43. Elijah
43
Elijah
I couldn’t believe my ears. Tobias wanted me to fuck him?
I’ve been thinking about this moment forever. As much as I really ( I mean, really really ) love Tobias fucking me, I have always wondered what it’d feel like to be inside of him.
I’ve always been told I’m good in bed, but now, a rush of nervousness has flooded over me.
Tobias hesitated, looking over my face. “Unless…unless you don’t want to.” He said, shifting slightly.
“No, it’s not that,” I said, cupping his face with my hands to force him to look me in the eyes. “I swear, I want to fuck you so badly. I can’t even breathe sometimes just thinking about it.”
He thought this was funny, which made me calm down a bit.
“Oh,” He said looking down at his hands sheepishly.
“I just—” I trailed off, letting my hand drop to his, lazily tracing his fingers. “I want it to be good for you. It must’ve taken a lot of courage to open yourself up to me like this. I just want it to be right.” I admitted softly.
He bit his lip, thinking over what I said.
“I want to tell you what Derrick did to me.” Tobias breathed in.
“Tobias, you don’t have to–” I rushed out.
“No, I want to. He can’t win, and I can’t keep it buried. Not from you.” He shook his head.
I waited patiently for him to continue. I’ve always wondered since that first night I asked in the car, but I didn’t want to pressure him again. I loved Tobias and all the trauma that came with it. I never wanted him to feel like he had to tell me before he was ready.
“Some nights of drinking–the worst nights—his taunting would get so bad that he’d take it too far. He knew how I felt about you even before I did, and I think he used to use it as ammo to really hurt me.” Tobias took a big breath in, shaking his head like he was fighting against feeling embarrassed and pissed off. “Honestly, I doubt he truly remembers it himself. Not fully. But I always did. Anyway, he didn’t rape me, and I need you to know that. He didn’t take that away from me. He didn’t take that away from us . He would assault me in other ways to make me feel small. He'd taunt me. Make me feel disgusted with myself. I don’t feel comfortable repeating more right now…but I needed you to know that. ” Tobias gritted his teeth, his hands were fisted shut.
“Hey.” I pulled his face back to look at me. “Fuck him. Fuck him for what he did to you. You’re perfect, Tobias.” I said, looking him right in the eyes so he'd truly understand the weight of my words. I gently traced my fingers over his brows, brushing aside the strands of hair that had fallen.
Slowly, the furrow in his brow eased beneath my touch. He leaned into me, eyes fluttering shut as if my hand alone could quiet his thoughts. “Mrs. Baker said I should confront what he did to me head-on.”
“Is that why you want to do this tonight?” I asked. It's okay if it was. I was here for whatever he needed, always.
His eyes opened, landing on me. “No. This has nothing to do with him. I just…” He took a big breath in. “I wanted you to know that when I told you I was a virgin – I meant it. This is my first time…doing this.” He bit his lip. “If you’re nervous…we can be nervous together.”
My heart felt the weight of his words. He was trusting me with everything— his truth, his body. This was such an important moment, and Tobias choosing me to be a part of that meant the world.
“Thank you for trusting me with… all of this. I want it to feel good for you,” I said, rubbing my hands up and down his thighs. "And if at any point you want us to stop…we'll stop. No questions asked."
“I know it will.” He gripped the hem of his shirt and peeled it over his head. "And, I won't." He added firmly. He laid back on the blankets, pushing off his pants and flinging them to the side.
I watched as a very naked Tobias lay there on the bed, ready for me.
“Holy shit.” I couldn’t help but say out loud. He looked like a mystical being lounging in his bed of silk sheets. Of course, instead of silks, it was a small pool of different colored blankets.
“Baby,” He called over to me, pulling me back into the present moment. He propped himself up on his elbows and looked at me with a knowing smirk. “Get naked for me.”
I swallowed thickly. This was it. I couldn't get undressed fast enough. The blanket slipped from my shoulders and pooled on the floor as I grabbed the back of my hoodie, tugging it and my T-shirt over my head in one motion.
“Slower.” He hummed. I loved it when he was confident enough to tell me what to do. He's been doing it more and more, and it's been driving me insane. I think he knows that, though, judging by the smirk on his face that still hasn’t left.
I slowly unzipped my pants, revealing my v-lines little by little, which I know he loves. I dropped my pants to the ground with a gentle thud, revealing my black Calvin Klein boxers.
Tobias let out a small grunt. “This is excruciating.” He laughed, covering his face with his hands.
I couldn’t help but smile. “You want me over there, huh?” I asked. His nose flared, and I swear I heard the faintest growl vibrating from deep in his chest. He was getting restless, and God, I loved the way he looked when he was needy.
I soaked in the weight of his eyes on me. Even from here, I could see the hunger in his darkened stare—his eyes, usually bright blue, had darkened, heavy with hunger.
Tobias laid back, one arm propping his head up to watch me and the other arm moving his hand down his stomach until his fingertips lightly grazed back and forth over his dick.
I couldn’t help but bite my lip as I watched his dick harden underneath his touch.
The sight was one to behold. My body was starting to feel like it might combust if I didn’t touch him soon.
Finally caving, I slipped my thumbs into my boxers, slipping them down and revealing my raging boner.
“Elijah,” Tobias breathed out my name, his eyes filled with admiration. His eyebrows relaxed on his face as he took in my naked body.
“Yes, Tobias?” I smirked, wrapping my hand around my shaft and slowly walking closer to him.
“I—“ I watched his Adams apple dip low in his throat as I walked over to the cot. “I’m getting nervous.” He hesitated. I lowered to my knees on the cot and slowly crawled up beside him until my head reached his. I shifted onto my side, propping myself up on one elbow while resting my head in my palm.
"That’s okay. Do you want to stop?" I asked quietly, searching his face.
His eyes lifted to mine, holding me there like I was the only thing anchoring him.
"No," he murmured, his voice strong but soft. "I want to keep going."
I nodded my head. "What if…” I let my free hand drop to his chest, lightly grazing my fingers over his pecs and trailing down his abs and back up. “We do it together? Would that make you feel more comfortable?” I asked, getting lower with my touch every time my fingers passed over his stomach.
He bit his lip, closing his eyes. “Yeah, I like the sound of that.” He nodded.
I stretched over his body and grabbed the bottle of lube I’d stashed under his side of the mattress earlier. I poured some onto my fingertips, glancing up to find him watching me curiously.
“We can start slow. Together. You can tell me if you feel uncomfortable, and we can immediately stop. Okay?” I asked. Tobias licked his lips, his body shifting closer until we were facing each other on the cot.
I looked at his gorgeous body. He looked stunning as ever in the candlelight.
“Okay. That sounds good.” He said.
“Good.” I leaned in, smiling into the kiss. Our bodies were so close, I could feel the heat rolling off him, lighting me up from the inside out. Tobias cupped the back of my neck, pulling me in deeper. My hands slid to either side of his face, urging him closer. Our breathing grew ragged as he tangled his tongue with mine. A moan slipped from my lips, forcing us apart for a moment. Before we got lost again, I whispered breathlessly, “Give me your hand.”
He quickly obliged, giving me his one hand resting on my hip. I tipped the bottle of lube to disperse a healthy amount onto his fingertips.
“Okay good,” I leaned back, throwing my hand around his shoulder. He copied my movement so we could be as close as possible, with nothing between us. He shuffled in close to me, tangling his right leg with my left. “Lift your leg for me.” He followed my orders perfectly, which made me shiver with need. He propped up his left leg on the bed, his foot resting on the cot, and I did the same with my right, leaving us both open and ready.
“I want you to relax and breathe with me. Can you do that for me?” I asked, looking him in the eyes.
He looked down at my lips. “Yes. I can do that.” He nodded.
“Good boy,” I smirked, lightly placing my hand around his shaft and running it slowly up to his tip. He hissed out a pleasurable sound as his whole body shuddered underneath my touch.
I rested the palm of my hand on the tip of his dick and tilted my hand around in a circle slowly to tease him. The sensation of this always drives him wild. He tilted his head back and closed his eyes, enjoying the feeling.
“Copy me, baby,” I whispered. He got the message and started doing the same thing to me. I bucked my hips as soon as he touched me. A wave of pleasure passed through me as his slippery, warm hand touched my tip. “Yes, baby. Just like that.” I moaned, passing my hand back down his shaft, all the way to his base and back up.
He opened his hips a little more, which made me happy. I did the same with mine. “Okay, start moving lower,” I urged.
He nodded his head, leaning it back onto my forehead as he drifted his fingertips further down around my balls and back up.
I massaged his balls between my fingers before passing back up and moaned when he did the same to me.
“That feels good, Elijah.” Tobias swallowed.
“Yeah, it really does. Keep going.” I moaned as he did it again. Feeling his big, muscular hands grasp and massage my balls was incredible. I felt his firm grip around my shaft and his gentle tug as he brought his hand up and back down.
“Use your fingers to go lower behind my balls. Like this—“ I leaned down to drift my fingers lightly behind his sack. I could feel the warmth of his crack and slipped my fingers between his cheeks until I managed to feel the outline of his beautiful hole. “There it is.” I sucked in a sharp breath.
Tobias leaned closer to me, too, his chin now on my shoulder as he navigated down my balls behind my sack, and I could feel his fingers probing for my entrance.
“You know how to do this part, baby. Open me up.” I panted. This slow buildup was driving me insane. My body felt so weak to his touch. But taking my time is going to pay off once I feel his beautiful body around my dick.
I bit into his shoulder as he started making glorious circles with his finger around my hole, waking up my senses.
“Yes, just like that.” I moaned before sucking on his shoulder again. He would have a hickey tomorrow morning, but that’s alright. Something tells me he’s going to love it.
I gently rubbed my fingertip over his rim, feeling his body tense against mine. “Breathe, baby. Let yourself feel good,” I whispered. I pressed a soft kiss to his cheek, letting my lips linger on his skin.
After a moment, Tobias turned his head, his eyes flickering from mine to my lips and back again.
“Maybe if you…kiss me for a while. It’ll ease my nerves.” He spoke, his voice thick with desire.
“Yeah, I like that idea.” I said, connecting our lips again. I could never get enough of his kisses. Tobias’s mouth parted to welcome me in, our tongues instantly tangling, desperate for more of each other. He tasted so damn good, all of the time, like freshly baked sugar cookies on Christmas morning.
I applied a little pressure to his rim with my finger, allowing myself just the tip into his body. He moaned into my mouth as he gripped my shoulder, moving me closer to him. His moans were delicious. Forget food, I bet I could survive off of them alone.
“There you go. You’re doing so good.” I breathed, nudging my finger in more and slipping it slightly out again.
He was doing the same thing to me, which felt tremendous. Since I had way more practice, he was slipping in a little easier than I was. He was so tight for me.
I went in for another kiss, this time more forcefully. Our tongues were getting sloppy as we fought for dominance in our mouths. Tobias pushed his fingers harder into me, broke through my rings, and brushed against my sweet spot.
“Oh fuck.” I moaned, feeling his fingers curl into me. I tried to steady my thoughts and focus on his pleasure, but he was doing a great job drawing out my impending orgasm.
No. I have to focus.
I was on a mission to find his prostate. I wanted him to feel that sweet rush of pleasure like he always makes me feel.
“You feel…” Tobias’s eyelids flickered shut, his lips parting open.
“Tell me, baby,” I begged.
Our mouths hovered over each other. I grazed my lips against his.
“You feel amazing.” He smiled into my mouth before kissing me breathlessly.
I would jump for joy if this didn’t feel so damn good.
I slipped my finger in more, curling it towards me. I was down to my knuckle now, which was fantastic work for him for the first time.
I kissed him on the neck before licking and biting him gently.
“Oh, fuck! What was that?!” He moaned, bucking his hips into my hand. I could feel his dick twitch against my stomach, sending heat throughout my whole body. Seeing his body react to that — I’m going to be chasing that high forever.
A smile crept on my face as I watched his eyes squeeze shut from the pleasure. “You want me to keep going?” I asked before passing my fingers again in the same spot.
“Yes! Right there. God, yes.” He moaned, leaning his back against the cot.
I slipped my middle finger beside my pointer as I pushed it back in and out. He widened his legs to accept more.
“I can’t believe you’re doing so well.” I let my lips trail from his cheek, down over his chin, and onto his chest, savoring each moment.
He was starting to rock his hips back and forth into my hand which was a great sign.
A really great sign.
“More. Elijah. I want more.” He moaned, eyes shut and raising his hips for me.
His urgency was making me dizzy with need. I can’t believe how easily he’s taking my fingers.
“Look at you. If only you could see how beautiful you look right now.” I kissed his chest again. Tobias had slipped his fingers out of me and was now mindlessly running his fingers up and down his body, grazing his nipples and rubbing down his chest and stomach and back up again.
I propped my hand up beside his head so I could get into a better position to hover over him.
“You ready to feel something really crazy?” I smiled down at him.
He opened his hazy eyes to look at me and slowly nodded his head.
I bit my lip with excitement before shifting down between his legs. I opened my mouth and licked around my fingers that were pulsing in and out of him, making sure to apply pressure with my tongue.
“Oh, holy fuck.” He moaned, opening wider as I flicked my tongue around my fingers.
Moving up my mouth, I sucked his taint slowly before filling my mouth with each of his balls. Back and forth, I sucked and massaged each of his balls with my whole mouth. He squirmed underneath me, his lower stomach raising and falling with short breaths.
I slipped in a third finger and watched as his hips bucked with the fullness. His hands instinctively rested on the back of my head. His fingers softly tangled themselves in my hair as he gently guided my face deeper into his ass.
“Elijah,” He rasped. “I can’t…I won’t be able to hold on…feels too fucking good.”
His hips were grinding back and forth now at the same time as my fingers slid back and forth inside of him.
“That's okay.” I took in a breath of air as I lifted myself to sit back on my heels. “One second in this tight ass and I can’t promise you I’m going to last long at all.”
Tobias smiled up at me as I fixed my hair off of my face. Licking my lips, I tried to catch my breath.
“My dick is going to feel bigger than my fingers. Brace yourself, okay? I’ll go slow.” I scanned his face for nerves but now all I could see was his flushed face, swollen lips, and love-drunk eyes.
“I need you to fuck me, Elijah.” He begged, squirming beneath me. “I can’t wait anymore.”
My lips parted open. Tobias begging for me will never cease to amaze me.
I stroked my throbbing dick a couple of times with my slick, lubed-up hand and lazily rubbed myself up and down at his entrance.
Slowly, without urgency, I slipped my tip in, watching his face to see any sign of distress. When there weren’t any, I proceeded, pushing past the first ring of tension. Fuck, he felt glorious. Not even an inch in yet and I felt like my whole world just shifted. Tobias hissed, knocking me out of my head, and I immediately braced myself.
“You okay?” I panted.
He licked his lips and tossed me a charming smile. “I’m trying not to come.” He laughed. I looked down at his thick, swollen dick. I could see his glistening tip already leaking on his abs.
I smiled back. “Me too.”
I leaned in to be closer to him, placing my hands on either side of him. Tobias grabbed the back of my neck, clasping his fingers together to hold me close.
Tilting my hips, I tried again. This time, sliding out slightly before sliding back in.
“Mmmm, I like that.” Tobias panted. I looked at him underneath me, eyes drifting shut. I grabbed his chin.
“Look at me, baby.” I skimmed my lips over his, barely touching.
He opened his eyes and connected them with mine. I rubbed his cheek with my hand. “You’re such a good boy.” I kissed him gently. “How’d I get so lucky?” I said, biting his lower lip softly.
He whimpered into my mouth, the sound sending a shock of pleasure straight to my dick.
I pushed in again, this time the base of my dick hitting his ass. I was in.
We both let out soft moans. I was in Tobias Voss, holy shit.
I took this second to get adjusted. “You feel so damn tight, Tobias.” I panted. “It feels like your ass is going to snap my dick in two.” I laughed into the crook of his neck.
He laughed back, bringing me closer in for a kiss. “If you don’t start moving, I will.”
I didn’t need him to tell me twice. I bit my lip. This was going to be good.
I brought my hips back and lunged my dick deep inside of him.
“Oh fuck!” He moaned out.
I liked the sound of that. I did it again and again, soaking up every single euphoric sound slipping out from his lips.
Tobias felt incredible wrapped around my dick. Even more so than I imagined. “I’m so proud of you. Look at you.” I rubbed my hands up and down his chest, holding on while I thrust into him. He arched his back, throwing his head back into the cot.
He reached his arms out to me, and I grabbed his wrist and sat up. Tobias scrambled to sit on my lap as I stretched my legs behind him.
I looked up at him, amazed, as he positioned my dick back inside of him from behind. “Holy shit.” I panted. Tobias slipped himself back onto me, holding on to me tightly as he lowered to his knees. We were chest to chest now, him sitting a little higher than me.
“Take control, baby. I’m all yours.” I moaned, grabbing his ass in my hands. I looked up at him as he looked down at me. His blue eyes and dark blonde hair hung damp before his face.
I held on tight as he rested his hands on my shoulders, fucking himself on me. The feeling of him repeatedly squeezing my dick with his tight hole was incredible. I never wanted this to end.
He caught my mouth with his, hypnotizing me with his demanding tongue. He went right back to tangling his fingers into my hair, drawing me close as I thrusted into him. Our hums and moans filled the air as we worked in tandem.
“Holy fuck, Elijah. This feels so fucking good.” He panted. I brushed some of his hair back from his face, my gaze lingering on his plush, red lips, his flushed cheeks, and the sedated look in his eyes. It was utterly mesmerizing. I wished I had my camera to capture the moment, but for now, I would have to burn it into my mind.
“You’re doing so f-fucking well, baby.” My breathing stuttered. I was losing it. These sensations were too much. Tobias’s whole body surrounding me in every single way was so much to handle. Too much.
I leaned forward to make Tobias fall back onto his back. Spreading his legs back out to either side of me, I grabbed the backs of his thighs and started thrusting away.
“Elijah, I’m gonna–” Tobias gripped his thick dick in his hand and started pumping it with determination. I swiped his hand away.
“You’re going to come from my dick and my dick alone.” I panted, swinging my hips.
“Oh fuck, oh fuck, oh fuck.” Tobias moaned, arching his back and slightly lifting his hips to the pleasure.
“You're so fucking perfect. Just like that.” I breathed. The sight of his beautiful face made my balls tense up, my feet curl behind me, and next thing you know, I’m seeing stars. My dick pulsed inside of his ass, and I felt like I was floating.
Tobias squirmed beneath me, tilting his hips to help me ride out my orgasm.
“Let it out, baby.” He urged. I let my body fall on top of his as I slowly came down from that high.
He rubbed my back gently before turning me over and placing me on the cot.
I watched in a daze as he reached behind him before crowding over top of me and smoothing in what I can only assume were some of my come onto my hole.
“Please, Tobias.” I begged. He grabbed his shaft and tipped it until he was breaching my entrance.
I closed my eyes and breathed out as he slowly entered me. Slipping in and out. He stopped to pull out the lube again, drizzling more on for my comfort.
“Mmmm, there you go. You look so fucking lovely all wrecked like this.” He moaned, plunging in deeper. I was so relaxed; this is probably the easiest he’s ever slipped inside of me. "My ass made you feel good, baby?"
“Holy shit.” I moaned, my eyes rolling back. "Yes, Tobias. Fuck." Just when I thought this couldn’t get any better. It’s like he was drawing out my orgasm forever.
“Your body was made for me.” He gripped the sheets beside my head. I could feel his body trembling around me. I wasn’t going to last very long.
I wrapped my legs around his waist, tilting my lower half upwards to meet his thrusts.
“Yes, baby.” He groaned. He lifted his head to watch me. His gorgeous, hazy eyes taking me in.
“You’re so perfect.” I gripped his jaw in my hands. “I’m all fucking yours, Tobias. Take what you want.” I moaned. His thrusts deepened, and his pace sped up. I could tell he wasn’t holding back.
Every moment he twisted his hips, he brushed my prostate so perfectly. I tried to hold back a whimper.
“Don’t hold back. Let me hear you.” Tobias lightly placed his hand around my neck, making sure not to hurt me but giving me the feeling he meant what he said. His dominance sent a wave of pleasure through my whole body and straight to my dick, waking it back up again.
Holy shit, I’m never getting tired of this man. He’ll be the death of me.
“It feels too good.” I whimpered.
“How good?” Tobias hovered over me, breath ragged, his necklace swinging between us like a glistening medal. He looked hungry for my body. He moved his hands around my waist, gripping it so tightly as he crashed into me over and over again.
“So fucking good. You’re going to make me come again.” I grabbed at the sheets to try and steady myself. My second orgasm was building, and it was building fast.
“Let me have it. I want one more from you.” His voice wavered. I nodded my head quickly.
He pounded his hips into me a couple more times, his grip around me tensing so hard I’m definitely going to have bruises.
“Now, Elijah.” He ordered. As if on command, my body tensed, and a second wave of ecstasy tipped over me. I felt like my body wasn’t my own. I was removed entirely and present all at the same time.
Everything around me went white as I tightened around his dick. I didn't think I would, but I swore I could actually feel his warm come spurting inside of me, filling me up even more. I felt his come seep out of me as he pushed himself back in and out a few more times. Slowly, he came crashing down from his orgasm. His body quivering around me.
“Holy shit.” He laid down on top of my body, his head immediately nuzzling into my neck.
“I can’t believe how amazing sex is with you.” I blurted out loud. I felt my cheeks grow hot.
“It’s amazing because we have the right partner.” He squeezed his arms around my body. He was so warm, and I immediately felt so safe. I could lay here forever. And yes, I’m including his dick still being in my ass in that arrangement.
“I can go grab us things to clean up.” He insisted.
“I’m supposed to be caring for you, not the other way around.” I laughed. “I brought supplies so we don’t have to go back down,” I said, my voice muffled as I sunk my face into his hair.
“Mmm, and do you want to grab them, or should we lay here for as long as possible?”
“Mmmm, let’s lay here for as long as possible.” I smiled before kissing him softly.
“You read my mind.” He hummed, squeezing me even tighter.
“So? Are you a certified bottom now?” I asked, nuzzling my face into his neck, breathing in his glorious scent.
“I loved it.” He smiled.
“Oh no. Did I just lose my position?” I looked at him, shocked. I wanted him to enjoy it, but I didn’t want to lose my spot. Getting fucked by Tobias is something I never want to lose.
He smiled softly at me. “How about most times I’m on top…but, sometimes…we flip?”
I beamed. “I like the sound of that.” I snatched a kiss from his lips.