’re so beautiful. Don’t stop. Oh my god, Si. Don’t stop, baby.”
I didn’t. I couldn’t. I was desperate to taste him. My own erection throbbed between my legs, begging for relief. It’d have to wait though. I wanted Kai to come first. No, I needed it. Needed to taste him. Needed to take him apart, knowing I was the one he needed to put him back together again.
He didn’t make me wait long. His hands spasmed on my hair as he gave a loud moan.
Hot sprays of salty liquid filled my mouth. I swallowed rapidly, but there was too much, some of it leaking out of the corners of my mouth.
I was barely able to sweep my hand over my mouth before Kai pulled me to my feet and kissed me.
“Wait,” I said, pushing back. “I taste like you.”
“Don’t care,” he murmured. “Need you too much.”
He backed me against the wall, his tongue deep in my mouth. One of his hands cupped the back of my head while the other roamed all over me.
I sank into his kiss, trying to ignore my aching cock. It was pressed against Kai’s abdomen, the friction enough to keep him interested but not enough to offer relief.
Fortunately, Kai didn’t keep me waiting. Pulling back long enough to grab a squirt of conditioner, he slicked his hand over my cock.
“Gonna get you off like this,” he muttered against my lips. “Can’t stop kissing you.”
“Fine with me,” I gasped before our mouths crashed together again.
It took mere moments for Kai’s talented hand to bring me over the edge. But it took a lot longer for us to stop making out and turn the shower off. Even that involved lots of lazy kisses.
We had a lot of time to make up for.
And boy, was it fun doing so.
The next two months passed in a cloud of bliss.
Kai and I slipped into a relationship as easily as we had our friendship. Within a few weeks of it being clear that neither of us wanted to spend a night apart, I put my house on the market and moved into his place.
His house had always felt more like home than my own, so it just made sense. Some people might think we’d moved too fast, that we were too codependent…but quite frankly, those people could fuck off.
Kai was happy. I was happy. His family was happy.
That was literally all that mattered.
Despite the fact we hadn’t gone to much effort to hide our relationship, the press hadn’t clicked onto it. Something that amused Ollie greatly. We’d told him he could have the scoop, but he’d brushed it off. “The attention will be insane, trust me. Hold on to this peace for as long as you can.”