Chapter Nineteen #3
Hours and hours and hours passed. Isabelle grew so breathless she couldn’t have formed the words needed to beg for a drink of water, but she knew that Eduardo wouldn’t have listened to her anyway.
She heard MacLeish in front of her, gasping, cursing every time he slipped, crying out in pain at the blisters she knew were turning his feet into open sores.
She couldn’t make out the path at all anymore. She just trudged upward, her eyelids struggling to stay open.
Angling forward against the wind, she pulled her scarf up over her nose and mouth and kept going. Her breath, coming in pants, warmed her scarf. The fabric turned moist and then froze into solid, icy folds.
“Here.” Eduardo’s booming voice came at her from the darkness. They were so high up the mountain that there were sure to be no German or Spanish patrols. The risk to their lives up here came from the elements.
Isabelle collapsed in a heap, landing hard enough on a piece of rock that she cried out, but she was too tired to care.
MacLeish dropped down beside her, gasping, “Christ Almighty,” and pitching forward. She grabbed his arm, steadied him as he started to slide downward.
She heard a cacophony of voices come after it—“thank God … bloody well time”—and then she heard bodies hit the ground. They fell downward in a group, as if their legs could hold them no more.
“Not here,” Eduardo said. “The goatherder’s shack. Over there.”
Isabelle staggered to her feet. In the back of the line, she waited, shivering, her arms crossed around her body as if she could hold heat within, but there was no heat.
She felt like a shard of ice, brittle and frozen.
Her mind fought the stupor that wanted to take over.
She had to keep shaking her head to keep her thoughts clear.
She heard a footstep and knew Eduardo was standing beside her in the darkness, their faces pelted by icy rain.
“Are you all right?” he asked.
“I’m frozen solid. And I’m afraid to look at my feet.”
“Blisters?”
“The size of dinner plates, I’m pretty sure. I can’t tell if the rain is making my shoes wet or if blood is bubbling through the material.”
She felt tears sting her eyes and freeze instantly, binding her lashes together.
Eduardo took her hand and led her to the goatherder’s shed, where he started a fire.
The ice in her hair turned to water and dripped to the floor, puddling at her feet.
She watched the men collapse where they stood, thumping back against the rough wooden walls as they pulled their rucksacks into their laps and began searching through them for food. MacLeish waved her over.
Isabelle picked her way through the men and collapsed beside MacLeish. In silence, listening to men chewing and belching and sighing around her, she ate the cheese and apples she’d brought with her.
She had no idea when she fell asleep. One minute she was awake, eating what passed for supper on the mountain, and the next thing she knew, Eduardo was waking them again. Gray light pressed against the dirty window of the shack. They’d slept through the day and been wakened in the late afternoon.
Eduardo started a fire, made a pot of ersatz coffee, and handed it out to them. Breakfast was stale bread and hard cheese—good, but not nearly enough to stave off the hunger that was still sharp from yesterday.
Eduardo took off at a brisk walk, climbing the slick, frost-covered shale of the treacherous trail like a billy goat.
Isabelle was the last one out of the shack.
She looked up the trail. Gray clouds obscured the peaks and snowflakes hushed the world until there was no earthly sound except their breathing.
Men vanished in front of her, becoming small black dots in the whiteness.
She plunged into the cold, climbing steadily, following the man in front of her.
He was all she could see in the falling snow.
Eduardo’s pace was punishing. He climbed up the twisting path without pause, seemingly unaware of the biting, burning cold that turned every breath into a fire that exploded in the lungs.
Isabelle panted and kept going, encouraging the men when they started to lag, cajoling them and teasing them and urging them on.
When darkness fell again, she redoubled her efforts to keep morale up.
Even though she felt sick to her stomach with fatigue and parched with thirst, she kept going.
If any one of them got more than a few feet away from the person in front of him, he could be lost forever in this frozen darkness.
To leave the path for a few feet was to die.
She stumbled on through the night.
Someone fell in front of her, made a yelping sound. She rushed forward, found one of the Canadian fliers on his knees, wheezing hard, his moustache frozen. “I’m beat, baby doll,” he said, trying to smile.
Isabelle slid down beside him, felt her backside instantly grow cold. “It’s Teddy, right?”
“You got me. Look. I’m done for. Just go on ahead.”
“You got a wife, Teddy, a girl back home in Canada?”
She couldn’t see his face, but she heard the way he sucked in his breath at her question. “You aren’t playin’ fair, doll.”
“There’s no fair in life and death, Teddy. What’s her name?”
“Alice.”
“Get on your feet for Alice, Teddy.”
She felt him shift his weight, get his feet back underneath him. She angled her body against him, let him lean against her as he stood. “All right, then,” he said, shuddering hard.
She let him go, heard him walk on ahead.
She sighed heavily, shivering at the end of it.
Hunger gnawed at her stomach. She swallowed dryly, wishing they could stop just for a minute.
Instead, she pointed herself in the direction of the men and kept going.
Her mind was muddling again, her thoughts blurring.
All she could think of was taking this step, and the next one, and the next one.
Sometime near dawn, the snow turned to rain that turned their woolen coats into sodden weights.
Isabelle hardly noticed when they started going down.
The only real difference was the men falling, slipping on the wet rocks and tumbling down the rocky, treacherous mountainside.
There was no way to stop them; she just had to watch them fall and help them get back on their feet when they came to a breathless, broken stop.
The visibility was so bad that they were constantly in fear of losing sight of the man in front and plunging off the path.
At daybreak, Eduardo stopped and pointed to a yawning black cave tucked into the mountainside.
The men gathered inside, making huffing sounds as they sat and stretched out their legs.
Isabelle heard them opening their packs, burrowing through for the last bits of their food.
Somewhere deep inside, an animal scurried around, its claws scratching lightly on the hard-packed dirt floor.
Isabelle followed the men inside; roots hung down from the dripping stone-and-mud interior.
Eduardo knelt down and made a small fire, using the moss he’d picked that morning and packed in his waistband.
“Eat and sleep,” he said when the flames danced up.
“Tomorrow we make the final trek.” He reached for his goatskin bota, drank deeply, and then left the cave.
The damp wood crackled and popped, sounding like gunfire in the cave, but Isabelle—and the men—were too exhausted even to flinch. Isabelle sat down beside MacLeish and leaned tiredly against him.
“You’re a wonder,” he said in a hushed voice.
“I’ve been told I don’t make smart decisions. This may be proof of that.” She shivered, whether from cold or exhaustion, she didn’t know.
“Dumb but brave,” he said with a smile.
Isabelle was grateful for the conversation. “That’s me.”
“I don’t think I’ve thanked you properly … for saving me.”
“I don’t think I’ve saved you yet, Torrance.”
“Call me Torry,” he said. “All my mates do.”
He said something else—about a girl waiting for him in Ipswich, maybe—but she was too tired to hear what it was.
When she wakened, it was raining.
“Bollocks,” one of the men said. “It’s pissing out there.”
Eduardo stood outside the cave, his strong legs braced widely apart, his face and hair pelted by rain that he seemed not to notice at all. Behind him, there was darkness.
The airmen opened their rucksacks. No one had to be told to eat anymore; they knew the routine. When you were allowed to stop, you drank, you ate, you slept, and in that order. When you were wakened, you ate and drank and got to your feet, no matter how much it hurt to do so.
As they stood, a groan moved from man to man. A few cursed. It was a rainy, moonless night. Utterly dark.
They had made it over the mountain—almost one thousand meters high where they crossed the previous night—and were halfway down the other side, but the weather was worsening.
As Isabelle left the cave, wet branches smacked her in the face.
She pushed them away with a gloved hand and kept going.
Her walking stick thumped with each step.
Rain made the shale as slick as ice and ran in rivulets alongside them.
She heard the men grunting in front of her.
She trudged forward on blistered, aching feet.
The pace set by Eduardo was gruelingly hard.
Nothing stopped or slowed the man, and the airmen struggled to keep up.
“Look!” she heard someone say.
In the distance, far away, lights twinkled, a spiderweb pattern of white dots spanned the darkness.
“Spain,” Eduardo said.
The sight rejuvenated the group. They continued, their walking sticks thumping, their feet landing solidly as the ground gradually leveled out.