12th July 2006
I’ve been giving my ‘Too Good’ idea some proper thought.
It works. I’ve stress-tested it from all directions.
No one can put a dent in it, I don’t think – least of all me, and, let’s face it, I’m the only one likely to try.
Perverse as it seems in so many ways, I think the Too Good Ollie theory is the magic ingredient I need: the conceptual foundation (listen to me!) that cannot be argued against, that’s going to make me believe, forever, that of course Paddy has to be, and was always going to be, the one.
Of course Paddy’s perfect and Ollie isn’t.
Why? Because Ollie IS perfect!!
It’s taken me two days to fully understand it, and I’m the one who invented the proof. Yes, I’m calling it a proof because isn’t that what mathematicians and scientists call it when they formulate watertight theories?
Here’s how it goes, in full (allow me to ‘show my workings’!):
a. Ollie is perfect.
b. Anyone who would even consider choosing, let alone actually choose, someone inferior in every way (Paddy) over Ollie must be very inferior themselves (harsh, yes, but how can this not be true?).
c. Anyone very inferior to Ollie doesn’t deserve to be with Ollie; he deserves to find someone as high quality and impressive as he is.
d. Therefore, who is the perfect choice of love object and romantic partner for an inferior person who would choose Paddy over Ollie? Why, Paddy, of course!
I can’t say this makes me at all happy (I’m crying writing it) but I don’t need to be happy in order to go along with what the Tyrant has decreed. I just need to be able to believe that it’s somehow right and, most importantly, a blessing for Ollie rather than a tragedy.