Chapter 11 #2
And something was off about her breakup story.
The whole “knew they weren’t going to end up happily ever after” part was especially eyebrow-raising.
Maybe Bea didn’t think they’d end “happily”—they’ve always been too tortured together for that—but she seemed committed to going the distance with Kai.
She’s called him her soulmate on more than one occasion.
My gut is screaming that there’s more to this.
It’s like that feeling when someone’s about to blindside me on the ice, a tingle along the hairline and between the shoulders. If I pay attention, I might have enough time to get Bea out of the line of fire.
Ignore it, and…
Well, I don’t know what happens then. And I won’t know until I pin Bea down in the hard light of day and big-brother the truth out of her. We aren’t as close as we were as kids or teens, but I’m still the one Bea comes to for advice. She still trusts that I have her best interests at heart.
A notification makes me flinch. I look over, to see a text from Charlotte—Hope you guys are having a good morning. Tell Bea it was nice meeting her last night.
Sighing, I type back—Thanks. I will. As soon as she wakes up…
Charlotte: Were you two up late catching up?
Nix: No, actually. She went to sleep five minutes after you left. I’m starting to get a little worried.
Charlotte: She’s probably just tired from her trip. And all the emotional upheaval. Breakups are exhausting.
Nix: Yeah, you’re probably right.
Charlotte: I’m almost always right. Unfortunately.
Nix: Why unfortunately?
Charlotte: It’s hard to feel like you deserve sympathy when you saw the betrayal coming a mile away.
I’ve been thinking about all the time I wasted with Teddy lately.
By the time we were in deep, I couldn’t see the forest for the trees, but for the first year or so, I knew I was making a mistake.
I knew we would never work long term. But I was so tired of being alone, I just kept…
talking myself out of what I knew to be true. How dumb is that?
Nix: That’s not dumb. That’s just being human. Being alone is hard sometimes.
Charlotte: Realizing you’ve flushed away years of your life when you knew better is harder. What an asshole I am.
Nix: Why are you being mean to Charlotte this morning? Stop being mean to Charlotte. She’s my friend.
Charlotte: LOL. Well, thanks. She’s lucky to have such a nice, supportive friend.
Nix: Am I still nice and supportive if I’m thinking about how hot you looked half-naked on my island last night?
Charlotte: Yes, you are. But you shouldn’t be thinking about that. Or me. You should go bring Beatrice a coffee. Getting out of bed post-breakup is always easier with caffeine.
Nix: Good idea. I’ll go ask her if she wants a coffee. She gave up caffeine for a little while, but I think she’s given up on giving up since then.
Charlotte: I hope so. For her sake. A life without caffeine is not a life I want to imagine. With that in mind, I’ll go make another pot of French Roast and catch up with you soon. Have a good weekend!
Nix: You, too.
Good weekend?
Guess that means I won’t be seeing Charlotte until Monday. Or maybe even the next home game.
We don’t have any firm plans until then…
Shit.
But a clear schedule is probably a good thing. I can’t shake the feeling that whatever’s up with Bea isn’t something that will be handled with a few days of R&R in NOLA and a stupid movie night with her big brother.
I set my phone down and start toward the guest room, bare feet silent on the hardwood. Outside the closed door, I pause, leaning in. Listening…
Nothing.
Not even the whir of the fan, and Bea’s never been able to sleep without the fan on, not even in the dead of winter.
I gently push on the door handle, cracking it just enough to peek at the bed and be sure she’s okay. But when the mattress comes into view, there’s nothing there but a dented pillow and rumpled covers.
“Bea?” I ask, poking my head more fully inside, far enough to see that the guest bathroom door is closed.
I’m about to head back into the kitchen—assuming Bea’s grabbing a shower and will be out soon—when a muffled sob cuts through the silence.
It’s followed closely by another, then a soft string of curses.
Coming from the bathroom.
I cross the room, calling in a louder voice, “Hey, Bea? You okay in there? I made pancakes.”
Silence. Loaded silence.
Then, “Um, yeah. Thanks. I’ll be right out.”
Her voice is thick. Rough. Like she’s been in there crying for a while.
“There’s no rush. Pancakes warm up fine.” I keep my tone light, brotherly, even though my pulse is hammering. “Take as much time as you need, okay?”
“Thanks, Nix, I appreciate it. I really—” She breaks off with another sob, this one almost too faint to hear.
But I do hear it, and my gut is screaming that I have to help her. Now. I have to be sure she knows that whatever’s going down, she doesn’t have to go through it alone.
“Are you going to the bathroom, Bea?” I ask, already reaching for the doorknob.
“Wh-what?” She sniffs. “Um, no, but I—”
“Good, then I’m coming in,” I say, pushing in before she can send me away.
She curses again, her eyes flying wide as she freezes in place.
She’s sitting cross-legged on the wide, empty side of the counter, nudged up as close to the mirror as she can get. Probably because she doesn’t have her glasses, and Bea can’t see anything close without her glasses.
Not a book, not directions for macaroni and cheese, and, apparently, not the bruise under her left eye.
It isn’t fresh, but it’s ugly, a mix of light purple and yellow. I’m sure it isn’t easy to cover with makeup. Especially when you’re crying, and she’s clearly been crying, as evidenced by the red in the whites of her eyes and her puffy lids.
Our gazes lock in the mirror, and the hand holding her makeup brush trembles. She swallows, her eyes growing even wider at whatever she sees in my face.
Probably murder.
Because I’m going to kill the man who did this to her. Dead.
So fucking dead.
“Calm down, Nix,” she says, her voice cracking on my name.
“It was Kai, wasn’t it?” I ask, sounding remarkably calm considering the fact that in my mind I’m already wrapping my hands around the bastard’s scrawny emo neck and strangling him.
“We aren’t having this conversation right now. Not like this.” She sets the brush down, sitting up straighter as she turns to face me. “And this isn’t your problem. This is my problem.”
“You’re my sister, my family,” I say. “And no one touches my—”
“Out!” She points a finger at the door, glaring at me with all the fire of twelve-year-old Bea insisting I never borrow her good markers again without asking, no matter how desperate I am to color in a stupid pie chart for statistics class.
“Get out and wait for me in the kitchen. Give me ten minutes, and we’ll discuss this like adults. ”
“I am discussing it like an adult,” I insist, but my volume is still too loud.
I know that. So, when Bea cocks an “are you really?” eyebrow my way, I have no choice but to grumble, “Fine. But ten minutes. That’s it.
And you are never going to be alone with him again, do we understand each other? Never.”
“Out!” she says again, eyes blazing brighter than before. “Before I come over there and slam the door in your face.”
“Fine!” I shout.
“Fine!” she shouts back.
I storm out of the guest room, slightly comforted by Bea’s fire, but only slightly.
She isn’t broken, but that doesn’t mean Kai didn’t do his best to get the job done.
He’s been doing his best to break her down for years, subtly dinging her confidence every chance he gets, until my once fiercely independent, outrageously talented sister seemed to think she couldn’t live—or make music—without him.
But she can.
And she will.
And if Kai tries to stop her?
Well, that’s a decision he’ll regret for a very, very long time.
Or a very short one…