Chapter 18
Braun
If he didn’t stop moaning, I was going to forget what a gentleman I was being.
“You can’t just…I need to…”
Stop thinking so much.
Licking around his soft cock, I loved the moan he gave me and the way his body leaned into the grip I had on his hips. “You need to let me be in charge here. Just here when it’s the two of us and the magic is wrapped around us.”
Eventually I’d need to let him process and answer all his questions, but eventually could be much later.
“If I want to clean off my mate, you should let me.” Because while he might be conflicted about a lot of things, being a good partner wasn’t one of them.
“That’s…so good…no, I mean submission.” He was still holding on to a few too many rational thoughts, so I wrapped my lips around his soft cock and took all of him into my mouth to clean off his cum. “Oh…that’s…”
Much better.
Had no one ever played with him when he was soft?
I had to admit I didn’t like thinking about his past relationships, but it seemed like I needed to ask a few questions before we took the sexual side of our relationship too much deeper. That didn’t mean I was going to rush his cleaning, though.
I wasn’t going to hurry through anything that made him smell so sweet and submissive.
Even releasing his cock didn’t have the candied bacon scent fading, so I kept kissing and licking around his cock as he relaxed. “This makes me happy. Kissing you and marking you made me very happy. I know you want to please me. This isn’t a hard way to do it, is it?”
Asking questions might’ve been a bad idea, but I was glad when he sighed and shook his head. “Because you’re a good mate and you’re going to let me take care of you in this one simple way.”
His nod was jerky and looked like it took effort, but nothing in his behavior said he was mentally arguing with me.
“All you need to do to make me happy is to let me take care of you.” Because I could tell from his scent and instinctual reactions what he thought about my fantasies.
He loved them.
He didn’t seem to understand why he loved them but we could work on accepting his submissive side over time.
“You…what you need isn’t…it isn’t uncommon.
” He was still feeling at ease with the situation and how I was taking care of him as at least part of his brain started slowly processing.
Even tucking him back into his only slightly damp briefs and bringing him back down to my lap didn’t fuck up his headspace.
He simply curled into me and rested his head on my shoulder again. “Some people just have more…more instincts to take charge. Yes.”
He wasn’t wrong, so I nodded and kissed the side of his head. “And some people have instincts to caretake and to support. This is just a new way for you to think about taking care of me.”
“Mates…it’s magical, right?” There was something in his voice that said he needed the full answer this time, so I didn’t tease him again.
“Yes, Wolfchen. It’s a beautiful magic that shows two souls that they’re supposed to be together.
That doesn’t mean I won’t drive you insane sometimes or that we won’t need to work at our relationship.
” The ancestors knew I was going to make him batshit nuts sometimes.
“But you’ll be able to feel me inside you and you’ll know how I feel about you. ”
I wasn’t sure if his human outlook could take hearing the word right now, so I just kissed his neck and thought about how wonderful my mate had turned out to be. When he sighed and melted into me even softer, I knew he was feeling at least some of it.
“We’re going to have dates and talk about goals and boundaries.” That got a soft chuckle out of him which wasn’t surprising. “Okay, so I might not be good at setting them with other people, but I’m going to be incredible at respecting yours…when I have to.”
Mentally he was probably laughing at me, but all he actually let out was a long-suffering sigh. “I’m going to…books talk about safewords. I never thought I was the type of person to need those.”
How?
“I’m a wonderful influence.” I shrugged and took the blame until he could think about submission more. “What can I say?”
“Um, I think reminding me how good I’m going to feel after you make me crazy would be a good start.
” He barely shifted his body before letting out a pleased sound that made me smile.
“I’ve never felt like this. This is so much better than jerking off and I’m going to eventually be embarrassed about telling you that. ”
“I’m going to love watching you blush and squirm, Wolfchen.” That was going to be fun. “But it seems like I’m also going to have to make a rule that you can’t play with yourself. I can’t have my mate having terrible orgasms, so I’ll be in charge of them.”
His muscles went still but his scent was much more active…and a much more accurate way to tell what he was feeling.
After a moment, he let out a breath and came back to life. “That’s common in some books.”
Like all the dirty ones he seemed to think he needed to downplay.
“It’s also sexy as fuck.” He had to have been able to hear the desire in my voice, but I made sure he could feel our connection as I softly rubbed his back and kissed his head again.
“And I’m serious about wanting you to have the best pleasure you can.
There is no need to give yourself half-hearted orgasms if me taking over that part of your life will make you happier. ”
I was pretty sure it was the careful wording that finally got a frustrated huff out of him, but I waited to see what he’d say.
“I’m not fragile. Use the words. I’ve seen them before.”
He was so sexy when he was grumpy and demanding.
“Would you rather I tell you that my sub’s pleasure belongs to me?
” Letting my voice go deeper, I tried to let him sense how just thinking that made me feel.
“Should I have said that your orgasms belong to me and I can’t wait to make you beg for them?
That I love knowing you’ll be mine in that most basic, intimate way? ”
“Yes.” He might’ve been trying to sound dramatic and put out but his scent told a different story. “That would’ve been…more correct.”
Brat.
“I think my naughty little slut just loves hearing all the dirty words he’s fantasized about.” Yep. His scent was much more honest than his dramatic sound effects. “And he’s going to love coming apart on my knot.”
The way his entire body jolted made me laugh but the best part was his shocked expression as he sat up. “Really? You’ve got a knot? That’s not just book nonsense?”
“Oh, we’re probably going to find book nonsense right and left but they got this one right.
” Desire whirled around us like a fog, making me wonder what he was imagining.
“I don’t have to knot you every time, so don’t worry, I’ll be able to use you for quick fucks too, but yes, I’m going to knot deep inside you and tie you to me so you’re helpless and submissive and you’ll come so hard you won’t be able to think. ”
It was a really good thing he was sitting down because I wasn’t sure his legs could’ve kept him upright. The jolt that raced through him and the way his body tightened around me made it clear just how much he loved the idea.
“Books…books aren’t supposed to be real.” He seemed to mean dirty books, but I hadn’t read enough of them to know exactly what he’d been exposed to. Just being curious a few beers into the night one time didn’t give me enough data to work from. “They’re not.”
“Some are, naughty boy. Books about needy subs and desperate sluts who want to beg their Alpha’s to use them and knot them are real because I have that wicked mate on my lap.” And I was going to thoroughly enjoy seeing him come apart on a regular basis.
Another shiver raced through him as he hid his face tighter against me, but he didn’t deny it. “It’s…it’s okay for mates to be like that?”
“I’d be disappointed if my mate wasn’t excited to be alone with me and I know he’d be disappointed if I wasn’t constantly thinking about knotting him and licking his cock and making him come.
” I shrugged, getting a snicker from Dorian like he’d just heard a dirty joke for the first time. “I don’t want to disappoint you.”
“Shocked is probably a better word.” He sounded too huffy for me to take seriously. “This is a lot to handle.”
Bullshit.
“You’ve basically already moved in and are figuring out the boundaries to keep my mother from charging in the house.” Thank the ancestors I wouldn’t have to do it. “You and Emeric set up your office earlier and I bet you’ve already planned out when you’re moving in.”
“Next weekend. I just don’t have time during the week.” He shrugged like that was perfectly reasonable. “But that’s not the point. I can be shocked and logical at the same time.”
I knew all humans weren’t this interesting, but it would’ve been hard to process if I’d led more of an isolated life.
“If you say so, Wolfchen.” That got a snort from him but he didn’t call me out. “I think next weekend will work fine as long as that leaves us enough time to pack your stuff?”
“I don’t have that much. My rental came furnished. I thought I’d just stay for a few months since it’s technically a short-term rental but I stayed longer because my neighbors were so weird.” His response made me laugh. “I couldn’t leave until I figured out what they were.”
I could understand that and probably would’ve made the same decision.
“I’ll help you with that.” Kissing the side of his head, I started mentally rearranging my week. “And we’ll go over what your students might be so you can help them better.”
“That’s good.” Coming back to life a bit more, he sat up wearing a distracted expression.
“And you can help me figure out which student in my third block is tripping me. They don’t mean any harm but eventually I’m going to get distracted and crack my head open on something.
I was at the point where I started to look online for those padded corner protectors.
You know, the ones parents who have toddlers buy? ”
I managed not to laugh but his narrowed gaze said he wasn’t pleased with the way my chest jerked.
“We’ll figure it out.” Running my hand over his head, I grinned. “I have to take care of my mate.”
Any reaction?
A frown?
“I’m not sure you should have to protect me from my students, but we’ll see how we can fix that.” Student issues not mate ones. Got it. “And at some point I need to figure out how to casually mention my relationship with you to the right people.”
“Most of the staff isn’t human and I honestly don’t know how you got hired, but once you mention that we’re dating they’ll fill in the gaps.
” His grin said he thought the word was ridiculous as well.
“We could also have me come early to pick you up on a staff workday or something like that so they can see me?”
I was pretty sure the nonsense would stop once they realized who he was mated to. Even teenagers who made questionable decisions didn’t want to piss off the local Alpha.
“Oh, that might work.” Looking brighter, he kissed my cheek. “We have one on Monday. It’ll be a good time to get Emeric signed up as well.”
“As long as we do it first thing, I can make that work.” More people were just going to have to step up and start taking shifts again. “And then I’ll bring back Emeric and he can hang out with my mother while I go to work.”
Who else could he hang out with?
Had he said who his new friends were?
Before I could start down that trail, Dorian blinked and looked like he’d mentally shifted gears in a complete one-eighty. “What, Wolfchen?”
“You’re really my mate?” He blinked a few times like reality had just hit him. “With me for the rest of our life and I’ll have a family here kind of mate?”
“Yes.” I hoped he could hear the utter sincerity in my voice but I cupped his cheek and made sure not to look away from my beautiful mate. “With you for the rest of our life and will provide you with more friends and family than you could want mate.”
What could be the problem?
“My mother already loves you from just what Emeric told her and the rest of the pack will love getting to know you.” Leaning in slowly, I barely brushed my lips against his but that was all it took to have sparks flying between us again.
“You’re smart and good with kids and aren’t shocked about our world, so they don’t have to worry about scaring you. ”
Speaking of that.
“You’ve always been able to see there were different people around you?
That’s just not how magic is supposed to work.
” The old word for magic in our native language meant protection.
Magic protected us, not just made us. “It’s based on protecting people.
As far as I know it’s worked this way since humans branched off from the original Earth family tree. ”
They bred faster and had some interesting benefits, but for the most part they had very little innate magical abilities. The old stories that were passed down said we were all born of magic and that humans just couldn’t sense it, but it wasn’t the case for Dorian.
“Always.” He shrugged but looked like some of his memories weren’t as easygoing as he was pretending they were. “I just learned not to talk about it because it made my parents uncomfortable.”
They’d probably thought he was nuts.
“I can’t imagine how difficult that must’ve been for a child, but you won’t have to worry about that anymore.
” How had he turned out so sane? “We’re going to make sure you have all the information you need or want, including setting you up on the paranormal version of the internet so you can do more research there. ”
Dorian took a breath and let it out slowly as he nodded. “I knew I was right but it put a rift between my parents and me that we’ve never really bridged.”
Yeah, because they’d thought their perfectly sane child was nuts.
“I’m proud of you for not questioning that and for growing up to be such an amazing and openminded person.” Giving him another kiss, I kept it light so we didn’t get distracted again. “I couldn’t have asked for a better mate.”
But as amazing as he was, maybe Emeric wasn’t the only one that needed to see a therapist that understood our community?