Chapter Forty-Eight
CHAPTER FORTY-EIGHT
COLTON
A m I dead? Maybe I’m just in shock. That has to be it.
Leena chuckles at my reaction and I hold the naked woman closer to me, both of us still breathing heavily in the aftershock of our orgasms as we continue to watch what’s still going on right in fucking front of us.
Not only did Leena just get off while I was tattooing her, which was goddamn hot as fuck, but she let all three of us fuck her. And god, her men giving me permission to take her ass?
I’m going to bake them a fucking cake later.
But having the best sex I’ve ever had in my entire fucking life is not what has me in shock. In a daze? Sure. I’ll be thinking about this moment for the rest of my goddamn life.
No, what has me in shock is watching the best Dom I’ve ever met let Luke slam him onto the table by his throat and fucking rail him.
I never thought I’d see it. Never even imagined it. Watching Sebastian bottom is against the natural order of life its-fucking-self.
But fuck.
The shows I choreograph don’t even fucking compare to what I’m witnessing right now. This shit has my cock nearly hard again already.
When it’s all over, I let out a long breath and stare wide-eyed at Leena.
“I know,” she says, a little breathless. “See what I have to live with? I’m horny all the fucking time,” she grumbles, sliding carefully off my lap.
I wince when she does, my hip is throbbing. Fuck, that’s going to hurt in the morning.
“And that’s a bad thing?” I smirk at her, taking in the sight of her perfect body standing before me. She’s so fucking beautiful. She let me tattoo that perfect skin.
Her first tattoo.
Fuck, that’s a big deal. It makes me feel… important.
“It’s a bad thing when they do this…” She gestures to where the two naked men are lying on the pool table, holding each other and making out slowly. Hot. I blink, turning back to her. “...right when we have somewhere to be. It ruins my underwear and usually makes us late for work.”
I smile, enjoying watching her as she slides her leggings back on.
“But you love it,” Luke says, striding over, pulling her into his arms and giving her an equally heart-throbbing kiss. Then Sebastian is behind her, and she turns, standing up on her toes to kiss him. My heart aches a little at the sight of the three of them together like this. Because I don’t know how much longer they’ll let me hang around their relationship.
Leena gave me her heart, and I intend to keep it. I intend to keep her. I’m just not sure where I fit in exactly… Sure, the sex is great, it’s always been that way with Luke and Sebastian. But what about the rest of it? How will this even work?
Will I only get to see Leena on nights the guys are busy? Go out for dates and then drop her back off at their home? And she mentioned kids?
Holy shit. I can’t even go there.
How am I supposed to tell her that I don’t want children? Then again, how could I not love them if they’re hers?
I know they gave me a key, but I feel like that was more out of pity than an invitation to stay. Sebastian seems annoyed with me more often than not, and Luke is too busy doting on Leena to even notice I’m around half the time.
My heart suddenly aches as I watch them hold each other. I think back over the last few weeks, about what just happened… and I realize that I was wrong before. Leena’s not the only thing I’ve ever wanted and couldn’t have.
It’s all of them.
I’m not falling for the guys or anything, at least, I don’t think I am, but I might have fallen in love with what they have together. This life they’ve made with each other.
But then I think, if Leena is the only part of it I can have, is it worth the heartbreak of not having it all?
I watch her crumple in laughter when Luke tickles her stomach, how she squeals when Sebastian throws her over his shoulder and starts heading toward the stairs, butt-ass naked.
“Wait! I need a shirt! Is your dick still out? Seb!” she calls out, laughing, her long black hair swaying as she puts her elbows on his back. Her eyes meet mine and she smiles wide, shaking her head at the situation.
I smile back.
Yeah. She’s fucking worth it.
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“Jace, you look ridiculous,” I say when the kid comes downstairs the next morning.
“It’s great, right?” He spins in a circle.
“It looks like you just crawled out of Walmart and they didn’t carry your size.” I snicker, shaking my head at the oversized white tank and khaki shorts, then moving my rook to take out Leena’s bishop. I smile at her over my coffee cup.
“Shit.” She sets hers down, glaring at the board.
“It’s great, Jace. They’ll never guess how much money we gave you for your shopping spree. Now give me my change.” Sebastian walks over, holding out his hand. Jace begrudgingly pulls out a wadded up pile of bills from his pocket and drops them in his hand.
Leena moves her queen into position to take out my knight. Clever. I glance up at her.
She smirks at me, but she missed one small detail here.
“Smells great, guys!” Jace says with an over exaggerated stride as he makes his way over to where Ryan and Ava have breakfast duty . God, he looks fucking ridiculous. He’s got to know if he walks in there like that today they might just shoot his annoying ass on sight.
I would.
“It’s almost done, come make your plates!” Ava calls.
I move my own queen to take out Leena’s, then stand.
“Checkmate.” I smirk, offering out a hand to help her up. She glares at the board before taking it with a little huff. I chuckle.
I love it when I win.
Several minutes later, we find our seats next to Luke at the large dining room table. Everyone else is across from us, already chattering away, and Sebastian is still in the kitchen piling food on his plate.
“Shit, I forgot my drink. Hey Seb?” Luke calls out.
“I got it,” Sebastian mumbles, already heading toward the table carrying both of their drinks in one hand. He sets them down, followed by his plate, and then he leans down, casually planting a kiss square on Luke’s mouth before taking his seat and starting in on his food like he didn’t just fucking do that.
Luke stares at him wide-eyed. So does everyone else.
The room is silent aside from Sebastian’s fork against his plate.
Leena puts a hand on my knee and I hold it beneath the table as we watch whatever the fuck is about to play out.
Did he mean to do that? Or did he forget the tiny fact that the team has no clue that they’re fucking.
Sebastian finally looks up. “What?” he asks through a mouthful of food.
“What do you mean, ‘What?’ That’s kind of a big fucking deal, Seb,” Jace says. I look between all of them, noticing their reactions. Ava looks a little in shock, Ryan doesn’t. Huh.
“Yeah, I guess so,” Sebastian mumbles out.
“Is this… new?” Ava asks, trying to get more out of the man. I don’t blame her. It blew my fucking mind too. Not as much as watching Luke fucking him on the pool table last night, but shocking all the same.
“Not new. Just sick of hiding it,” Sebastian says, turning to look at Luke for a long moment before glancing around the rest of the table. “Anyone have a problem with that?”
“I have a question,” Jace pipes up. “Who bottoms? Ow!” he immediately cries out from what I have to assume is one of the guys kicking him under the table.
I chuckle. That’s on him for sitting within range.
But I notice that Jace is smiling, looking between the two men. They all are, actually.
Leena’s hand tightens on my knee. I know how much she’s wanted this for them, and it makes me so fucking glad to see her this happy. To see Luke and Sebastian this happy.
I know this hasn’t been easy for them.
“That’s really great, you guys,” Ava says, completely genuine.
“It’s about time,” Ryan says, and I lean back in my chair, staring at him curiously. “The two of you have been acting like an old married couple since high school. This doesn’t surprise me. But thank you for telling us, you know you could have any time.” The man smiles at his friends.
“It’s still a little… new. Six months in a couple weeks, actually,” Luke smiles and Sebastian puts his fork down.
“Really?” Sebastian stares at him.
“Goddammit, Seb. I put it in our fucking calendar,” Luke huffs.
Jace barks out a laugh. “Ha! Alright, I think this one’s on us for not noticing that. ”
“He has a point,” I say, gesturing with my fork. “And I’ll answer your question later, Jace.” I wink, because this conversation is way too serious for this early in the morning. I haven’t even pissed anyone off yet today.
Well, except maybe Leena. But that’s only because she’s a sore loser.
And… now she’s glaring at me.
“Tell him and I’ll cut your man-bun off while you sleep,” Sebastian growls out.
And yup. That shuts me up.
“Wait, since high school?” Leena asks, looking over at Ryan.
“Yeah. I’m the reason they met,” he says.
Leena thinks about that for a moment, then looks between the guys and Ryan. I love when she gets all excited learning new things. I also love that her hand is still holding mine.
“Is he…” she trails off, urging the guys to elaborate, but it’s Ryan who answers.
“The nerdy kid who was getting pummeled our freshman year until they stepped in? And now I’ve been dealing with their bullcrap the past twenty years? Yes. That would be me.”