Chapter 28
I guess this is going to be a daily thing.
I guess I’m supposed to expect to be summoned around the same time every evening, brought down to the basement, and ordered to strip down.
Tonight, at least, there was no instruction beyond the demand that I remove my clothes.
He didn’t try to direct me through it this time.
And I’m still standing here, just as naked, just as cold and full of dread as before. What is it going to be this time? What has he come up with in that sick brain of his?
He doesn’t keep me waiting long, settling in on one couch while Colt sits down on the one facing it. There’s less space between them now, like James pushed them closer together. I guess he wants to get a good look at what’s happening.
“Are you ready to get that pretty pussy filled again?” There’s an edge to James’s voice tonight that wasn’t there before.
Is it because he couldn’t get into my room?
I didn’t have anything to do with that, but I get the feeling I’ll be the one who ends up being punished for it.
I can’t win either way. I can only hope one of them will come to my aid the way Nix did last night.
But what are the chances of that happening? I’m not fooling myself.
James turns to Colt while Nix waits off to the side, staring at my body but not yet making a move to touch me. “You know what to do.” Colt lifts his hips to lower his jeans and his shorts. He isn’t quite hard yet, I see.
“Look at that body,” James murmurs, almost crooning the words as he turns his gaze on me. “Think of all the things you want to do to her. How you want to break her on your cock and make her sob out your name. And she wants to ride it, too. Just like the little slut she is, always hungry for more.”
The man is mental, top to bottom. Making these things up in his head for his own pleasure and amusement. Colt strokes himself, staring at my boobs while he does. Either it’s the sight of me or his father’s encouragement—he lengthens, hardens.
“Leni, you’re going to ride his cock tonight. Get on over there. Spread those legs wide, so I can see him sink into you.”
It’s like I’m not connected to my body anymore, dragging my feet over to where Colt waits for me with his dick sticking straight up.
It’s better this way. I don’t want to feel connected to any of this.
Colt slouches a little, making it easier for me to straddle him with my back to James.
“Ease into it,” James orders. “Nice and slow. I want to see every inch sink into her. Take your time.”
I would rather be anywhere but here. My thighs are spread wide, and slowly Colt lines himself up with my hole before sliding inside.
I’m still sore from yesterday, which I didn’t realize until this very moment.
I lower myself one grueling inch at a time, hissing in pain.
I hate every sound James makes, his satisfied little grunts as he begins stroking himself behind us.
That sound is burned into my brain now. Skin on skin.
“That’s nice.” He sighs once I’m as low as I can go, locked with Colt, looking anywhere but at his face.
“Leni, touch him. Show him how good you feel. Reach back and grab his balls. Play with them a little.” I have to put an arm around Colt’s neck to keep my balance while reaching behind me.
Hesitantly, I touch the place where we are joined, padding my way down to his balls.
The skin there is soft and warm as I start to fondle him.
His quickened breath tells me I’m doing well, so I continue the motion, massaging them a little.
“You’re going to empty those balls into your pussy, aren’t you?” James mutters with a nasty little laugh. “Now fuck him. Ride that cock—but go slow. Real slow.”
Yes, why not drag this out? Why not make it even more unbearable? I’m not quite sure what I’m doing or how I’m supposed to move, but Colt’s hands on my hips go a long way toward helping me set a pace. I let him do it, handing it over to him for now because I don’t have it in me. I just don’t.
“Spread her ass cheeks,” James mutters. “I want to see her asshole.” I close my eyes and lower my head, a tear dangling off the edge of my lashes. James’s satisfied little grunt when Colt spreads my cheeks brings another tear, another. And all the while, I have to ride and pretend to enjoy it.
That isn’t the worst part, not at all. The worst part is the way my body seems to wake up a little with every downward stroke.
I know why, too—I can’t help but grind my clit against him, and the friction is both terrible and heavenly.
I don’t want this. I don’t want to feel good.
As bad as this is, the thought of coming, of proving to James’s twisted mind that I’m enjoying this, is infinitely worse.
“I’m guessing you’ve still never had anybody in that tight little hole, have you?” James asks. “Maybe we’ll have to change that tonight.” I can’t help the whimper that comes out of me any more than I can help the growing disgust that spreads through me. “What do you think about that?”
“It’s okay,” Colt whispers. I don’t want to hear it. I don’t even want to think about what we’re doing. I can’t acknowledge him, no matter what he says.
“Nix, instead of standing there jerking off, I want you to go over there. Play with her asshole. Just stay out of the way so I can see.”
“Relax,” Colt whispers, moving his hips in time with me. “Just pretend it’s us. Just you and me. Nobody else is here.” He says it so softly, even I can barely hear him. I doubt James can over his disgusting little groans and his quickening breath.
Colt’s words shouldn’t make me feel better.
It’s not like what he did to me after the rehearsal dinner was any better than this.
The thing is, it did feel better at the time.
When he took my virginity, it was just us, and Colt didn’t try to hurt me.
He didn’t humiliate or expose me. When it was just us, he was gentle, and made me feel cherished and loved.
Nix brushes a hand over my ass, and I can’t help but tense up. He runs a finger around the edge of my asshole, playing with me a little, pressing but not entering right away. From the corner of my eye, I see him stroking himself with the other hand.
“Don’t just play with it,” James barks. “Stick it in. Fuck her ass with your finger.” I grit my teeth against a whimper of discomfort and humiliation when Nix enters me, probing around with one thick finger.
“It’s just us,” Colt whispers. “Pretend it’s just us.
” Leaning my head on Colt’s shoulder, I close my eyes and try to do what he says.
James isn’t here. He’s not doing this. He has nothing to do with this.
It’s just us. Slowly, my pain eases, the tightness in my chest, the screaming in my brain.
It all eases little by little the longer I block out James’s commands and focus instead on what I’m doing, what we are doing.
I won’t even think about Nix. Only Colt and me. It almost feels normal this way.
“Give it to her.” There’s no blocking him out completely, especially not now, when he’s nearing the end. “Fuck her hard. Fill her up.”
I place my hands on Colt’s shoulders and dig my fingers in tight as he starts fucking me harder.
Nix works his finger in and out in time, and god, I feel so dirty, so ashamed.
That shame only worsens when the heat that already started to build, thanks to the friction against my clit, blooms into something hotter, stronger.
No, I am not going to do this. This is not going to happen.
I’m not going to give them the satisfaction.
I grit my teeth and ride it out, reminding myself how much I hate all of them but James most of all. The filthy, twisted pig.
“Get up. Now.” I can barely make sense of what James is ordering me to do, but Colt understands.
He lifts me off him and practically throws me onto the couch, where I land on my stomach.
A hand presses against my back—I don’t know who it belongs to.
I only know James is now out of his seat, crossing the small space between us, fisting himself faster, faster.
I close my eyes and bite my lip, holding back a cry of pure humiliation as the three of them come across my ass. It feels like it’s never going to end; their groans, their satisfied sighs as they milk themselves all over me.
But then it ends because it has to, and all I can do is be thankful it’s over.
Unlike last time, James doesn’t say a word. I’m glad. I don’t want to hear his voice again tonight.
Eventually, something touches my ass. Fabric.
Probably my shirt or something. “Come on. Get up.” It’s Colt, his voice flat.
When I lift my head and dare to look around, I find it’s just the two of us, and my clothes are balled up in his hands.
My thighs are so sore from all that work, but I fight to get on my feet, following him up the stairs to my room.
I expect him to leave me alone right away like he did before, but instead, he enters the room with me and closes the door behind him.
I’m too tired, too embarrassed, and hurt to ask why.
It doesn’t even occur to me to argue with him when he takes me by the hand and leads me to the bathroom.
It takes no time for him to strip down. I’m not even interested in looking at him or noticing his body as he steps into the shower, turning on the water before extending a hand and beckoning me.
It’s just like it was before, with Nix, when I was too tired and too broken inside to care much about washing myself up. It is good to feel that water on me, though, running over my head and down my body.
He doesn’t say a word. He only gently, slowly washes me with a soapy rag.
I close my eyes and give myself over to him for the second time tonight, parting my legs when he nudges them apart so he can slowly run the rag over my pussy.
He takes special care with my ass, too, until nobody would ever know I was violated tonight. Again.
It’s only the touch of his fingers against my scar that stirs me to react.
I flinch, tensing up, holding my breath.
“You don’t have to do that,” he whispers, touching it again.
I look up at him, blinking the water out of my eyes, and he’s wearing something close to a smile.
It’s soft and almost sweet. “You’re still beautiful, with or without this,” he whispers, stroking my scar.
“It doesn’t make you who you are. It doesn’t define you. Don’t let it.”
Tears mix with the water running down my face. Are they tears of embarrassment or gratitude? I don’t know. I don’t have it in me to figure it out right now.
All I know is once we’re out of the shower and dried off, it feels like the most natural thing in the world to hold a hand out when he starts for the door. “Please. Don’t leave. Stay with me.”
He hesitates, his brow furrowing and his eyes narrowing. I pull the blankets back and crawl into bed, never doubting for a moment he’ll join me.
He does, and unlike with Nix, he doesn’t leave any space between us. Instead, he wraps his arms around me from behind and holds me close. For the first time in a week, I truly relax, melting against him, leaving everything else behind in favor of feeling warm. Safe.
I know it doesn't make sense to feel safe in his arms. I should be appalled by his touch, cringe away from his body, yet I lean into him for comfort. Maybe they finally did it—they broke my mind. The worst part is, I don’t even care, not right now at least. Right now I’m so desperate, I’ll take any kindness I can.
Even if I have no idea how long the feeling will last.