Chapter 8 Calum
Calum
“Sir, please. Be still so I can work on this knot.” Hugo, my extremely patient physical therapist, pushes his hands flat against my bare back.
I open my eyes a slit. I can see myself reflected back in the mirrors that line that walls of my private gym. Lying on my stomach, I have a pained expression.
“Go on,” I grunt, closing my eyes once more.
Hugo presses his hands against my flesh, rubbing small circles with his fingers. He comes to the knot again and his massaging only intensifies.
It hurts like a bitch as he works his hands over the knot, trying to loosen it.
“I can tell you’re thinking about the knot,” Hugo chides. “Remember, you should think calming thoughts.”
I sigh and turn my head away. Hugo has been my physical therapist for almost six years, ever since I tore the anterior cruciate ligament in my right knee.
That’s an injury that no dancer ever comes back from; one that saw me, at age twenty two and half, hurt and unsure of my future. With the help of hindsight, I’m glad that I got injured. It spurred me on, made me figure out how I was going to feed myself and keep Lucas in ballet academy.
But at the time, I thought my life was over.
Hugo finally finishes torturing me, patting me on the shoulder. “Okay. You can get up.”
I turn myself over, grimacing and rotating my shoulder in its socket a few times. I glance up and see my reflection again.
Painted across the flesh and muscle of my chest, just to the left of my heart, are two tight white clusters. Once upon a time they were bullet marks, each entering my chest just shy of piercing my heart.
Now they are healed, the skin gone from pink and tinkered to white and shiny.
I hop up off the table and grab a black t-shirt, pulling it over my head. Hugo is already folding the table up and moving it back to its out of the way spot.
I bob my head. “See you on Tuesday, Hugo.”
Hugo smiles. “I look forward to it.”
He vanishes out the swinging doors to my gym. I roll my neck and rotate my shoulder again, still feeling stiff. Then I walk over to a rack of free weights, picking up a twenty pounder.
As I begin doing curls, the doors behind me swing open again. This time it’s not Hugo but my brother Lucas.
And he has a displeased look on his face.
“Where were you?” he asks, annoyed.
I roll my eyes and focus on the weight. “You’ll have to be more specific than that if you actually want an answer.
His fists tighten. “You know what I mean, Calum. You said that you would be at the Indica Tech board meeting this morning. I was counting on your vote.”
Setting the weight down, I turn my head toward him. “Just do whatever you want to do, Lucas. The world isn’t waiting around for you to get approval. The sooner you learn that, the better.”
A muscle flexes in his cheek. “If you were just going to say that, why didn’t you do it earlier? This project has been moving at a fucking snail’s pace for months.”
I suck in a breath. “You’re supposed to be my second in charge. That means that you can do anything you want with the company. I’m the only person with the power to veto you. What more could you possibly want?”
Lucas shakes his head. “You’re such an asshole.”
I trot over to the wooden bench where my water bottle is, taking a sip. Checking the time, I am glad to see that it’s almost eight at night.
The time which I can go back to Club X. I’ve been waiting for this.
“Is there something that you wanted?” I ask my brother distractedly.
He pushes his tongue out with his cheek. “Who is she?”
I cock my head at him. “I’m sorry?”
He makes a gesture with one hand, opening his palm to the sky and flapping it closed several times. “You’ve been avoiding work lately. The only time you do that is when you have your eye on some new girl. So who is she? Is she a ballerina or is she one of your whores?”
I shoot him a baleful look. “Get fucked, Lucas.”
He chuckles, his expression reminding me of our father. “So she’s a pro, then. God, what happened to you that you turned out so fucked up?”
I turn cold as ice. “Lucas, get the fuck out of my house.”
Lucas doesn’t get to judge me for the women I sleep with.
He eases back, holding up his hands. “I just came to tell you that you have a message at the answering service that’s from Anita. Apparently it’s been there for some time.”
I look down at my fists, which closed tight at the sound of her name. “I know.”
He rolls his eyes. “You should answer it. Or at least listen to it. Jesus.”
I keep my expression blank. “Are you done?”
“You’re a dick today,” he huffs. He turns and disappears out the swinging door again.
I turn and look at myself in the mirror. I look like a little boy, clothing his water bottle, all mad at the world.
Walking toward my reflection, I hurl the water bottle. It hits the surface and explodes, distorting my image for a moment as the water runs down the wall.
Inside I’m writhing with anger, absolutely furious at the fact that Anita even had the fucking nerve to reach out. Not only that, but she obviously called my brother when no response was apparently forthcoming.
Her using Lucas really turns my stomach all over again.
She should know better. Then again, she’s a snake. How can I expect a snake not to poison everything within its reach?
The only other option is to tell my brother exactly how I got Anita to take us in after our parents died… and that’ll happen as soon as hell fucking freezes over.
I close my eyes, struggling for control. I learned so much of it in ballet, perfect control of my physical being.
But mental control…
That’s something else entirely.
I open my eyes as Club X wishes back into my consciousness.
Cerise in right there, at the top of my mind.
I’m going to make her mine tonight, no matter how much it costs. And then I’ll be so distracted that all thoughts of Anita will flee.
Growling to myself, I turn and start to walk out of the gym.