Chapter 4
ADRIAN
Iarrive at Emmy's apartment exactly at seven, three days after our practice kiss. Three days of overthinking, overanalyzing, and completely failing to categorize what happened between us.
My attempts to file it away as "necessary preparation" have been unsuccessful.
The memory intrudes at inopportune moments—during depositions, partner meetings, and my morning run.
I recall the softness of her lips, the small sound she made when I deepened the kiss, how her body felt pressed against mine.
Completely unprofessional thoughts. Unacceptable. Yet they persist.
Our text exchanges since that night have been careful, professional. Neither of us has mentioned what happened. I've maintained the charade that everything is normal, that I haven't replayed that kiss fifty-seven times in my head.
I straighten my tie, adjust my cuffs, and knock.
Emmy opens the door wearing a different dress than the one she texted me a photo of fifteen minutes ago.
This is the third outfit she's tried. The emerald green silk drapes perfectly across her curves, the neckline shows just enough collarbone to be elegant without revealing too much.
Her hair is half-up in some intricate style I lack the vocabulary to describe, her makeup flawless.
But her hands are shaking.
"I don't know if this dress is right," she looks down, tugging at the fabric. "Too formal? Not formal enough?"
I've never seen her like this—uncertain, genuinely nervous. Emmy, who faces everything with unflinching confidence, who challenged me in my own conference room, is standing before me, biting her lower lip, doubt written across her features.
It does something to me, this vulnerability.
"You look perfect, Emmy."
Her eyes meet mine, searching for truth. I hold her gaze, letting her see I mean it.
She exhales. "Are you sure? Because my mother will notice if I'm underdressed. Or overdressed. Or if my shoes don't match exactly or if—"
"The dress is perfect. Deep green suits you. Brings out the gold in your eyes."
Her lips part in surprise. I shouldn't notice that. I definitely shouldn't be thinking about kissing her again.
"I need to get my clutch," she says. "Come in for a minute?"
I follow her inside, past the living room where we kissed three nights ago, to her bedroom. I've never been in this space before. It's quintessentially Emmy—colorful throw pillows on an iron-frame bed, vintage quilt that must be Violet's, books stacked everywhere serving as makeshift furniture.
She rummages through her closet while I lean against the doorframe, trying not to stare at her, but failing completely.
"My mother has always been ... critical." She slumps, sitting on the edge of her bed. "Nothing I do is good enough."
I watch her twist her hands together, her knuckles whitening.
"My writing is frivolous. My lifestyle is bohemian. My singleness is a failure." Her voice drops. "A disappointment."
I see years of hurt in her expression, a wound repeatedly reopened. Something protective rises in my chest—unfamiliar, powerful.
"Your mother is wrong," I tell her, surprised by the edge in my voice.
I cross to her, unable to maintain distance when she looks like that. I adjust her necklace, though it was already perfect—an excuse to touch her, to offer comfort.
My fingers brush her neck. She looks up at me, eyes wide with surprise at the gesture.
"Our story is close to the truth." It's true. I realise. "Close is good." My voice is low. "That makes it easy to sell."
My hands linger on her shoulders longer than necessary. I can feel her warmth, the delicate bones beneath my fingers.
"We can do this."
She takes a deep breath and nods.
I want to kiss her again. Not for practice, not for show. Just because I haven't stopped thinking about it since the last time.
Instead, I step back, offer my arm—a return to professional distance.
Or an attempt at it, anyway.
The drive to Victoria's penthouse passes too quickly.
Emmy is quiet beside me, fingers twisting in her lap.
I cover her hand with mine, and the contact sends heat up my arm.
She doesn't pull away. We've touched more in the past two weeks than in the previous month, each touch lasting longer than necessary.
I'm aware of the pattern, of how we're justifying it: practice, preparation, maintaining the fiction.
But the kiss three nights ago changed something fundamental.
I've been trying to explain it logically—analyzing why her mouth felt like that, why her hands in my hair short-circuited my brain, why I haven't been able to sleep properly since.
The analysis has yielded nothing useful except the certainty that I want to do it again. And more.
The elevator rises toward the penthouse, and Emmy's grip on my hand tightens.
"Remember," keeping my voice level, "I'm here. You're not facing her alone."
"Thank you."
The doors open, and I feel her squared shoulders, preparing for battle.
Victoria Blake greets us in the foyer of her penthouse, tall and blonde and imposing in a black dress. Her cool blue eyes assess me with approval—successful attorney, right family background—before shifting to Emmy. The room temperature seems to be dropping.
"Emerson," she gushes, air-kissing her daughter's cheek. "That dress is ... bold."
I feel Emmy tense beside me. Victoria's penthouse is exactly what I expected—all white and cream, marble floors gleam, modern art on the walls that probably cost millions but conveys nothing. Everything pristine, impersonal. The opposite of Emmy's apartment with its lived-in warmth.
Marcus appears, giving Emmy an encouraging wink before introducing his girlfriend, Rachel. I observe the sibling dynamic—the protective way Marcus positions himself near Emmy, the silent communication that passes between them.
"Adrian," Victoria says, taking my arm and leading me toward the sitting room. "I've heard wonderful things about your work at Morrison & Hale. Judge Harrison Hale's son, correct? He and my husband play golf at the same club."
"Yes, that's right."
"Such a distinguished family." Her smile is practiced, perfect. "Though I must ask—doesn't dating Emmy create a conflict of interest? Given the estate situation?"
Emmy, just behind us, stiffens. I place my hand at the small of her back instinctively.
"Doesn't it compromise your professional judgment, Adrian? Dating a beneficiary?" Victoria presses.
"Emmy and I began seeing each other before the will reading," I state smoothly, the prepared lie coming easily. "The relationship predates my professional involvement."
"And you didn't think to recuse yourself?"
"I consulted with my partners. There's no violation."
Emmy's hand tightens on her wine glass. I catch Marcus watching us, his expression curious.
At dinner, we're seated at an eight-person table with only five of us. The formality feels excessive, deliberate. I sit beside Emmy, finding her hand under the table when Victoria starts in on her.
"So, Emmy, still writing your little books?"
I feel my jaw tighten at "little books."
"I'm working on my fourth novel, yes," Emmy is almost overly polite, her voice carefully controlled.
"And that's sustainable financially? Long-term?"
My hand tightens on Emmy's beneath the table. She squeezes back—silent communication, a thank you.
"Her latest novel was shortlisted for the National Book Award," I say. "Her publisher has commissioned three more books."
Victoria raises an eyebrow. "Well, that's ... nice. Though I always hoped she'd use her literature degree for something more substantial. Teaching, perhaps."
Emmy's smile is frozen, but I feel the tension in her fingers.
"Emerson always had such eccentric interests," Victoria continues, addressing me now. "Her father and I tried to encourage more practical pursuits, but she was determined to live this bohemian lifestyle."
Victoria gestures vaguely at Emmy, as if her very existence is an example of poor decision-making.
"You're a partner at a prestigious firm, Adrian. Surely you want someone more ... established."
I watch Emmy's face—smile fixed in place, eyes bright with constrained emotions. I realize she's endured this for years. Years of never being enough.
Something in me snaps.
I set down my fork with careful control, the silver meeting the china with a quiet clink that nonetheless draws everyone's attention.
"I'm sorry, Victoria, but I need to interrupt."
Emmy's head whips toward me, eyes wide.
"Emmy has published three novels. Not 'little books.' Novels that tens of thousands of readers have purchased and loved. She's received critical acclaim, maintained financial independence, and built a career on her talent and work ethic alone."
Victoria opens her mouth, but I continue, my voice perfectly polite yet lethally cold.
"She works harder than most people I know. Her dedication to her craft is remarkable. Her kindness is genuine. Her talent is extraordinary."
I turn to look at Emmy now, not Victoria. Her eyes have turned glassy, lips parted in surprise.
"Violet understood what you apparently cannot—that Emmy is exactly who she should be. She doesn't need to change to meet someone else's arbitrary standards."
The table falls silent. Marcus grins into his wine glass. Rachel looks like she wants to be anywhere but here. Victoria sits completely still, speechless, possibly for the first time in her life.
"I don't understand why you think I could do better," still looking at Emmy, "Emmy is incomparable. SHE could do better, but somehow she chose me anyway."
Emmy's eyes are bright with unshed tears. I didn't plan this speech, didn't consider the potential consequences for our arrangement. I spoke from a place I rarely access—raw, unfiltered emotion.
Victoria recovers quickly, shifts topics with practiced social grace. "The weather has been lovely this week, hasn't it? Marcus, tell Adrian about your medical rotations."