Chapter 9
As the sun reached its zenith in the summer sky and the days began to shorten in their steady march toward fall, Lizzie had started to wonder whether her family had forgotten her.
It had been quiet—too quiet.
Except for a short missive from her cousin expressing his relief at her well-being following the attack and vowing retribution for the incident, she hadn’t heard anything from Dunoon.
The prolonged silence made it easy to forget the plans for her future and to dream of other things. Things that, were it not for her lingering hurt, would be easy to believe possible.
Lizzie knew she had no cause to be distressed that Patrick Murray had sought his pleasure elsewhere, but it did not stop her mind from torturing itself with images of him doing so every time he ventured into the village. Images that were as sharp and cutting as any knife.
At first, she tried to avoid him. Every time their eyes met she would look away, the tightness in her chest nearly unbearable. But occasionally their gazes would snag for a long heartbeat, and she swore she could see pain that mirrored her own.
As the weeks passed, she found herself grateful for the pain. It was the only thing that prevented her from making a much bigger mistake.
Like doing something foolish and losing her heart.
Patrick had appointed himself her personal guardsman, and his constant presence had begun to fray the edges of her resolve.
Whenever the opportunity arose, he was at her side, his intense, enigmatic gaze following where he could not.
At meals, in the garden, in the barmkin, he was there.
He’d invaded her home, her thoughts, her dreams.
She could not avoid him. Without her even realizing it was happening, a comfortable pattern had developed between them in the natural interweaving of their days.
In the morning while she saw to her duties around the keep, he rode or hunted with the other guardsmen.
While she tended the garden, he practiced his battle skills in the yard, often stopping on his way to and fro to exchange a word or help carry a basket.
If she ventured beyond the castle gate for a walk to the village to visit Alys or for a ride, inevitably he managed to be in the group that accompanied her.
His attentiveness had been noticed, of course, but not remarked upon. Her brother had left instructions that she was to be well guarded, and Donnan, now recovered, had come to rely upon the skilled warrior almost as much as she did.
It alarmed her to realize just how accustomed she’d become to his solid presence.
Still, in many ways he was as much of a mystery to her now as the day she’d first met him. He did seem happier, but sometimes he got that faraway look in his eyes and she knew he was remembering. Her attempts to broach the subject of his past were met with silence or a swift change of topic.
Did the subject cause him too much pain, or was there another reason for his reticence?
Lizzie couldn’t help but wonder whether he was hiding something.
Something was not quite right about him.
A little too controlled. Always careful to mask his reaction.
Maybe it was simply that she wasn’t used to being around guardsmen.
Being so much in his company, however, did not come without a cost. She alternated between not being able to imagine life without him and wishing him thousands of miles away.
Her attraction to him had intensified to the point where it felt as if she were jumping out of her skin every time he entered the room.
Though he’d kept his word and not made any attempt to kiss her again, he touched her so often that she could think of little else.
Never had she been so aware of a man. Every detail seemed etched in her mind, from the lines that crinkled around his eyes when he let go a rare smile to the scar that bisected the edge of his right brow, to the way his eyes changed from mossy green to dark emerald with the falling of the light.
And his face. She’d looked for flaws—hoping to find something to bring him down to the level of mere mortal—but further inspection had done nothing to dispel her initial impression. Patrick Murray was simply the most handsome man she’d ever seen.
Her fascination, however, had begun to chafe. She didn’t know whom she was angrier with: herself for wanting him or him for making her want him.
Lizzie was no fool; she knew what he was doing. The question was why.
She wiped her brow under the wide brim of her hat and stood up, her legs unsteady after being on her knees in the warm sun for so long.
Though there was a small kitchen garden to the west of the keep, the formal—and unusual—terraced gardens to the south were where she spent much of her time.
Today, rather than stroll around the grounds, she’d been pulling weeds.
As she walked past the rocky knoll known as “John Knox’s Pulpit,” since Knox’s stay at Castle Campbell nearly half a century before, and up the path back to the inner yard, she kept her eyes fastened on the dirt and rocks at her feet, careful to avoid glancing in the direction of the practicing warriors.
Her fascination with Patrick Murray had gotten so ridiculous that no longer could she watch his practice—particularly sword practice on warm days.
She’d almost reached the safety of the keep when a large shadow crossed her path. Her step faltered. The hair at the back of her neck stood on end, and her skin seemed to hum with the sudden spark that crackled in the air with all the subtlety of lightning.
She didn’t need to look up to know who was standing before her.
“Will you be going for your ride as usual this afternoon, my lady?”
Gritting her teeth and willing herself to indifference, she lifted her gaze … and gasped. She couldn’t help it.
Chest. All she could see was a naked wall of chest. A tanned, gleaming, naked wall of chest, with muscles rippling like sharp shards of stone chipped from the face of a rocky crag.
She couldn’t look away, momentarily mesmerized by the wide span of hard—very hard—male flesh.
His body had been honed to steely perfection, as much a weapon as the sword he wielded with such ease.
Built for battle … and female fantasies.
No man should look like this. Her eyes gorged on the taut, flat stomach and broad shoulders. On the arms as thick and powerfully wrought as any smith’s. And on the trickle of sweat that carved a wicked path over the rigid bands of his stomach to disappear beneath the waist of his low-slung trews.
Trews that left very little to the imagination, displaying the powerful muscles of his thighs in formfitting leather. And the prominent bulge …
She shook off her stupor and snapped, “No.”
He took a step closer and she could feel the heat radiating off his skin, mingling with the sultry masculine scent of toil in the sun.
“A walk, then?” His voice was low and husky, sending a shudder of awareness down her spine. Warmth spread over her like molten lava.
Curse the blighter. He was doing this on purpose. Tormenting her. Making her want him. Eyes narrowed, she met his devilish green-eyed gaze. “You might think to don a shirt before addressing a lady.”
The wretch had the nerve to grin. “My apologies. It must have slipped my mind—with it being so hot and all. If it makes you uncomfortable, I can return—”
“I’m not uncomfortable!” she shrieked like the madwoman he was turning her into. What had happened to the quiet, sensible woman she’d been before? Trying to calm the rising hysteria, she managed a smile, hoping her face didn’t crack. “We wouldn’t want to frighten the maids.”
He laughed at her jest and eyed the group of serving women loitering around the well, doing a poor job of pretending not to stare. “I see what you mean,” he said, folding his arms across his chest.
The muscles flexed and bulged to prodigious—to delicious—proportions. Her eyes widened, and her mouth went utterly dry. Good God, he’s magnificent.
She pursed her mouth together like an old shrew and practically hissed, “If that is all, you’ll excuse me. I’ve much work to do.” She tried to push past him but miscalculated and instead came into full, sizzling contact with the wall of burning-hot skin.
Though they touched for only a second, it didn’t matter. The effect, like that of a flame held to dry leaves, was devastating. Her body came alive; every nerve ending combusted with desire. Hot, heavy desire that washed through her veins in a flood of deep, insatiable yearning.
He grabbed her by the shoulders. “Whoa. Steady there. You’d best watch your step. There are quite a few rocks around to trip on.”
Lizzie felt her temper blast hot on her cheeks. Frustration turned to anger at the sight of his knowing smile. Her hands balled into tight, rigid fists at her side. “There are very big rocks underfoot, and if they don’t stay out of my way, I’ll have to see about removing them.”
And with that she spun around and stomped off toward the keep, intending to vent her considerable frustration on some very dusty carpets.
Patrick chuckled, watching her storm away, eyes blazing and face on fire, as prickly as a swarm of angry hornets.
God, she was magnificent. Spirited, passionate, beautiful. A lass any man would be proud to have at his side.
And in his bed.
His slow seduction was working, though he didn’t know who was suffering more. Nor did he know how much longer he could be patient.
He spent the days hard as a rock and the nights with his cock in hand, trying to take the edge off his frustration. But erotic dreams were a poor substitute for the woman who inspired them.
His only consolation was that he was not alone in his sexual frustration. Did she touch herself and think of him?
Hell. He adjusted the source of his constant agony and steered his thoughts from silken softness.
How much longer could she resist what was between them?