Chapter 9 #2
She looks stunned.
Chess will never take it. No way.
But then she smiles, all wobbly and misty-eyed. Just like she did last night. “That’s so . . . sweet.” She clutches the box
to her chest like it’s precious.
I’m torn between gratitude to my teammates for putting that look on her face, and feeling the urge to punch them all in theirs because I didn’t get her a computer first.
I close the door with a little more force than necessary. “Chess. Meet Charlie Beauchamp.” Resident turncoat. “When not helping me and some of the guys out, he’s a junior, studying at Tulane.”
“You play football, Charlie?” Chess asks.
It’s a valid question. At six-five and 280 pounds of bulky muscles, he could easily be a defensive end.
Charlie, used to the question, gives a wry smile. “No, ma’am. Much to my chagrin, I have two left feet and they’re made of
lead. Or so says every coach I’ve tried out for.” His Haitian accent thickens a bit. “I’m majoring in sports management.”
“I wanted to thank you,” Chess says, “for buying me those clothes and things. I’m so grateful.”
Charlie’s cheeks turn the color of rosewood. If I weren’t standing here, I wouldn’t have believed he was capable of blushing.
He’s an unflappable island of calm around me. “It was the least I could do, ma’am. Though I apologize if anything doesn’t . . .” He clears his throat. “If certain items
aren’t your usual style.”
A low laugh escapes Chess’s lips, and even though there’s nothing suggestive in her expression, the sound is pure sex to my
ears. “You did just fine.”
I find myself picturing her wearing one of those uninspired panties Charlie picked out and nothing else. Pure white cotton,
stretched over that toned, pert ass, hugging every curve and dip.
Jesus. Charlie might be onto something. I shift my weight and try to think of something unsavory, such as the way Dawes never
washes his socks during playoffs.
Yep, that’ll do it.
“It was a novel experience,” Charlie is saying. “Buying women’s underwear.”
“I’m sure you’ll get to do it again under better circumstance someday,” Chess assures, barking up the wrong tree.
Charlie gives her a small smile. “I don’t think any of the guys I date would be into that, ma’am.”
“Probably wise of them,” Chess says without missing a beat. “Bras aren’t the most comfortable attire.”
I really don’t want to start thinking about Chess wearing a bra. Or going without. “We’re about to eat,” I say to Charlie.
“Want to join us?”
Before he can speak, Chess hooks her arm around his. “You must.”
“Let the guy answer for himself, Chess.”
She shoots me a reproving look. “I’m trying to make him feel welcome, Finn.”
“He knows he’s welcome. I just asked him to join us.”
Charlie chuckles, interrupting us. “You two sound like my grandparents.”
“Surely not as old as that,” I exclaim in mock horror.
Chess tsks at me.
Charlie flashes a grin. “I mean the way you two go on like you’ve known each other forever.”
The words invade the room like the drunken uncle no one wants to acknowledge but can’t ignore. Chess and I eye each other
for a long moment, neither of us knowing what to say. But then she purses her lips as if mildly entertained.
“Sure feels like it sometimes,” she mutters before turning on her heel and striding toward the kitchen, her long dark hair
swinging like a pendulum over her pert butt.
I watch that jiggle and sway, and my dick twitches in response. Next to me, Charlie makes a choked sound of amusement. “Man . . .”
I glance his way. “Yeah, I know.”
Chess
“I cannot believe you didn’t call me,” James scolds over the phone.
I open another one of Finn’s cabinets in search of a platter. The man has ten different sets of beer glasses, yet barely a serving tray or bread bowl to be found. “Did you miss the part where I said I lost my phone?”
“You could have borrowed one!”
“Am I the only one who doesn’t have people’s numbers memorized?” I mutter, moving on to the next cabinet.
“Good point.” Horns blare in the background, and I wonder if he’s outside. “Where are you?”
“Headed toward the MoMA.” He’s slightly out of breath when he speaks again. “Don’t worry, as soon as we’re through, I’m booking
tickets home.”
Finally, I find a cheese tray and a few shallow bowls that might be used for crackers or bread. The price stickers are still
on them. I have a vision of Finn’s mom buying him these, stocking his kitchen for parties he’ll never have.
“Don’t do that,” I tell James as I pick off the sticker on the tray. “There’s no need.”
“What do you mean there’s no need?” he exclaims. “Your freaking home just got crisped. Of course I’m coming back.”
“No, really, James, I’m all right. Stay with Jamie. Have fun.”
He lets out an audible huff. “I’m coming back. What kind of shit friend do you think I am?”
Setting the tray down, I get to work on unwrapping my cheeses. “I’m fine. Seriously. I have a temporary place to stay, and
the insurance company is actually being very helpful.”
“What about work? Or the calendar?”
“The computer guys were able to get the files off my busted laptop and transfer it onto my new one, so I can easily finish
up the calendar work. I’ve had to drop a few jobs . . .” Which is going to sting financially. “But I bought enough basic equipment
that I can work the Ducain wedding, which I really can do on my own. And we don’t have anything major for another month.”
James makes a noise of assent. “What about the loft? How long until you can go back?”
“It’s destroyed. I’ll need to find a new place. Frankly, I want to pull a Scarlett O’Hara and not think about that today.”
“I always thought you’d make a great Scarlett. Snapping green eyes, inky dark hair, creamy skin—”
“Perfect resting bitch face?” I offer with a snort.
“Exactly.”
“Then listen to Scarlett and stay, wallow in love and all that sappy shit.”
“Sappy, hmm?” James makes a suspicious sound in his throat. “Tell me, Chess, does the fact that you’re shacking up with an
insanely hot quarterback—and I’m still jealous of that, by the way—have anything to do with your insistence that I stay longer
in New York?”
“Your suspicions hurt, Rhett.” I grab a bread knife and start hacking at the fresh baguette I’d picked up at a bakery. “Here
I am, generously supporting your newly found love—”
“Pfft.”
“—and you accuse me of having ulterior and nefarious motives.”
“You sound like a ’30s movie villain,” James drawls. “And I’m accusing you of ulterior and hedonistic motives, to be clear.”
“Bah.” I arrange the bread slices in a shallow bowl, then flick away a few crumbs.
“So,” James asks in a singsong voice. “What’s manly Manny’s place like? Does he have a Red Room of Pain?”
Smiling, I roll my eyes. “At first I thought he did, but it turned out to be a home gym.”
“Bummer.”
Glancing at the clock, I carry the bread and cheese out to the coffee table. “Yeah, but I can attest to its pain inducing
powers.”
James laughs. “Joke all you want, Chessie Bear, but you can’t hide from me. You like being sexy Manny’s roommate.”
A denial dances at the edge of my tongue, but I can’t force it out.
I could fall for Finn. Irrevocably. I know it. I already feel myself teetering, and we haven’t known each other for that long.
My insides clench in protest, and I move my hand to my lower abdomen before I can stop the action. My stomach is flat for
the most part, but I’m not a fan of sit-ups, and I have a soft little swell just below my navel.
I have a love-hate relationship with my little pooch. When I’m standing up, I find it kind of cute and sexy, a bit of softness
on my body that, in all other areas, runs to thin and gangly. But when I sit down in a bikini and everything kind of pillows,
I hate it.
Right now, I cradle that vulnerable spot. “James? Do you ever feel . . .” A shuddering breath leaves me. I should shut up.
Right now. But I have to ask someone, and James is my closest friend. He’ll never judge me. “Defective? Like damaged goods?”
Instantly, my face heats with shame and annoyance. I’ve shown my underbelly, and I don’t like the sensation. But James’s soft
voice comes through the phone. “Chess, I’m bisexual. I get shit from all directions. I’m either a liar or deliberately choosing
to be as I am. Defective in the eyes of both camps.”
Even though he’s a thousand miles away, I want to hug him. “They’re the ones who are defective, not you.”
He’s silent for a moment. “There is nothing wrong with you either, babe. Not one fucking thing.”
“That’s the messed up part. I know I am not defined by what I lack, but by who I am as a whole. And I’d probably kick someone’s
ass if they tried to tell me differently.”
“But?” James prompts because he knows me well. “Something’s not clicking in that head of yours. What is it?”
“Sometimes . . .” I lick my dry lips. “Sometimes I wonder if my heart hasn’t gotten that message. That maybe I sabotage myself
with men. You know, what if, when they learn everything there is to know about me, they decide I’m not worth it.”
I don’t even know what I’m trying to explain. Only that, despite my best efforts, there are days when I feel flawed. When it feels like my fault that I’m single and have never had a boyfriend.
“I used to think that, too,” James says quietly. Which is a shock because his sense of self-confidence has always been enormous.
“And at the same time, I had thought that there was no one perfect enough for me.”
I give a little half-hearted laugh at that because, despite my insecurities, I fully admit to being picky as fuck over men.
“Yeah.”
I hear the smile in his voice. “Now I know that there is someone perfectly imperfect for all of us.”
“Yeah, I guess.”
“And if that person for you happens to be a six-four, hot as fuck-sweat quarterback, then I’ll love you forever.”
I snort. “You’d love me forever anyway.”
“True. But I’ll forgive you when you turn into a PMS rage demon from now on.”
“So magnanimous. But I wouldn’t hold my breath if I were you.”