Chapter 19
Chapter Nineteen
FINN
The rest of the weekend flew by, until he was sitting at his desk on Monday morning, booting up his computer. He still hadn’t been able to stop thinking about Friday night. And her.
The sound of the door opening pulled him from his thoughts. He wasn’t sure how she would behave today. Would she be distant? The simple thought pained him. He would understand if she had regretted the kiss. But when she entered, her warm smile flooded him with relief.
"Good morning," she said, voice professional but her eyes holding something new. Something that made his heart beat faster.
"Morning," he replied, surprised at how steady his voice sounded when everything inside him felt electrified.
She approached his desk, glancing around to confirm they were still alone before allowing herself a softer smile. "I brought you coffee," she said, setting a second cup beside his keyboard. "Black, no sugar."
"Thank you." Their fingers brushed as he accepted the cup, a deliberate contact that sent warmth spreading up his arm. "How was your weekend?"
"Quiet. Miguel had a sleepover at a friend's on Saturday." Her eyes met his over the rim of her cup. "I had a lot of time to think."
"About?" He knew, but he wanted to hear her say it.
The door opened again as two research assistants arrived, chatting about weekend plans. Elena straightened, professional mask sliding back into place. "The patient response data," she said smoothly. "I have some thoughts about our analysis approach. Let's review it later."
Finn nodded, understanding the coded message. Later. When they could be alone.
The morning continued in their new reality.
It made a relatively normal workday much more exciting.
During the team check-in, Elena leaned over his shoulder to point out a pattern in one of the data sets.
Her hair brushed his cheek. "Impressive work," she said.
A simple compliment, but he was suddenly struggling to maintain his composure.
The other assistants came and went throughout the day, oblivious to the charged atmosphere between their supervisor and coworker.
"Finn," she said at one point, calling him over to review a file. Even the way she said his name now felt different. More intimate.
He stepped into her office and found her waiting with a look that was anything but professional.
“Look at this.” She gestured to her monitor. When he moved closer, she whispered in his ear, “I just needed an excuse to be close to you again.” Her lips were so close, he swore he could feel them on his ear.
“You can go back to your desk now, Mr. Cochrane.”
This isn’t fair, he thought as he awkwardly adjusted his pants while walking back.
At his desk, focusing on patient responses became impossible.
It was dangerous, this thing between them.
He knew that. There were a dozen reasons they should step back, maintain boundaries, pretend Friday night had never happened.
And yet, when he would catch her looking at him with that heat in her eyes, he’d forget every single reason that this was a terrible idea.
Around mid-afternoon, Finn was deep in analysis of the newest batch of patient data. The lab had quieted; other assistants having left for the day. He'd almost fully immersed himself in the work when he heard Elena's phone buzz.
She frowned at the screen, then looked up confused. "I just got called into a meeting with the administrative team," she said, gathering her tablet and notes. "It wasn't on the calendar."
"That's unusual," Finn observed, noting the tension that appeared in her shoulders. "Any idea what it's about?"
Elena shook her head. "Budget discussions, maybe?" She checked her watch. "It shouldn't take long. Continue with your analysis. I'm interested in patients 217 and 304."
As she left, Finn returned to his data, trying to focus on the work but struggling.
He wondered when they might finally have a moment alone to talk about what was happening between them.
The idea both terrified and exhilarated him.
He forced his attention back to the screen, unaware that the meeting Elena was walking into would change everything.
When Elena returned to the lab, Finn knew something was wrong before she'd even closed the door behind her. The lab had emptied while she was gone, leaving just the two of them. She walked directly to her office with a look like she had seen a ghost, sitting at her desk without a word.
After a little while, he couldn’t help himself. He went to her office and took a seat in the chair beside her desk. "Elena," he said softly, “What happened?"
She looked up at him, her eyes filled with a vulnerability he’d never seen before. "They've moved up our deadline. Again. By thirty days."
Finn sank into the chair, processing what this meant. "Thirty days? That's... that's not possible."
"The board has decided they need preliminary results for their quarterly review," Elena continued mechanically, as if reciting something memorized. "Which means they need our final submission expedited."
Finn stared at her, calculations already running through his mind.
They'd been working toward a deadline two months away, a timeline that was already ambitious given the complexity of their research and the careful protocols required for working with trauma patients.
Now they had just one month. Four weeks to do what they'd planned for eight.
"We'd need to run double sessions," he said, thinking aloud. "Expand our patient load, analyze data around the clock..." He trailed off, seeing the impossibility reflected in Elena's eyes.
"I know." Elena clasped her hands tightly on the desk, knuckles white with tension. "I made that exact argument in the meeting. Rachel suggested we petition for an emergency exception, but even if approved, the patient welfare concerns are significant."
The professional implications were devastating enough, but Finn could see something else in Elena's expression. Regret, maybe? "We'll figure it out," he said, reaching for her hand. "We can bring in additional research assistants, run evening sessions, I can work through the weekends—"
"Finn," she interrupted, pulling her hand away from his, "This isn't just about working harder. These are vulnerable people we're dealing with. Rushing their treatment could do active harm."
For a moment, her pulling away hurt more than the news about the deadline.
It was a selfish feeling that he tried to push away.
Elena was thinking of the patients first. It was one of the countless reasons he admired her.
"Why did they do this?" he asked after a moment.
"Why now, when we've been making such good progress? "
Something flashed in Elena’s eyes. Anger? "Apparently there was one board member in particular who was insistent about expediting our timeline," she said quietly. "Funny timing, considering..."
The pieces clicked into place. "David."
She didn't confirm it, but her silence was answer enough.
"Friday night," Finn said, the words barely audible. "Your date with him. And then..."
"And then I turned him down," Elena finished, meeting his eyes. "Rather definitively."
An uncomfortable tension settled between them. David Turner was chair of the board that controlled their funding, their deadlines, and the very future of their research. And Elena had rejected him.
"This is my fault," she said, "I should have been more diplomatic, found a way to let him down that wouldn't—"
"No." Finn's response was firm. "You don't owe him anything. If he’s punishing you for rejecting him, that’s abuse of power. There must be something we can do.”
But even as he said it, Finn understood the reality. David Turner was wealthy, connected, and respected in the field. Any accusation would be nearly impossible to prove and could further jeopardize their research.
Elena seemed to read his thoughts. "We have no evidence. Just suspicious timing."
The implications for their research were devastating.
Finn watched as Elena straightened her shoulders, her scientific mind already shifting to problem-solving mode despite her emotional distress.
"We should start by reviewing the protocol," she said, reaching for her tablet.
"See where we can ethically compress timelines without compromising patient care. "
It was a start. Maybe they could come up with a plan, and the research would be okay.
But there was a different question at the forefront of Finn’s mind.
What did this mean for them? Their relationship hadn’t even had a chance to start yet, and it already felt doomed.
The excitement that had filled the lab that morning felt distant now.
He decided that now was not the time to ask that question. The research had to come first. And if he was honest, he was afraid of the answer he might get. "I'll pull up the patient schedules," he said instead, honoring her retreat for now. "See who might be candidates for accelerated sessions."
She nodded, and her eyes were already back on her monitor. He left, feeling like he was walking away from more than just her office.