Chapter 15 #2
Sophia squinted at her, unable to follow the logic. She turned her attention back to Beatrice and put a hand on her arm. “Shall we stroll outside for a moment?”
“Perhaps in the atrium? That way we shall avoid the insects.”
Sophia nodded, and Charity blurted, “May I come also?”
Beatrice made a sound resembling a snarl, but Sophia nodded, more concerned about keeping the younger sister quiet than desiring to involve her further into Beatrice’s admittedly not dull affaire de coeur.
Sophia led the way through the verandah, into the drawing room, past the two gentlemen whose proposals she had gently declined, and out to the front foyer.
They turned a corner that led to the atrium, which was blessedly empty of people, and chose a bench at a bay window that overlooked the back gardens.
There were a few sconces lit, but most of the light came from the bright moon outside and the torches placed evenly outside the windows.
Sophia turned to Charity first. “I know you love your sister, and you do care for her splendidly. I heartily approve of the way you champion her.”
Charity nodded.
“I need you, however, to just listen for a moment. Beatrice is going to talk, and should she require a response, it will come from me.”
Charity blinked, but nodded again.
“Beatrice.” Sophia turned to the other sister and clasped the girl’s hands, which were ice-cold despite the comfortable temperature inside. “Have you been corresponding with Taj Darzi?”
Beatrice sighed. “Yes, for four weeks. I noticed him when we returned home after last Season, but he took notice of me only recently and asked if we could exchange letters. He is here often as a representative of the prince, of course, and I feel I have come to know him quite well. He is attentive, very charming even when we cannot remain long in each other’s company, and he writes beautiful things in his letters. We share many similar interests.”
Sophia took a breath and tried to be fair despite her proclivity for jaded assumptions.
It may well be that the man had seen in Beatrice the same potential Sophia saw, but it might be wishful thinking.
Taj Darzi was a man who moved in his cousin’s political circles, and while his reputation was sound, there was no way to determine whether or not he acted in his own interests.
“Admittedly, I do not know him well, but I would exercise caution.”
Beatrice’s features tightened.
“I do not suggest you should not encourage his suit, but as with any courtship or potential marriage, a woman must be very, very sure of both herself and the gentleman in question.” Sophia paused.
“Do you understand? When I was a lady’s maid, I was propositioned most improperly by men who were supposedly above reproach in behavior and station.
They were appalling, but to outward appearances, they seemed everything a gentleman should be. ”
“What did you do?” Charity interjected.
Sophia held up a finger to the girl and kept her attention focused on Beatrice.
“Mr. Darzi has enormous wealth, enormous influence. I suppose what I mean to say is if you decide you would like to pursue a life with him, be absolutely certain. Much as any woman should be when choosing a husband. But when a man has power such as Mr. Darzi has at his command, your options, should matters not . . . go well, would be extremely limited. Even more limited than those which a woman usually finds in a marriage.”
Beatrice nodded and gave Sophia’s hand a squeeze. “I do understand what you’re saying. And I have not made any rash decisions. I’ve not made any decisions at all, in fact.” She sighed and a frown creased her forehead. “I do not know what to do.” She paused. “He is kind. And I quite adore him.”
“Has he suggested furthering your association?”
She lifted a shoulder. “He would like to. The prince is ill, and he fears his health will only grow worse. Mr. Darzi is his heir.”
“He would like to secure his bride before then?”
“I believe so, yes.”
“Certainly, marriage to a British woman of good reputation is a wise political decision,” Sophia said gently. “Caste considerations aside.”
Beatrice nodded. “I harbor no illusions that he is captivated by my beauty or charm. Frankly, however, I do have the most sterling of reputations for the area—especially with the Fleet continually arriving.” She grimaced apologetically.
“There are those girls from England who behave with a certain amount of scandal and bog down the reputation for the rest, I’m afraid. ”
Sophia nodded and pursed her lips in thought.
If Darzi were indeed in search of an impeccable reputation, he could do no better than Beatrice Denney.
Sophia didn’t know if the man’s motives were pure, but was he really worse than any of the young men who surrounded them?
So many of the Englishmen in India were desperate enough for wives that they proposed multiple times per Season.
And dalliances on the side with native women or Eurasians—offspring of European and Indian—were common.
It wasn’t as though marriage to a British citizen guaranteed love and fidelity.
Sophia drew a breath. “As your friend, Beatrice, and one who finds you enormously talented and gracious, I would suggest you take the matter as slowly as you are able. I realize you feel an untoward amount of pressure from your father and the fact that he plans to send you back to London again soon. Be certain, though, that Mr. Darzi has your best interests at heart, as well as his own, before you commit to him.”
Charity clapped her hands. “That is beautiful, and exactly what I would have said. Had I thought of it.”
Sophia and Beatrice both glanced at the younger girl, and Sophia fought to keep her expression neutral. Charity was flighty, perhaps, but she was genuine. And she loved her sister.
Beatrice smiled at Sophia. “I thank you for your advice and your friendship. I do not have many friends—”
“—any friends,” Charity murmured.
“But,” Beatrice continued with a glare at her sister, “I am so grateful to know you. I do hope your visit will extend at least until the warm weather is upon us.” She laughed. “‘Warm’ understates it, of course.”
“I do hope so as well.” Sophia smiled and wondered if Beatrice would care for a hug. Sophia didn’t give them out freely—Ivy was truly the only friend she embraced—and with anyone other than family, she always found it awkward.
Beatrice leaned forward slightly and pulled back, as did Sophia, and in the end they simply squeezed hands again. “You will keep me abreast of your comings and goings with this?” Sophia hoped desperately that Mr. Darzi was a man of integrity, for he could do no better than Beatrice Denney.
Beatrice nodded and smiled, a little lift to her shoulders betraying her excitement.
“Miss Sophia?” Charity said. “I have heard that Major Stuart is officially investigating Captain Miller’s disappearance. Is it true? I wish I had information to share. He is incredibly handsome.”
Sophia laughed. “That he is.”
“But perhaps you will be able to help Charlie, Miss Sophia,” Charity said, head tipped to the side.
“Himmat told Abdullah, who told our butler, Ashmel, that Charlie has been most distraught since the captain’s disappearance.
He seemed to enjoy your company yesterday at the ruins, though.
He seemed very comfortable with you. I must say, it is singular a lady of your consequence would take an interest in children. It isn’t done, you know.”
Sophia smiled wryly. “I know. Much of what I do ‘isn’t done.’”
“Oh, but it is so refreshing! You encourage me to imagine I might be myself and not feel ashamed that I enjoy dancing in the ruins.” Charity stood and pulled her sister’s hand.
“We should find Papa so he doesn’t think we’re being inappropriate somewhere.
Will you join us again on the verandah, Sophia? ”
“Yes, absolutely. I believe I shall sit here and admire the stars for a moment and then I shall rejoin you.”
The young women left, and Sophia turned her gaze to the shimmering world of silver beyond the window, feeling heavy-hearted.
She leaned her shoulder against the glass, touching her head to it, and closed her eyes.
Little, adorable Charlie was frightened, literally beyond words, by something; gentle, wonderful Amala Ayah was worried sick about him; Beatrice Denney was being pursued by a powerful man who may or may not care for her; Charity Denney would likely find herself shuttled back to England with or without Beatrice; Sophia herself was beginning to doubt whether they would ever know what had happened to Captain Miller; and she didn’t know if the man she loved would ever admit he wanted more from her than sisterly affection.
“Now that is the picture of a very weary woman.” The voice was soft, low, and came from the shadows. She recognized it instantly and wondered how long Anthony had been standing there.
“How much did you overhear?” She remained leaning against the window, eyes still closed.
“All of it. I was here when you arrived.”
“And you didn’t think to make your presence known? Not gentlemanly of you at all, my lord.”
“I am accustomed to fading into the shadows.”
She opened her eyes and slowly straightened. “That sounds not only cryptic, but melodramatic.”
He made his way toward her, hands in his pockets. “Sound advice you gave to Miss Denney just now.”
Sophia shook her head. “I do not trust her suitor.”
“I believe she would be safe with him. I believe he is genuine.”
“Do you know more than you’ve implied?”
He smiled. “I always know more than I’ve implied.”
“Except what fate befell Captain Miller.”
He acknowledged that with a quirk of his head and a raised brow. “Except that.”
“I must continue to work with Charlie. The world will eat that little boy alive, Anthony.”
“Not if he has you for a champion.”
He looked at her for a long time, and she suddenly felt very warm. He hadn’t moved closer, hadn’t moved an inch at all, but he was suddenly very much more there.
She stood. “My reputation will be in shreds if I am found alone with you.”
“With anyone, or just with me?”
“Cryptic and brooding.” She meant to sound light, but the end result was rather more breathless.
He nodded toward the atrium entrance. “Go. I shall follow at an appropriate distance.”
She walked toward the entrance, forced herself to keep moving forward.
What would he do if she went to him, stood before him, wrapped her arms around him, and simply held him?
Would he take his hands from his pockets and hold her close?
Would he finally kiss her? Or would he set her firmly away from him and tell her what a good friend she was?
Would she be ruined?
Only if discovered . . .
She gave a light shake of her head and kept moving forward.
As she made her way through the front hall and back toward the drawing room and verandah, she tried to console herself with the fact that she hadn’t thrown herself at him.
Perhaps, she hadn’t bolted at the first sound of his voice as a proper lady would have done, but she wasn’t there with him now, when she had never in her life wanted something more desperately.
She massaged her temple with her fingers and stood just outside the drawing room. Inside were dear friends, a well-meaning sponsor, and several lovely new acquaintances. It was a group in which she knew her presence was warmly welcomed, and yet she couldn’t bring herself to go back in.
Instead, she turned and wound her way to the back of the mansion to the servants’ staircase and headed up to the third floor.
She hovered outside the nursery, wanting to enter and kiss Ruth’s soft cheeks, wanting to sit next to Charlie’s little bed and hold his hand and tell him everything would be fine.
In the end, she did neither, knowing waking the children would serve only her interests, not theirs.
She turned and made her way back down to the second floor and entered her bedchamber.
Her lady’s maid sat reading near the unlit hearth, a lamp at her elbow.
Briggs looked up with a start. “Miss Sophia, I wasn’t expecting you!”
“Briggs, you look tired, and I am exhausted. Help me out of this dress and then you go to bed, too. I’m finished for the evening.”
“Are you well, miss?”
Sophia nodded and sat at the vanity, pulling jewelry from her fingers and wrists and unfastening a strand of pearls from her neck.
Briggs began dismantling her coiffure and released multiple pins, allowing the curls to fall down her back.
Sophia ran her hands through the heavy mass with a sigh, massaging her scalp.
Briggs met her eye in the mirror and frowned. “You’re certain you’re well?”
“Briggs, are you happy?”
“Miss?”
“Do you have heavy problems? Anything worrisome on your mind?”
“Nothing aside from life’s usual worries, I suppose, miss.
You’re so good to me, and I’ve never been happier in a post in my life.
I am here in a different land, I get on well with the other servants, and I am even learning some Hindi.
” The young woman smiled. “Nothing so worrisome I lose sleep at night.”
Sophia’s shoulders sagged. “That is indeed a relief. I am glad to hear it.”
“Miss Sophia, ’tis certainly not my place, but you are not quite yourself this evening.”
“Many good people bear heavy burdens, Briggs, and I suppose I want to shoulder them all. Or rather, that I feel I should. Or could.” She shook her head at the nonsense. “I am merely tired. You go to bed, and we shall arise fresh tomorrow.”
“Tomorrow evening is the ball at the Club. Do we have something special planned for the day?”
“A trip to the bazaar, I believe, where I plan to purchase a special toy for a special little boy, whose burdens are much too heavy for his small shoulders.”