Chapter 19 - The trip ii
Leon
If I was mildly anxious before, I’m shitting bricks at the moment.
We’ve hiked, grilled, we’ve eaten giant burgers and stargazed for the past hour.
There’s nothing left to do but get into the tent.
I don’t know if Dex can feel the anxiety rolling off of me in waves, but he seems perfectly content lying half in my lap and staring at the sky.
I shift nervously in place thinking about how to proceed with my request.
Before I can speak, Dex lifts his head and locks his perfect eyes on me, which look like two pools of black in the moonlight.
“Can we go to the tent? It’s beautiful out here, but I can hear mosquitoes buzzing and I don’t like the smell of that spray you packed. Sorry!” He gives me a sheepish smile.
Oh God, here goes. Doesn’t seem like I can put it off any longer. I slowly nod and help
him up, pulling the lamp inside the tent with us and zipping it up.
I go to place the lamp and arrange our stuff as Dex gets comfy in the blankets, I pull the lube from my duffel and place it within easy reach.
After I’ve arranged all our things about three times, I pull out sweats for both of us and some clean plain T-shirts for sleeping.
There’s nothing else to do. I turn around to see Dex watching me closely, before he asks me about toothbrushes.
Of course, I jump at the idea to delay things a bit more.
If only I could get my nerves in check. I’m really not good at asking for sexual stuff, most of my life my partners took the lead. All two of them, anyway.
We quickly brush our teeth outside the tent and rinse with some bottled water before going back in the tent and packing them back in the bag.
There are no more distractions now, as Dex takes his place again between the blankets and holds out his hand to me.
Instead of calming down, I can feel myself shaking with nerves.
God, why is this so difficult? I’m a grown ass man and Dex is my boyfriend, I should be able to ask for this stuff.
We settle in and Dex snuggles into me before pulling my face into slow kisses.
This right here is what relaxes me, even if only marginally.
I always feel like a million bucks when I’m kissing him and, as he moves to straddle me, I run my hands over his sides over and over again.
He stops to look at me with lust-filled eyes and asks me in a low voice, “Do you want to go to sleep?”
“God, no.” I tell him quickly. That’s the last thing I want. Even if I don’t have a lot of courage right now, I know this is the perfect night for what I want to ask him.
“Ok, you just seem a bit… far away. I don’t know. I’m happy with just going to sleep, this night has been incredibly romantic and I’m loving everything you’ve done for me so far.” He says as he looks down into my eyes.
I love you floats around over and over in my head. Just say it. You fucking coward Leon, Just.Say.It!
“I want to bottom for you.” I manage to blurt out before I can overthink again.
Dex stops in his tracks, his eyes two saucers and he stares me down.
“You… what?” He asks, super mega confused.
I struggle to speak again, trying to swallow even though my throat is dry as the desert. “You heard me.” I whisper.
“I… Leon you don’t have to. I’m perfectly happy to bottom for you. You’ve already given me the best blowjob of my life two days ago, I don’t need anything more.” He continues with the same confused tone.
I puff out a small chuckle, “Sure, my very inexperienced first time blowjob was the best of your life.”
“It was because it was you.” He says back with conviction, eyes filled with love. “I really don’t need it.” He says again, more convincingly.
“I know you don’t, I know you’re happy with things, but I want to feel it even if it’s just this once. I want to feel you inside me so badly, Dex. I can’t even explain it. I would pull my ribcage open and push you inside my chest if I could.” I start to ramble in my usual style when I’m nervous.
He lets out a long exhale and just looks at me for a long time. “Ok.” He whispers, while gently dragging his hand over my hair, sinking his fingers deep into my scalp. I’m slowly relaxing, as my body fully melts into the blankets.
“I don’t usually top though, only have a couple times, so I don’t know if I can make it good for you.” He takes his eyes away from me and stares down at my chest.
“It will be because it’s you.” I turn around his words back to him and watch him smile more openly, some of the worry that was in his eyes now gone.
“Ok.” He whispers again and I move to take off his shirt and run my hands over his chest and shoulders.
“You’re so beautiful.” I tell him sincerely, while I take him in. Don’t think I’ll ever get tired of seeing him like this.
“So are you, Leon. God, I can’t even describe with words how beautiful you are. Inside and out. I’m so incredibly in awe of you.” He says and bends down to kiss me while I wrestle his sweats and boxers. I have him naked over me and move to stroke him, but he quickly slaps my hand away.
“We’re not doing me right now. I have to prep you and it’s going to take a while since it’s your first time.” He moves to strip me of my clothes quickly and I reach for the lube I strategically placed nearby.
“It might not need that much time. I’ve been… uhm, practicing?” Not sure why I end on a question there. I clear my throat to try and get rid of some of the remaining nerves.
“Practicing?” He asks as he lifts an eyebrow.
“Well, when I was alone the last few times I tried with my fingers. It was weird to be honest, but I think the angle was off and I didn’t know what I was doing that well. But I managed to get two of mine in, so maybe I don’t need that much prep.”
The smile on Dex’s face turned wicked “Oh, that kind of practicing. Jeez, Leon, that’s so hot.” He says as he takes the lube from my hand and coats his fingers, moving to massage my rim.
“Oh God, that already feels so much better than what I did.” I say, breathless.
“I know, baby. Just relax for me.” He whispers as he peppers my throat with kisses.
He’s slowly pushing a finger inside. It still feels a bit weird, but his slim and long finger glides in easily.
He’s thrusting it slowly, swirling it around in long circles and sliding over a spot that sends little zaps to the head of my cock.
I was completely flaccid when we started, too nervous to even feel horny, but now I’ve gone from zero to a hundred in about two seconds, judging by the state of my angry erection.
“Ready for a second?” He asks and I realize I spaced out a bit, utterly in bliss with my eyes closed.
I open them to see him watching me closely and I nod slowly.
He pushes another finger inside and holds them there for a few good seconds.
It stings a bit, but nowhere near as much as when I did it.
I give him another nod and he starts to thrust and swirl again, back to kissing me softly, while his other hand moves to stroke me slowly from root to tip.
It feels so good, I find myself thinking I can’t wait until he’s actually inside.
All previous anxiety has dissipated into thin air.
I’m here in this moment with him and there’s nowhere else I would rather be.
“I’m ready.” I tell him, my voice taking a raspy tone.
“Just a bit longer.” Dex volleys back.
I grab his chin to get him to look at me, while saying again, “I’m ready.” Why doesn’t he understand that I’m about to burst as it is?
A third finger glides in with ease and I start pushing back on his hand. “You’re ready.” He whispers back in awe. He gets up on his heels and lubes up his cock until it’s dripping. I feel him positioning against my hole while he envelops me with his body, but he’s not pushing in.
“I’m so nervous.” He says while sitting completely still above me.
“Just kiss me.” I plead as I grab his face with both hands.
We’re just kissing for a few good minutes when I feel the slightest pressure.
I immediately go to relax my whole body, feeling him reach further inside with the most shallow thrusts.
It’s already burning quite a bit, but with the amount of lube there’s not that much resistance.
“You almost in?” I ask him, voice quivering.
Dex does a small shaking motion, “Just past the head.”
I’m gaping at him while he tries and fails not to smile. “Fuck, you’re big. That’s just the head?”
“You’re bigger than me.” He says, cheekily.
“Ok, true. I just didn’t realize it would feel quite this… big.” I tell him as I feel my cheeks flush.
“You feel so good, Leon. I could probably come just like this. We don’t have to go any further tonight.” He tries to give me an out again.
“Momma didn’t raise no quitter. Giddy up!” I accentuate with a swift slap on his ass, which makes him slide a bit further inside.
“Fuck, Leon.” He’s full-on laughing now and so am I, but the little movements that ripple and push him into my prostate make me moan instead.
“It has to be halfway in now.” I’m hopeful I’m right this time.
“More than half. I’m almost in. You’re doing great, baby.
” He says as I pull him into another steamy kiss.
It’s not long until I feel his pelvis sit on the back of my thighs and I do a little internal happy dance that we made it.
His hips start dragging back and forth in long fluid motions while the kissing turns more heated.
It’s such an amazing contrast in the way he’s fucking my mouth with his tongue almost aggressively, but he’s carefully slow with my ass.
“You can go a bit faster, Dex.” I say in a rugged voice I don’t recognise.
He doesn’t respond but grants my request while kissing every inch of my skin.
I’m hot like a furnace, sweating heavily even without really moving.
The sensations collide, feeling his mouth on me and his cock buried deep within, moving faster and faster.
I’m a moaning mess while I grip the blankets in a crushing grip, trying to find something to steady me.
Dex is not doing any better judging by his heavy pants, I can feel him getting closer and closer, when he grabs my cock and starts stroking, keeping the same rhythm as his hips.
This is what I needed, I’m cresting higher and higher, tingles in my spine and numbing in my extremities.
My moans are out of control as Dex goes faster and faster, building me up from the inside out and I feel the telltale sign of an orgasm crashing through my body like a tsunami.
There’s no warning to give him as I shout out his name and come all over my chest.
I’m so out of it I don’t even feel Dex coming with me, but it becomes obvious as his soft dick slips from my body a couple of minutes later.
“Wow.” He whispers against my neck.
It takes me a few good breaths to manage to get any words out. “Think that was my line.”
I get a soft chuckle in return that vibrates against my trachea. “So, good?” He asks, as he looks at me with a bit of uncertainty.
“Never came this hard in my life. Thought it was obvious.” I tell him between kissing his hair and temple.
“Well, as much as I love you, I’m not giving you bottom full time.” He says with a laugh, but I’m focused on one word. One little world that means more than anything else in the world at this moment.
He freezes immediately, becoming stiff as a board. If only he knew, there’s nothing to be worried about. I’m the happiest man on the planet and probably in the universe tonight.
“I love you too, Dex.” I whisper and feel him relax into me as I tighten my arms around his waist, moving to stroke along his spine.
“I lied.” He says softly and all the alarm bells start ringing in my ears.
What? He lied?
He continues after a few beats, “I would give you anything you wanted, Leon.”