Chapter 12
When we return to the apartment, I grab her sleek silver laptop from the wooden coffee table. It’s late on Saturday, but I don’t care. “I’m off tomorrow and so are you. There are no excuses. Show me. Let’s see who’s got you swiping right or whatever you call it on your dating site.”
I sink into our comfy couch, settling into one of the millions of pillows that have multiplied like bunnies thanks to Ms. Hammer’s pillow-philia.
She grabs a hair tie from the table and loops her light brown strands into a knot on her head.
A few pieces fall around her face, framing her cheeks with pink strands.
Her lips are glossy, and it occurs to me she must have reapplied lipstick at some point.
Maybe when I made a pit stop in the little boy’s room at the diner.
I’m sure I would have noticed her slicking some on.
I would have watched, liking the way she looked when her lips formed an O.
I linger too long on that letter and all its delicious possibilities.
How she’d look when her mouth fell open in pleasure when she called out my—
Shake it off, buddy.
I remind myself of my special talent—separating feelings and thoughts. Because appreciating her lips doesn’t mean I want to kiss them. And it doesn’t mean I can’t be her lookout.
“You really want to see the guys?” she asks, parking herself next to me and tucking her feet underneath her.
“Hell, yeah.” I can’t let her be Damiened again. I guarantee I would have been able to tell he was the kind of asshat who’d do that shit. I speak dude perfectly, and I’m going to translate for her to make sure she gets what she wants and deserves in life.
She flips open the screen, toggles over to her dating site, and clicks on a profile picture. The guy looks to be about forty, and he smiles like a realtor.
“This is Bob. Apparently, he messaged me tonight.”
I rub my palms together. “All right. What does Bobby boy have to say?”
She opens the message on the site and reads aloud, “Hey there, Baker Girl. I like your pic. You’re totes cute. We have a lot in common. I like books, too.”
I stare her down, bring my hands to my armpits, and sway my shoulders back and forth like an ape. “Me like books. Books are good.”
“At least he didn’t start with asking me what kind of sex I like,” she says, like that makes his opening line less Neanderthalic.
I shake my head. “Allow me to do the honors.” I swipe him closed for her. “What else have we got?”
She peers at the screen, pointing to a message from FireTrev. “How about Trevor? He’s a firefighter.”
I read the tagline on his profile. “Baby, can I light your fire?” I arch a brow. “Swiped.”
She grabs my arm. “Is that any worse than you saying, ‘the doctor is in’?”
“One, I’m not on an online dating site, so I wouldn’t be saying that. And two, no. Which is why if I ever said that on an online dating site, you should throat-punch me.”
Her lips twitch mischievously. “With a crème br?lée torch?”
“Consider it your throat-punching device of torture when I exceed the maximum acceptable level of douchery.”
“There are actually acceptable levels?”
I shrug. “Look, you can’t expunge douchiness completely.
It’s like a cockroach. It’ll survive a nuclear explosion.
It’s a very tenacious quality in a man. I find it best to accept that there are levels of douchiness one can live with, usually manifesting as cockiness, confidence, or bravado.
” I narrow my eyes. “You gonna be okay with that harsh reality?”
She nods, intense as a soldier. “Those seem an allowable standard.”
I tip my chin to the screen and inch closer to her. “What else have we got?”
Grabbing a cranberry red pillow between us, she tosses it on the back of the couch.
Interesting. She’s made more room. She pats the vacated spot, so I move closer as she clicks on a new message.
The profile pic is a too-suave image of a dark-haired man in a sharp suit.
“That screams I-got-my-profile-pic-from-a-stock-photo-site.”
“Probably. Let’s see what he says.”
The message fills the screen as she reads, “I’m going to ask you a series of questions. Here’s the first. Would you ever date a guy who likes to wear your panties?”
I snap my gaze to her. “Is this shit for real?”
She laughs. “Yes. Sadly, it is.”
“This is ridiculous,” I sneer. I’m this close to swiping when an evil idea lands in my brain. “Can I reply?”
“What are you going to say?”
“Do you trust me?”
The look in her eyes says duh. “Yes. But . . .”
I crack my knuckles. “Allow me to take the wheel.”
She grabs my arm. “You’re not going to write anything outlandish, are you?”
“Nothing that won’t amuse you.” I hover my fingers above the keys then type, speaking the words out loud: “Sure, but only if he wears my panties on his head. To work.”
She clasps her hand over her mouth, laughing. I take that as a sign to keep this shit up.
The next question from Captain Suave is: “What is the most exciting type of intimate video for you to watch?”
Hell if I’m not eager to know what gets her off, but that’s not the point. I write back to the suit dude: “The kind your mother stars in.”
Josie laughs loudly, then I read his next question. “How often do you come every week?”
I turn to her, and even though I’m dying for her weekly orgasm count more than Suave in a Suit can know, now isn’t the time.
I reply with, “Great question. I’d love to answer it, but maybe we could start the interview with some simpler questions.
The last book you read, what kind of cereal you like, do you wear socks? ”
The guy must have just come online and seen her newest message first, because his reply to that one is swift.
“Catcher in the Rye. I don’t like cereal. Tube socks.”
I slam the machine closed and give her a pointed look. “Catcher in the Rye is high school required reading, and if that’s the last book he read, God help us. Plus, tube socks are a deal breaker. And you can’t date someone who doesn’t like cereal. There’s no excuse for that.”
She crosses her heart. “I solemnly swear to uphold the love of cereal.” She sets the laptop on the table.
“Okay, so we’ve clearly established tonight that there are lots of fish to wade through, that the love of certain breakfast foods is inviolate, and that a woman needs to allow for a teeny amount of douchery in her men. Correct?”
I nod sharply. “You are correct.”
“I’m learning,” she says, then tucks a strand of pink-streaked hair behind her ear, her silver bracelet sliding down her arm. “But what about you?”
I frown in confusion. “What about me?”
“Why are you so against online dating? Is it because of Adele? What happened with her, exactly? I’ve never known why it ended.”
I sigh. Adele. Things with her ended two years ago.
With her sharp wit and brilliant mind, Adele and I hit it off instantly as residents together, becoming fast friends. Then we became more. She was smart, outgoing, and had the best bedside manner. And by bedside manner, I do mean bedside manner.
Redheaded and leggy and wildly sexual, Adele had seemed like the perfect woman for me. “I learned she was cheating on me. Pretty much the whole time.”
Josie’s eyes pop. “That’s terrible.”
“It did kind of suck. He was a doctor at the hospital too, so I had to deal with seeing them around when she left me for good for him.”
“Oh, Chase.” Josie runs a hand down my arm. Her touch feels good, and all my instincts tell me to grab her hand and hold it tight to me. Because I like the way it feels when her hands are on me.
Big shock.
“The issue is we were friends, then we were together, and then she fell in love with someone else and was involved with that person while she was with me. And what sucked the most was that I missed her in my life.”
That’s how I learned the hard way that taking friendships to another level only results in heartache.
“I’d miss you if you weren’t in my life,” Josie says softly.
My muscles tighten with that fresh reminder to keep all thoughts of Josie on this level—the friendship one.
Her eyes roam over me, settling on my shoulders. “You’re so tense,” she says softly, then shifts her body, moving behind me, nudging me away from the back of the couch. And before I know it, she’s rubbing my shoulders.
It’s totally unexpected to have Josie’s hands on me. She’s comforting me, even though I’m not hurt anymore. But still, she seems to want to, and holy hell, is she ever talented at this. She digs her fingers into my shoulders, and it feels really fucking good. So good I groan.
“Jesus, Josie. You have great hands.”
“It comes from kneading dough,” she says, and I laugh then lean back into her, resting against her chest as she rubs my shoulders. I’m a hedonist, I’m a cat, I’m a complete pleasure-taker right now. But Josie’s hands are magic, and I have no choice but to succumb to them.
“Your shoulders are tight, sweetie,” she says, her breath soft, tickling my neck.
Sweetie. Baby.
We’ve both used terms of endearment for each other tonight. What the hell is that about?
But when her thumbs dig into my muscles, I don’t think anymore. I shut off my mind and give in to the extraordinary feeling of her hands on me. I moan and murmur, “Feels so good.”
I can sense her shifting behind me. Moving her face closer. Her lips are near my hair. “Good. Let me make you feel better.”
She makes me feel worlds better, even though I didn’t really feel bad. But I feel spectacular as she works my shoulders. It’s better than good. It’s good everywhere, including below the Mason–Dixon line, where there’s a huge statue pointing out how much better than good this is.
It’s arousing.
It’s a turn-on.
With my eyes closed and her hands massaging me, my mind floats away, picturing her sliding her hands down my chest, reaching for the bottom of my T-shirt, tugging it over my head.
My dick hardens more as I imagine her return route—those soft, strong hands playing across my abs, traveling up my stomach to my pecs, exploring me.
I let out a breath. It sounds like a turned-on groan. Because I don’t stop the fantasy there. As she touches me, I imagine her hands gliding into my hair, her lips brushing across my neck, her scent everywhere.
And then I see myself doing the next logical thing.
The only thing.
Flipping around, sliding her under me, pinning her wrists above her head.
And fucking her.
Even though I’m only her friend, even though I’m keeping it on the level, all signs in my head and body point to a different agenda.
Josie Hammer turns me on, and that’s a big fucking problem.