Chapter 44 Love Realized
I suddenly stood up.
Darkness flashed before my eyes.
I staggered and grabbed the table edge to steady myself.
"Your Highness!"
Hei Yu appeared from the shadows and worriedly supported me.
I pushed him away and stumbled toward the outside.
I had to see him!
"Your Highness the outside is full of guards.
Going out now is too dangerous."
Qing Lan and Bai Zhi also flashed out to block me.
"Move aside!"
My voice came out hoarse.
My eyes held chaos and stubbornness I had never shown.
"I need to ask him why... why he died just like that.
He hasn't told me yet... why... why..."
Why he loved me.
Why when everyone wanted me dead it was him who protected me with his life.
In the struggle the small porcelain bottle slipped from my sleeve.
It hit the ground with a crisp clang and rolled away.
It was the Birth Potion I had prepared for him.
I stared at that bottle.
All my movements froze.
I gripped the table edge.
Every pretense turned ridiculous before cold death.
Every scheme felt fragile.
National grudge and family hatred turned pointless.
My hands shook as the truth hit.
I had always believed I felt only calculation toward him.
I had always believed I stayed only for the Northern Border.
But the pain and emptiness forced me to admit—
Yuwen Huang.
At some unknown time you this barbaric domineering unreasonable madman had quietly taken root in my heart.
I had fallen in love with you.
Without me even noticing.