52. Aurora #2
I remember my crush on him, I remember how it felt when he started paying attention to me, talking to me and letting his eyes trail over me.
I felt wanted, and after so many denials from the guys, I was looking for something to make me feel alive.
I was a fucking idiot to think that something was Jason Miles.
Now I spend my days remembering every one of his stupid letters, the things he wrote, the fantasies he created, all of them making me sick to my stomach. You’d think it would be better putting a name to it all, but it isn’t, I only feel worse, especially considering we don’t know where he is.
I still haven’t told the guys about the letters or the gifts.
They are still mad over what happened at my mother’s annual charity event, which they have every right to be.
I don’t let myself imagine what would have happened if the guys didn’t arrive in time.
His hand was already up my skirt, ripping at my underwear as I fought against him, and even the thought of it brings bile to my throat.
I just always put that night down to him being drunk, and a dick, not an obsessive stalker, but I guess you never really know people as well as you think you do.
It’s those thoughts that swirl in my mind, as I pack my bag to head home for Thanksgiving.
My last class before break was this morning, and Roger is picking Everest and me up soon, and all I can think about is that my family might be able to sense something different with us.
How are we supposed to act around one another?
How can I sit beside him and pretend he’s just my brother?
Griffin and Harden are heading back to the city too, both of them spending the holiday at Griffin’s house, and I wonder if they are worrying about the same thing I am.
Are they going to hide their relationship?
Would Griffin’s parents even care? I doubt it.
Griffin is basically an accessory to them, something they did because it was popular among their friends, but that’s not the case with my family.
I’m going to miss them, but more than that, I’m going to miss the little bubble the four of us have encased ourselves in.
When Everest finds me, I am slumped on the floor beside my bag, and his quiet and assessing stare washes over me. “Packing is going well, I see,” he muses, moving to take a seat on the bed behind me. “I can hear your overthinking from here, princess.”
I scoff. “I am not overthinking.” I push up onto my knees and turn to face him.
Everest only smirks, reaching out and tucking a few tendrils of my hair behind my ear.
“Come on, Rora, we both know you’re a terrible liar.
” I can’t help the sigh that leaves me, and his smile drops.
“It will all be okay, I promise.” He tugs me between his legs, wrapping his arms around me, and I let the weight of his hold keep me from falling apart.
“Will you be going back to sneaking into my room to watch me sleep?” I ask teasingly, but Everest’s stare only darkens.
“The only thing I’ll be sneaking into while you sleep, is your cunt, princess,” he grunts, and I snort a laugh, just as Griffin and Harden find us.
“Foursome before we leave anyone?” Griffin says by way of greeting, making Harden roll his eyes, and I shake my head at him, pushing to my feet.
“I thought that’s what last night was,” I toss back, remembering how they laid me out and filled me up, just like that night in the woods.
“Yeah, but now my dick is realizing it’s not going to see you for four days,” he muses, throwing himself onto Harden’s bed.
“Then remind it that your boyfriend will still be in your bed,” Everest snaps, shoving him away when he gets too close, but I don’t miss the way Griffin’s gaze darkens as it trails over Harden.
“What can I say, my cock is greedy when it comes to our girl,” Griffin jokes, but I see the way Harden watches him in return. The thought of them together evokes something inside of me, and I find myself wondering what it’s like when it’s just the two of them.
“Well, be good for one another and I’ll treat you both when we get back,” I reply casually, causing both their stares to snap to mine, and Griffin groans.
“Such a little cock tease, sweetheart.” He swipes his hands down his face, before pushing up and shaking his head at me.
She’s always been a wicked little thing . Harden signs and I smirk, enjoying how easily I can get under their skin.
“Maybe if I’m feeling generous, I’ll send you a video of my cum spilling out of her holes.” Everest says the words so casually that they almost don’t sound completely filthy, as he pushes up and moves to toss something in his own bag.
“I knew there was a reason I always liked you,” Griffin replies with a feral grin, as a blush creeps up my chest, but just as I open my mouth to respond, Everest cuts in.
“Roger is here.”
The three words dissipate the humor hanging between us, and a heavy weight settles in the pit of my stomach. Griffin and Harden both move toward me instantly, each taking their turn to kiss me goodbye, as Everest grabs both of our bags.
“We’ll see you in a few days, okay sweetheart?” Griffin says, and I nod, already missing them, as he pushes me toward Harden.
Everything is going to be okay. He signs, and if he can think that, after everything that has happened to him, then I can too.
Roger greets Everest and me with a smile, taking our bags, as Ever gets my door for me, and when we climb inside, I will for excitement to churn inside of me at the thought of seeing my family.
But it’s no use. Right now, there is nothing but dread.