The Idea of Enough
They were looking inside a Bagdale’s Bookshop. The first and original. Looking at Wilbur talking on the telephone with a champagne bottle in hand.
The Ghost pointed. ‘You know what that is?’
‘I got the loan?’
‘That’s right. More money than we ever dreamed of. Enough for two more shops.’
‘It wasn’t my money. It was to expand.’
‘Yes. And make money. And make shops. And then get more money from the bank. And make more shops. And make more money to make more shops.’
The Dreamer felt a little hurt by this. ‘And make a difference! And employ people. And get more people reading. By opening bookshops. Like that one.’
They were now passing the brand new bookshop in Manchester. Gleaming and white with wide front windows. Now under the name of Budd Books. They saw straight inside to the opening day, where Maggie was watching Wilbur make a speech.
‘Wow. It looks fantastic.’
‘Yes. It was. And there are more of them to come. This is 1975. By 1982 you will have twenty shops. By 1990 there will be a hundred. At the peak there will be 203 different stores.’
‘Two hundred and three? That’s … that’s … almost as many shops as Woolworths.’
‘You will be rich. You will be famous. You will win awards. And you will have worked hard for it. You will become an expert at targets. You will set targets and when you reach them you will set a new target. You will be scared of the idea of enough. And you will no longer care about books or readers.’
The Ghost watched his dreaming self even more carefully now. Watched his mouth twitch at its corners with a nauseating excitement and pride. Still not getting it.
‘You might be looking at this all the wrong way,’ the Dreamer said. ‘You’re forgetting what it felt like to make money after having none.’
The Ghost sighed. ‘I don’t think it’s about money. Come on. The train is slowing. Let me show you.’
The train stopped and they got out onto a quiet leafy road in the Sheffield suburbs.
‘It’s our house,’ said the Dreamer. ‘It’s our new house. 38 Watson Road. The train just stopped right outside our house!’
He turned to see the train had disappeared. ‘What the …?’
‘Now follow me,’ said the Ghost as he walked through the front wall and window of the house as easily as passing through an open curtain.
And his dreaming associate looked around him and saw a boy at the end of his newspaper round with an empty satchel.
The boy kept walking towards him, and just as the Dreamer was about to say, ‘Hey, watch where you’re going,’ the boy walked right through him without noticing a thing.
‘I’m in Venice, not Broomhill … This is not happening …’ muttered the Dreamer.
And he stood there for far longer than a dream would allow and decided eventually to follow the Ghost into the house.