Chapter 46
Kayleeand I moved into Arrow’s house three days ago. His shower was better than the one in our apartment. I stood under the showerhead, letting the hot water run down my body. Then I adjusted the side sprays, letting the force massage my back.
Though the shower helped, I was mentally checked out. It would be an early night for me after I replied to my friends. The chat didn’t last long because my brain wanted to rest, and my body wanted to sleep. It was only six in the evening, and I was beat. I’d probably be sound asleep when Kaylee returned from her shopping trip.
After convincing my friends I was fine, I crawled into his giant bed. The fight from today and the ongoing anxiety about Ghost took a toll on me today.
I missed Arrow and grabbed his pillow to inhale his scent. I wished he were here so I could cuddle beside him. The odd incident from earlier unsettled me. It came out of nowhere, and I couldn’t help but compare the shock to the news about Ghost being alive.
On top of that, another fear—an uncertainty—ran through me. I was falling in love with Arrow, and I didn’t know what to do about it. The more time I spent with him, the more my heart opened. This powerful emotion scared me because if things didn’t work out, I didn’t know if I would recover.
I hadn’t loved a man before. I had prevented myself from letting anyone into my heart until Arrow. Somehow, he’d found his way in and woken up my heart. I was more alive now because of him. He made me feel things, see things, and hope for things I hadn’t before.
Love brightened everything for me. I feared that if things didn’t work out between us, my life would turn dark.
It had taken a long time to bounce back from my mom’s death. A death to my heart a second time would be too detrimental to me.
Go to sleep. Stop thinking.
What was Arrow doing right now? I wanted to hear his voice. But I didn’t want to interrupt his meetings if he was in the middle of one.
When he returned, I’d ask him about these two women at the mall. Did he know them?
Missing him and needing to be close to him, I sent him a text.
Vivian: I miss you. Tired today. Going to bed early.
Before he could reply, I dozed off.