Journal Entry Calder
I received a letter from the council recently letting me know that there's a rogue wolf on the loose that's apparently been killing people for a while.
That alone is enough to make everything more difficult.
My pack is on edge and everyone is looking to me for leadership.
I want to help the council find this rogue and stop him from risking the exposure of our entire world that we've so carefully hidden for so long.
But at the same time, I secretly hope that I don't have to deal with him at all.
That he just passes us by on his way to wherever he's going.
Keeping my wolves safe is far more important than trying to be a hero and catch this guy.
I thought that was complicated enough. But, today I met someone, completely by accident.
Up until now, I thought maybe I just wasn't cut out to be in a relationship.
I've met plenty of nice wolves and plenty more who found me very interesting since I'm an Alpha.
None of them really tempted me. But today I am tempted and it's the worst possible situation.
The person I met is human. Not only that, but he is also a man.
Those were two things that I never expected to have to deal with.
Finding a human being is an incredibly complicated process that only the Secret Mate Society can help with.
There is a rigorous vetting procedure to make sure that the human in question won't expose everyone once they learn my secret.
The process can take anywhere from months to years depending on the person.
And I wouldn't be able to meet them until they've been cleared through most of the process already.
However, the man I met today almost swept me off my feet, catching me completely off guard.
Not only that but I am almost completely certain that he is my mate.
And not just any mate, but one destined by fate itself.
Those are rare at the best of times but considering he's a human, it's almost unheard of.
How am I supposed to resist this? Should I be informing the society immediately?
Or should I pursue this? I know I should probably report it, but with a rogue wolf on our hands that is killing humans in the area, I'm not sure I have time to get them involved.
Just being around this town makes him a possible target.
Not only that but he lives on the outskirts of town near one of the most recent attacks.
The Alpha inside me wants to protect him and I don't know if I can resist that call and risk something happening to him.
I don't even know the guy, but I do know that he is my mate and that we were destined to be together.
And if I needed more evidence of that, I have it.
He gave me his phone number, scrawled on a napkin from the coffee shop we met at.
I know I shouldn't, but I'm probably going to call him. The SMS won't be happy about me taking matters into my own hands and risking all of us in the process. But staying away from him doesn't feel like an option and losing him to a crazy homicidal rogue is even more unbearable.
At least this way I might be able to keep him safe.
I hope I'm not making a huge mistake.
P.S. His name is Ethan and I can’t believe I’m saying this, but he’s… cute.