Chapter Aldrich
ALDRICH
SHE FELT SO fucking good I lost my head and hadn’t wrapped up. As soon as my nut faded I stilled as the realization of what we’d just done washed over me.
I’d fucked my nanny.
My employee. Somebody who should’ve felt nothing but safe and comfort in my home.
Fucked her on the floor like she was nobody.
And I might have regretted where I did it but I couldn’t bring myself to regret the act.
This was the first time I’d slipped my dick in anything since seeing that tape.
The first time I’d wanted to. The first time that the idea of my dick being inside somebody hadn’t sent me into cold sweats and wanting to throw up.
So that was progress.
But damn if I hadn’t made the worst possible time for my dick to remember we liked pussy.
And it was some phenomenal pussy at that.
I knew it wasn’t the long, self-imposed celibacy that had me feeling like this.
I’d fasted from the fairer sex before and knew that wasn’t it.
Just like everything else about Sterling, the blessed valley between her thighs seemed to be as anointed with an extra special purpose like the rest of her.
Sterling didn’t slack at anything in any area of her life so of course she would feel like heaven on earth.
I’m fucked.
She was more than just her title but I couldn’t lie that there weren’t complications to what we’d just done.
Issues that stretched out silently between the two of us as I struggled to catch my breath because that nut seemed to take everything out of me.
I’d run over a hundred yards in one go and it hadn’t made me feel as winded as this had.
I wasn’t sure if it was all the conflicting emotions fucking with me or if Ling was some type of succubus and she’d zapped my life force with her pussy.
I hit her raw. Fuck, we've gotta figure this shit out.
I eased her legs down from around my hips and shifted so I was lying beside her instead of collapsing on top of her like I had.
Hearing her say Money in that tortured, needy and blissful way had taken me over the edge and I hadn’t pulled out the way I should have.
I wasn’t even going to lie and say I'd wanted to because I damn sure hadn’t.
I’d subconsciously fulfilled my desires because my nut was firmly planted inside of Ling.
My lack of panic over that should’ve had me more concerned than I was.
Movement next to me reminded me that I wasn’t just parsing this shit out in my head. I had a living, breathing woman that I needed to speak to and try to figure out where her head was.
I turned toward her, and I could tell she looked uncomfortable. Lost. Nothing like the woman who took control over my house and hell me when I wasn’t acting like I had sense.
Gotdammit I’m fucking this up for all of us.
“My bad about—”
She flinched and I wondered how my apologizing was taken the wrong way.
“No, it’s fine. We both lost our heads for a second.
” Sterling sat up quick as fuck like I was the worst person in the world.
I wanted to stop her but I got caught up watching how her body moved.
Sterling was thick as fuck, that much was always clear even when she wore those baggy clothes I’m sure were standard for nannies not to draw attention to themselves.
But seeing her with her shirt pushed up over her breast, that I fucked up and didn’t get to taste of, as her ass clapped while she was just searching the ground for her pants, she had me mesmerized.
And then I realized she was getting dressed.
I reached over and touched her thigh and the way she recoiled was like a stab in the gut. “Hold up, Ling. What you doing?”
She ignored me her eyes looking as though she’d zoned out as she reached for where her panties were lying by the couch. “It was a mistake, I get it. At least let me wash you out of me before you fire me or whatever it is you’re about to do.”
“What?” I was trying to keep up while she was snatching her stuff up off the floor.
I swore I might have really been tackled too many times because I couldn’t comprehend what the hell was going on.
“Wait. No. I don’t regret shit, I’m not about to fire you.
I was apologizing because I didn’t use protection, Ling.
I ain’t never slipped up like that and I apologize cause I know that ain’t how you roll either. ”
She didn’t completely stop getting dressed much to my disappointment, but she moved at such less hurried pace. Progress.
“You’re so sure.”
I stood up because I didn’t want her to bolt out of the room and have me getting tripped up since my shorts were around my damn ankles. I pulled them back up and didn’t miss how she watched me without an ounce of guilt. It wasn’t until my dick was covered back up that she looked back at my face.
“You’re a nurse, Sterling. Even if you were out here slanging pussy like dime bags you would still make somebody wrap it up. So that’s my fault for not slowing down and keeping a level head.”
She folded her lips together trying not to laugh at me but she couldn’t help it as her laughter burst through. She slapped her hand over her mouth again and I instantly knew she was worried about waking up Ami.
Once she could talk without laughing she cleared her throat and rolled her shoulders back. “We can always talk about this at some other time. Or not at all. We’re both grown and just because we did grown folks things doesn’t mean I have expectations or anything like that.”
She was doing it again. Shutting herself off before she got hurt and I didn’t like that shit.
I was being a hypocrite because I’d been moving that way all year but someone like Sterling didn’t deserve it.
She wasn’t na?ve but she had a genuine heart and an honest spirit.
It pissed me off that her mother had her feeling as though she couldn’t expect to be loved and clearly her father didn’t reinforce that shit either.
Another thing I've gotta make sure I do with Ami.
“What if I do?”
“Huh?” The lamp that we’d kept on was casting shadows over her face but I clearly saw how confused she was. I was confused myself because I didn’t know where I was going with this line of thought but I wasn’t going to lie that I didn’t mean what I was saying.
“What if I have expectations? You can’t play with me like I’m a toy, Sterling, and not fuck up my head.”
“Stop playing.” My desire for her beyond her body had her looking speechless.
“I’m not. You know something between us has been building for a minute.”
“Aldrich, it’s proximity. That’s the only reason you’re feeling how you are. I’m here and you’re depending on me. That makes you feel something that might fade. Sex just confused it even more.”
“I was in the top twenty percent of my classes in high school and in college, Sterling.”
Her brows dipped along with the sides of her mouth as she frowned at my words. “Aldrich, what does that have to do with anything?”
“I much prefer you call me Money, but we’ll get back to that.
” The shy look on her face made my chest puff out because I knew she was remembering the moment she called me Money.
Shit, so was I and I needed to stop because I felt my dick pressing against the front of my shorts.
Greedy muthafucka came out of retirement and is trying to gorge himself.
“Aldrich—”
I stepped closer to her and when she didn’t move back I continued walking until I was directly in front of her.
I leaned forward to speak directly into her ear.
I watched her skin pebble and the pulse in the base of her neck kick up with anticipation of what I would do.
“You can be all proper right now but I've got the cheat codes to have you real relaxed. I’m not about to let you fight this shit, Ling. We've both been ignoring it for different reasons but that shit’s out the door now. We can’t unring that bell and I for damn sure ain’t ever forgetting what that pussy felt like—”
“So, sex—”
“No. Attraction. Sex is a natural consequence of attraction when it’s as strong as it is between us. Stop fighting to make yourself inconsequential to me. It ain’t ever gone fly, Ling.”
She glanced away and I pulled her by her hip closer to me because I needed to feel that connection to her. In just minutes since I’d withdrawn from her body, I needed that contact. Craved it. Her aura was comforting but the actual physical touch of her felt healing, magical, a necessity.
I see why Ami be cutting a fit now when Sterling puts her down.
When she came to me without hesitation I used my fingers to gently turn her face back to me. Her eyes held a look of wariness and I knew I wouldn’t be able to fight that and conquer it all in one night.
“I don’t know how to do this.” Her confession was whispered softly, as though she didn’t want me to hear it.
Or the part of her that could be so vulnerable was so minute that this was as loud as she’d allowed it to be.
And I hated that. Hated that her kindness and her spirit had been eroded to the point that she’d been unable to be true to her own nature.
“I used to. But stuff tried to fuck with the person I was…the person I am. If I’m going to confront that shit within myself like you told me to, you not gone do the same?”
My fingers brushed hers, and she wrapped her middle finger around my thumb. Instead of caging her hand like I wanted to, I used my finger to stroke the back of her hand while she worked out in her mind what she wanted to say.
“It’s different. This is my job.”
“You could quit this shit and not have to worry about working again, Ling, don’t try me.”
She huffed a laugh and shook her head as if the idea was foreign to her. “I wouldn’t ever do that, no offense. Money makes people crazy. But besides the job thing, there’s Ami. I love her too much and I got attached when I shouldn’t have.”
“Or maybe this is where you were supposed to be all along. You ever think that? The way your heart opened up to her meant this was all a part of the universe’s plan for you.”
“The fact that you’re saying the universe is the reason I’m standing here with you dripping down my thigh is wild.” She was chuckling but my eyes drifted south so I could see what she was talking about.
My dick jumped at her words and I worked my shoulders back so keep myself in check. “The fact that you said that like it wouldn’t want me to get back to painting your walls is what’s wild.”
“Aldrich!”
“Nah, Ling. You fucked up. We fucked up. But this could be us falling into place. I ain’t gone rush shit, just be easy and go with what’s in front of us. Anything else might make us stray from our destinies and shit.”
“Is it a Californian thing to get all metaphysical when you’re gaslighting people?”
“Is it a New York thing to be so suspicious and not trust people at all?”
She swung our connected hands casually. “Actually, yes. It’s served me well.”
“Yeah, well, fuck that. Right now it could hold you back and I’m not on that.”
“So what do you suggest?”
I moved her flush to me so she could feel me fully. “Right now we're about to go in your room—”
“Aldrich—”
“I’m not touching you again until you say so.
But what we are about to do is lie down.
Your room is the closest to Ami’s and we both want to hear her if she gets up.
I hate this shit happened right before I gotta head to camp, but trust me we’ll figure something out.
Aight?” I held her gaze so that she could see she wasn’t the only one being vulnerable.
Was I scared? Hell yeah. Afraid that I was gonna slip back into that nigga that wasn’t sure about himself.
The one who might lash out at her for something she hadn’t done.
Talking with Doc had helped, but anytime Ami’s egg donor was brought up, I slipped.
Shit would get dark quick and although I was better about bringing myself out of it, how many times would Sterling be understanding about it?
You could only hit something so many times before it broke and I didn’t want to be the reason that Sterling shattered.
She gave a nod so quick I don’t even think she realized she was doing it. “Okay.”
I wrapped my fingers through hers and led her toward her bedroom. “Cool. I’ll be the big spoon tonight.”
“What happened to you not touching me until I said so?”
“It’s called body language, Ling. Those nipples screaming they want to rest in my hands tonight and I for damn sure ain’t about to deny myself the privilege.”
“You are a fool.” Her laughter was soft, and her voice was low because Ami’s door was open.
“Might be. I’m still going to sleep using your titty as a pacifier.” When she stopped moving I turned around and found an odd look on her face. “What?”
“You must not plan on getting any sleep then.”