Chapter 25
Dorian
He was so distracting.
The water was so distracting.
Being naked was so distracting.
“Squeeze my knot tighter, Wolfchen.” Braun moaned as I wrapped my hand around him again and then I moaned as his hips bucked to fuck my hand. “That’s right. You’re going to feel even better when I’m inside you.”
Inside me.
He was going to knot me.
Just trying to imagine that made my legs wobbly and my entire body felt heavier.
“Is…is that your reward?” It’d be a good one. “You get to pick whatever you want.”
I’d agreed to that.
And he was my mate.
My mate had a knot.
“That is going to be sexy as fuck, Wolfchen, but it’s not what I want tonight.
” His response didn’t make me pout, but he grinned anyway, so I probably needed to explain that later.
“When I knot you for the first time, we’re going to have so much privacy I’ll be able to make you scream out as my knot fills you and no one will hear you. ”
That.
He.
“Yes, Sir.” If that was how he wanted to do it, I wouldn’t argue. “I’m not worried about your knot. You won’t hurt me.”
Books weren’t real.
Well, they’d gotten some things right but not everything.
Braun let out a low growl that went right through me, but his hand was tender as he cupped my cheek and tilted my face up. “Sometimes I’ll hurt you, Wolfchen, but only when you want it so bad you’re begging me for it.”
Oh.
He.
That.
“Things like spankings hurt, but bodies are interesting and it’s not always a bad kind of hurt.” I’d confirmed that online, so I knew it wasn’t just a book thing. “Signals can get crossed in the brain.”
It was a real thing and not just dirty author logic.
Like that one author’s idea of an omega being mounted on the alpha’s cock for so long he was just carrying him around their house in a harness.
That wasn’t reasonable at all.
“That’s right and I think my sexy boy’s signals are going to match exactly what I want.” The hand on my face was gentle but the one on my ass was so tight it sent confusing thoughts through me. “I’ve dreamed of you for years and there isn’t a doubt in my mind how perfect we are for each other.”
“You dreamed of me?” Of me or of what it would be like to have a mate? “Me?”
Nodding slowly, he leaned in and brushed his lips against mine. “You. When I was younger there was always a friend there just out of reach. When I was older you were always right behind me. I’d wake up hard and aching for you, but it was amazing knowing you were out there for me to find.”
“I found you.” I wasn’t going to forget that part…and I wasn’t going to let him forget either.
Braun looked like he wanted to laugh, but he shrugged and smirked instead. “I always show up at the end of the year for the awards ceremonies. I’d have seen you walking down the line with the other teachers and I’d have known you were mine.”
His mate.
“What…what would you have done?” It would’ve been so odd.
Kissing me again, his eyes sparkled. “I’d have come up to you after it was over and I’d have flirted with you and talked you into a date with me.”
That sounded cute.
Something about his gaze turned devilish as he leaned down and nibbled on my neck again.
“Then I’d have casually touched you on our date, rubbing my hands against you and making sure you could scent me, and by the end of the night you’d have been so turned on you’d have begged me to do wicked things to you. ”
He’d have probably been successful at it.
Two could play the first-date game, though.
Stroking him faster, I pressed myself against him and rubbed my erection against his thigh. “Would you have told me about wanting to chase me through the woods or would you have talked me into a spanking instead?”
Yes, I was slow and a bit brain dead at the moment, but I wasn’t a complete moron.
If he wasn’t worried about our fantasies matching then I needed to at least try to stop censoring my words. I wasn’t sure it would work very well but at least I’d be able to say I tried. I was smart and a very hard worker. I needed to remember that.
And I’d do that as soon as he stopped squeezing my ass so wonderfully tight and trying to make me moan from the wave of pleasure it sent through me.
Braun was in the same position, but his brain was working enough to keep the fantasy going. “I’d have stroked your sexy ass every chance I got and then I’d have started barely spanking you over your clothes to show you how much fun it could be.”
Oh.
He did it.
Logically I knew the water made the sound sharper than the actual spank had been, but there were definitely mixed signals crossing back and forth between my brain and the rest of me.
Mixed signals were so strange.
I couldn’t help sucking in a shocked breath and whining, but before I could think about it, I rocked against him again. “I’d have been confused and…and needy…and probably very easily talked into trying new things. You’re…you’re very distracting.”
His smirk said he liked that but his low laugh had my dick jumping against him like it was begging for attention. “Would you have pushed your ass out and whined sweetly for me? Show me what that would’ve looked like.”
He’d ordered me to, so I couldn’t feel embarrassed, but I still hid my face against his shoulder as I arched my ass out and whined. It should’ve been harder to do because I just didn’t behave like that, but it was shockingly easy.
It was entirely possible I was the needy sub he kept saying I was.
Oh.
But if it got such good results, did it really matter how accurate it was?
“Yes, you’d have liked that.” Braun rubbed circles over the sensitive area that now seemed tied directly to my cock. “You’d have thrown yourself over my lap and I would’ve spanked you until you humped my lap and came everywhere.”
That would’ve been the craziest first date I’d have ever been on.
“What…what would you have thought about that?” I just didn’t do that kind of thing…but he was my mate. “You’d…you’d have been the first to touch me like that.”
His moan said my inexperience was going to work in my favor…and that I needed to remember that if I needed the upper hand at some point.
“You’d have made me so hard and I’d have thought you were the sexiest man I’d ever seen.
” Just hearing the heat in his voice was enough to have me imagining how his hand would feel coming down on me again.
“Afterward I might’ve stretched you out on the bed and fucked my cock between your legs so I could see that pretty pink ass while I used you to get off. ”
Oh.
My face was starting to hurt, but I did my best to ignore my red face and kept rocking against him. “You’d have come all over to mark me, wouldn’t you? I bet…I bet you’d have loved if I smelled like you.”
Eep.
Another spank.
I was better at this than I’d thought I would be.
“I’d have loved it, Wolfchen.” The growl in his voice sent a shiver through me and my dick jerked against him getting a low, wicked chuckle from my mate.
“You’d have loved it too because your cock would’ve tried to get hard again and you’d have started wiggling against me to make sure I kept playing with you. ”
“I’d…I’d have been sensitive. It…it would’ve hurt, right?” Wasn’t that the word?
He was so distracting.
“I would’ve been gentle and loved every whimper and whine you gave me.” Braun squeezed my ass again, rocking me faster against him. “It’d have felt overwhelming and would’ve made your head spin, but then it would’ve felt so good it’d have been like flying.”
Subspace.
I never thought I was that type of person, but it seemed like that was just because I hadn’t met my mate yet.
“But we didn’t meet like that.” He had a that’s a shame sound in his voice but he was barely holding back snickers. “We met when you were charging into the store and being all bossy and taking over my life.”
Ridiculous.
“I should probably think about punishing you for bringing all this drama into my life.”
Really?
“I’ve…I’ve been a handful and…and everyone knows Alphas can’t tolerate that.” What books had he been reading? He kept talking about mine but he was pretty good at this game. “You have to make sure I…I know my place.”
Right?
The rumbling sound in his chest said he’d at least skimmed through enough books to know what should happen next.
“Yes, Wolfchen.” Turning me slowly, he pressed my hands to the warm tile and ran his hands over my back. “But do you know where your place is? Can you tell me?”
There were so many ways the fantasy could go, I ended up whining and shaking my head.
Braun didn’t mind, though.
He pressed himself against me so his chest was against my back and his cock was nestled between my cheeks. “Under your mate, Wolfchen.”
He was really good at this game.
Unfortunately he was also really good at staying on task because before I could get another spank or talk him into at least starting my punishment, he picked up the soap.
Washing my hair was a lesson in torture because he did it so slowly and his hands were so firm.
Washing my body took the torture to a whole new level.
He smiled when I whined and did his best to somehow completely ignore my dick and tease it. The back of his hand would graze the head. His fingers would accidentally brush my balls. The casual hum as he finally ran a soapy hand over the length was maddening.
By the time he declared me done and shifted me under the spray, the muscles in my legs were twitching and I was so hard my eyes wouldn’t focus.
I didn’t even know how those body parts were connected at all but they were.
“Such a good boy.” His pleased tone as he reached out and turned off the shower had me feeling heavy and needy again, but I wasn’t sure what I’d done.
Had I been good because I hadn’t wiggled as he’d rinsed out the conditioner?
Had I been good because I hadn’t come when he’d washed my ass?
Had I been good when I hadn’t pushed his finger deeper inside me?
Oh, maybe when I hadn’t asked him to tug on my balls like the character in the last book I’d read had liked so much?
No…I was pretty sure that thought had stayed inside my head.
I really hoped it’d stayed inside my head but the smirk on his face was making me question that.
“Thank…thank you, Sir.” Yes. I was going to keep responses simple if I didn’t know what I’d done right.
“Such good manners.” He kissed my cheek sweetly, but it didn’t match the wicked sparkle in his eyes. “I’m so glad we’re going to start with a reward.”
Reward?
Start?
How would we end?
I swallowed hard to try to get the words out, but my mouth was too dry and I couldn’t make it and my brain work at the same time. They were alternating back and forth and it was maddening, but there didn’t seem to be anything I could do about it.
“Let’s get you dry so I can have fun.” His talk of rewards and fun were sending mixed signals and I couldn’t remember any longer how our conversation had started. Hadn’t I been getting a reward? Maybe he’d been the one getting rewarded? Was I getting punished?
He’d definitely spanked me because one cheek was aching just enough to distract me, and if he didn’t even it out, I was going to go insane.
“I…I like following the rules and being a good mate.” Yes. The rules for being a good mate and being a good partner were slightly different but I was smart and it wasn’t complicated as long as my brain was fully engaged.
Mine was not fully engaged at the moment.
“What…” He tripped it up again as he wrapped a towel around me and ran one end over my hair. “What do I need…”
No.
That wasn’t right.
“What can I do to please you?” Yes. He was in charge, so he needed to be the one to clearly lay out his expectations.
How had I forgotten that?
Oh.
He liked that.
His sound was somewhere between a sigh and a moan, but his eyes lit up and I knew I’d done something right.
What had I said?
He was so distracting and once I could think I was going to make that very clear.
Once I could think.
Once he…once he did something.
What had he said to do?