Chapter 39 Dawn
DAWN
For the last few months, I had been feeling horrible from the moment I woke up and all throughout the entire day.
At first, I thought I was coming down with a cold or my allergies were acting up.
But then, when I couldn’t shake the feeling no matter what I took, I started to suspect that I could be pregnant.
It was weird because I had been getting my period on-time for the last few months.
The only thing about that was that they were much lighter than they’d normally be.
The bottom of my stomach was sore, my breasts had become tender to the touch, and my appetite had increased.
I tried to push it off on all the sex that Troy and I had been having because he and I had been inseparable from the first night we spent together.
If we weren’t at my house, we were at his.
Our relationship had been going so well that he finally introduced me to his son last weekend for the first time.
No matter how hard I tried not to admit it, I had fallen hard for Troy.
There was nothing that I could do to fight it.
Eventually, I gave in, and I had to admit that this was the happiest I had ever been in my life.
Troy was a great guy, and I was so thankful that I had given him a second chance.
I didn’t regret one thing about our relationship.
When he said that he wanted me to meet his son I truly felt honored.
I knew how much his son meant to him, and for us to meet was another sign that Troy took our relationship seriously.
I had never in my life been more nervous about meeting a kid before ever!
Troy and I both agreed that if his son didn’t like me, we would have to rethink how far our relationship would go.
The stakes were high because I would never put him in a position to have to choose between me or his kid.
What was nerve wrecking was the fact that I felt my emotions were in too deep with him now.
I wouldn’t have known what to do if his son hadn’t liked me.
Troy took his baby mama to court for visitation shortly after we started dating.
I was extremely happy about that because that meant he was serious about moving on from her.
Even though he was ordered to start paying her child support on a weekly basis, the judge granted him visitation every other weekend without Monica being present.
That was a great accomplishment for Troy, but it caused some serious backlash with Monica.
Troy was able to keep his son from Friday to Sunday evenings, every other weekend at his house.
When he was first granted visitation, the weekends his son was at his house, I stayed home.
Once his son would go back home, Troy and I were inseparable again.
The only time we weren’t together was while we were working.
I used to hate that time away from him. Thankfully, when I met TJ, although he was a little shy, he ended up liking me and all was good.
Troy and I were both relieved, and the best part, I didn’t have to spend time away from my boo anymore.
Monica was the only person that had an issue with how things were, and as a result, she started being super messy. She liked to use their son as a pawn, and it was sickening to watch. I fully understood now what Troy and Kevin were talking about when it came to how ignorant she was.
Other than Monica’s messy ass, things were great up until lately.
I hadn’t been feeling the best. Out of nowhere, I’d get hit with this wave of sickness that would leave me feeling dizzy and nauseous.
It wasn’t letting up, but thankfully, it wasn’t getting worse.
It was just consistent, and I couldn’t shake it.
It reminded me of that one time when I had vertigo.
This morning when Troy woke up, he tried having morning sex, and usually I was down for it, but not today.
He was pressing his woody against my backside causing my body to rock back and forth against his, and it had me feeling seasick.
When he went to slide into my warm kitty from behind, he immediately started beating it up from the back going ham like usual.
Normally, I would match him thrust for thrust, but not today.
The whole time he was workin’ my back out, I was beginning to feel worse.
Just as he was about to cum, he latched onto my hips and started ramming in and out of me from the back. Unable to hold it in any longer, I threw up all over the comforter from all of the rocking and pounding that we were doing.
“What the hell! You straight, D?” Troy asked, backing up off of me as I sat up.
“I’m so sorry,” I mumbled. I was so embarrassed. “I can’t believe I just did that.”
“Me either! Why didn’t you tell me you felt sick?”
“I’ve been feeling like this for a minute. I didn’t think I was going to throw up though.”
“That shit shot out of you like the exorcist! Do you think you could be pregnant?” he asked as he scrambled to take the sheets off the bed.
“Oh my God! That would not be good!” I panicked.
“I doubt that I’m pregnant because I’ve been getting my period.
It could just be something I ate or vertigo.
” I headed to the bathroom across the hall from my room.
I needed to brush my teeth and jump into the shower.
Stopping in my tracks, I turned around to see the look on his face.
He and I had the whole kid talk, and we both agreed that we weren’t in a rush to have a child together. His son was still young, and I wasn’t ready to have any kids of my own yet. The thought that I could be pregnant scared me to death, but from the looks of it, it didn’t seem to faze Troy one bit.
“That was some crazy shit. I didn’t even get to bust.” Troy laughed as he continued to take the sheets off the bed, dick swangin’ and all. “I think you should take a pregnancy test just to be on the safe side.”
“That might not be a bad idea. Maybe I’ll pick one up today if I get a break between my clients.”
“I’ll go and pick one up and bring it to you at the shop. That way you won’t have to worry about it,” he suggested.
I was impressed that he was cool with going to the store and buying a home pregnancy kit. I didn’t think men felt comfortable doing stuff like that.
“I really don’t want anyone in my business at the salon. I can see the rumors swirling now if you were to come in there with a pregnancy test in hand.” I chuckled.
“Okay, then I’ll meet you at your house. I’ll take it when you get home.”
“Okay, bet.”
Going into the bathroom and getting in the shower, I still couldn’t believe that just happened in front of Troy.
Thank God he was understanding. While I was taking a shower, I kept feeling like I was going to pass out.
Once I was done, I wrapped myself in my dry towel, and before I could make it out the bathroom, I was hanging over the toilet throwing up again.
“Are you straight in there?”
“Yeah,” I responded. Once I was done, I flushed the toilet then stood over the sink and brushed my teeth again.
When I made it back to the bedroom, Troy had gotten clean bed sheets out of the linen closet and was making the bed.
“I don’t know where you keep your other comforters. That one has puke all over it.”
“Thank you for cleaning up,” I mumbled. Embarrassment was an understatement to how I was feeling right now. “I was going to clean it up. The comforters are on the top shelf in my closet.”
“It’s cool, love, let me go get one. Maybe you should take the day off and make a doctor’s appointment. I’ll call in so I can go with you if you want.”
“That might not be a bad idea.” I heaved, feeling like I was going to throw up again. “But you don’t have to do that. I can go by myself,” I uttered as I took off running to the bathroom again. Making it just in time, I threw up in the toilet for the second time.
“Not if you’re feeling dizzy and throwing up every five minutes you not!” Troy said as he stood in the bathroom doorway. “I’m not about to let you drive yourself anywhere when you’re not feeling good.”
I debated with him for a few minutes then got hit by another wave of sickness, so I gave in. Still wrapped in my dry towel, I laid in bed and waited for my doctor’s office to open then called for an appointment.
“I was able to get an eleven o’clock appointment,” I said to Troy once I hung up with them an hour later.
“That’s perfect. We have enough time to call into work and chill before we need to leave,” he said picking up his cell and placing a call to his job.
While Troy was on the phone with his boss telling him that he had a family emergency, I got out of bed so that I could start to get dressed while I was feeling up to doing it.
Deciding on an ankle length heather grey maxi dress that I got from Fashion Nova, I grabbed a thong and bra set from Savage x Fenty then started to get dressed.
It made me feel special that he was willing to miss a day of work for me.
After putting on a pair of ankle socks, I slid into my low top white Chuck Taylors, then started applying hair oil to my lemonade braids. After hanging up the phone, he grabbed the dry towel he used the day before then walked up behind me and kissed me on the neck.
“I got today and tomorrow off,” he said in between kisses on my neck. “I’ma hop in the shower then get dressed so we can go.”
We had been spending so much time at each other’s houses that we both had a stash of clothes at one another’s place. I laid across the freshly made bed while he showered and got dressed. By the time he was ready, I had dozed off. He had to wake me up so that I wouldn’t be late for my appointment.
“Hey, Ms. Smith,” my doctor said as she entered the exam room. “It’s a pleasure seeing you again. What brings you here this morning?”
I explained to her that I had been feeling sick for the past few weeks and nothing I did seemed to help relieve it.
She put a few orders and tests in that I needed to take.
I had to do a urine test, blood work, and she gave me a physical examination.
After my physical exam, she said she’d be right back.
She was going to check my urine tests. Troy and I were sitting in the exam room waiting for her to come back.
Neither one of us said anything at first. The air in the room was so thick you could cut it with a knife.
Troy broke the silence between us first.
“Do you think you could be pregnant?”
“I don’t know. It’s a possibility,” I sighed.
“How do you feel about that?”
“I’m pretty positive that I’m scared shitless. How do you feel about it?”
“I’m kinda excited,” he said, causing me to look over at him. I needed to see if I could tell if he was serious or playing. “It would be pretty dope if we have a shorty together.”
“You’re serious, aren’t you?”
“Very,” he responded, looking into my eyes. “You don’t wanna have a shorty by me?”
Seeing the sincerity in his eyes, I couldn’t say what I wanted to say.
“It’s not that. We haven’t been together all that long to be having kids just yet.”
“Okay, and? What does that have to do with it?”
“I’m just saying. I’m not trying to end up being just another baby mama,” I admitted.
“Wow! That’s how you feel? You wouldn’t be just another baby mama. Sometimes you can be so negative, bae.”
“I’m just saying. Let’s just wait to see what the test results say before we get to arguing about something that may not even be happening.”
There was a small knock on the door, then Dr. Magee walked in with a wide grin on her face.
“Your urine results revealed that congratulations are in order,” she began as she continued to smile. “You’re pregnant!”
“Are you sure it’s not vertigo?” I asked just to be sure.
“I’m positive. We will still send the blood work out to the lab, but usually the urine tests we have are pretty accurate.”
I glanced over at Troy, and he was sitting there with this puppy dog look on his face. It was like he was trying to feel me out before reacting. When I took a closer look, I noticed that his eyes were starting to water.
“I’m pregnant?” I asked then laid my hand on my stomach. To say that I was shocked would be putting it mildly.
For the next couple of minutes, Dr. Magee put a referral in my chart for an ultrasound and gave me her recommendation on which prenatal pills to pick up.
I didn’t need a prescription for them, but she recommended the brand that I should get.
She also gave me the number to the Ob/Gyn that she recommended which was down the hall from her office.
The whole time she was talking to me my heart was beating so loud that I barely heard what she was saying.
I couldn’t believe I was going to be someone’s mama.