Chapter 23 #2
Tristan frowns down at him. “Who do you hang around with now? Where are your friends from?”
“Sports and the skate park.”
“So ... what about at school?”
“I sit alone every day.”
I stare at him ... and my heart breaks. God, this is worse than I ever imagined.
We climb into the car, and Tristan puts his seat belt on. “Good riddance, Mrs. Henderson, you stupid old bag.” He pulls out into the traffic.
I smirk as I look out the window.
I’m in love with Superman.
My hero.
The boys all bounce in excitement on the couch, and Harry dials Tristan’s number. “You need to hurry!” he cries before hanging up.
I smile as I sip my wine. The big game is on, and the boys are really into it. It’s funny—they have never been into watching it before. Tristan has gotten them totally addicted. They all sit together on one couch and scream and laugh and yell at the ref.
Days of Tristan living with us have turned into weeks and then months.
Seven wonderful months, to be exact.
Our home is happy for the first time in a long time. The boys adore him, I am so happy, and even Muff is obsessed with my boyfriend. He follows him around, purring.
If I could just get over these work issues, my life would be perfect.
I’m losing control of Anderson Media. We have no advertising contracts left, and nobody is renewing.
We’re on skeleton staff, and I lie awake every night worrying about money.
Tristan has no idea. I have no doubt he will be furious with me for not telling him when he finally finds out, but I don’t want to tell him until I absolutely have to.
He already does so much for me and the boys.
He insists on paying for their private schooling.
He drops them there every morning and has his driver pick them up every afternoon and bring them home.
Never in a million years did I think my sons would be picked up from the most exclusive school in New York every day by a limo.
And besides, I don’t want to appear weaker than I already feel. If he knows about my situation, then I have to talk about it with him, and at the moment, he’s my safe place, where nothing is corrupted.
I want him to be proud of me, like I am of him.
The door bursts open, and Tristan comes racing in. “What’s happening?” he cries as he stares at the television.
“You missed the kickoff!” Harry yells.
Tristan throws his jacket off and marches into the kitchen. “Hey, baby,” he says as he kisses me quickly.
I smile up at him, but before I have time to reply, he grabs a beer from the fridge and runs back out into the living room to the boys watching the game. “No!” he cries. They all begin to yell at something in the game.
I smile, and an unwanted resentment falls over me. I wish I could be so excited about something. I have this black cloud of fear hanging over me.
Everything that Wade worked so hard to build is disappearing before my eyes.
He wanted the boys to attend a public school in Long Island, and they aren’t. He wanted them to grow up without excess money. I’m pretty sure having a limo pick them up from school every day blows that out of the water.
And now Anderson Media, the career that Wade worked so hard on creating—his biggest dream was to hand it down to the boys.
Now I’m losing it ... I’m losing that too.
I exhale heavily as I go back to my laptop.
Wade ... help me.
I’m tired. This week has been a never-ending roll of meetings with the board. We are in the final stages of staying afloat, and I don’t know what to do. I look over to Tristan as he drives. “Where are we going?” I ask.
He smiles over at me like the cat that got the cream. He picks up my hand and kisses my fingertips. “I have a surprise for you.”
The boys chatter in the back seat among themselves, and I try to calm my nerves. I’m not in the mood for surprises. I’m so anxious that I’m nearly suffocating.
If something drastic doesn’t happen, if I don’t get a big injection of funds from somewhere, the writing is on the wall—the liquidators will be moving in within the next six to eight weeks and taking my company from me. I will be forced into bankruptcy. The company insolvent.
I want to talk to Tristan about it, but I don’t want him to worry or feel that he has to put the money in.
I already declined the Ferrara offer; now my only other option is to sell to Miles Media, but then I know I’ll hold that grudge against Tristan forever.
He will always be the man who took Wade’s dream from us, and I really don’t want it to affect our relationship.
Because I know if it does come to that . .. it will.
How could it not?
I think back to how hard Wade worked so that he would have something to hand down to his sons. And in the five and a half years since his death, I have effectively killed everything he worked for.
I’m sick to my stomach.
Tristan chats and laughs with the boys, carefree as he drives, and an unwelcome jealousy fills me. He has no idea what it’s like to struggle.
He’s never had to do it.
I know he works so hard and deserves everything he has, but it’s ... I can’t even articulate what it is I’m feeling ... resentment, maybe?
I don’t know why I’m feeling like this now, but with the oncoming demise of Anderson Media, it’s suddenly eating at me.
Maybe I’m just hormonal, or maybe it’s because of the way we met.
From day one I have always known that Wade’s company has been on Miles Media’s acquisitions list. They wanted it, made no secret of it.
It’s how we met.
I pushed it out of my mind for so long ... but now that it’s impending, it’s all I can think about. Everything Wade wanted is coming to an end, and I just don’t know how to stop it.
We pull up on the street in front of a grand house, and Tristan smiles over at me.
“What’s this?” I ask flatly.
A man gets out of the car in front of us and smiles broadly.
Tristan waves. “Come on, boys, Claire.”
“What are we doing?” I frown.
“Looking at this house.”
“What for?”
“Because I want to buy it for us.” He climbs out of the car, and the boys bounce out after him.
“What?” I frown.
He waves me out ... fucking hell, I don’t have time for this shit. I get out of the car and walk up to him as he talks to the man.
“Michael, this is Claire, my partner,” he introduces me.
“Hello.” I fake a smile as I shake his hand.
“And these are my boys, Fletcher, Harrison, and Patrick.”
The hairs on the back of my neck rise. His boys.
They are Wade’s boys.
“What a beautiful family you have.” Michael smiles as he leads us up the path toward the house.
“Yes, I do.” Tristan smiles proudly. He’s holding Patrick’s hand and has his other hand on Harry’s shoulder protectively. Fletcher walks with them as they go into the house.
I begin to see red. Why is he showing me houses? I’m not fucking moving from Long Island. I own my house. I’m comfortable there ... we’re comfortable there.
It’s our home.
It’s what Wade wanted.
I begin to hear my angry heartbeat in my ears as I trail behind.
Calm down ... calm down ... calm down. You’re just stressed; calm the fuck down.
The house is huge and set on a large plot of land in a leafy suburb about twenty minutes out of New York. Michael begins his sales pitch. “This is the foyer.”
It’s about the size of our current living room and has a grand sweeping staircase that splits into two near the top level.
Tristan smiles and takes my hand excitedly. “I’ll show them around, Michael,” he says.
My eyes flick to him in question. What? He’s been here before?
How long has he been looking for a house on the sly? I begin to fume inside.
“Of course.” Michael smiles. “I’ll wait outside.”
Michael disappears out the front door, and Tristan smiles proudly. “Pretty sweet, right?”
“Hmm,” I reply as I look around.
“Out here is the kitchen.” We walk through to a large kitchen, and I roll my lips in annoyance. “Wiz and I could cook up a storm,” he says. Harry’s eyes widen in excitement.
I hate it.
Wade has never lived here; his memories are in our current house.
I don’t want new ones without him.
I don’t want to erase everything that he stood for. Why doesn’t Tristan get that?
My pulse begins to throb in my temples, and I feel like I’m about to explode.
I am now seeing red. I can’t deal with this.
“This is the living area,” he gushes.
The boys run to the back windows. “Oh my God, look at the pool,” Patrick cries.
“It has a pool bar, Mom,” Fletcher gasps.
“You’re not old enough to drink,” I snap.
“And look,” Tristan says as he leads me through the house excitedly.
“This could be your office.” We peer into a room.
It has a large window seat and looks out onto a leafy veranda.
“And this could be my office, next door.” He shows me into the office.
“There’s a bathroom down here. A second living area for the boys. A gymnasium.”
The boys run through the house in excitement.
Fury begins to burn a hole in my stomach.
How dare he?
He leads me upstairs and down the hall. “Look at the master suite, Claire.” He pulls me into the room, and I look around as I try to hold my sarcastic tongue.
It’s beautiful and the size of half my current house.
“And the bathroom.” He smiles excitedly. I peer in, and it has a huge white-marble bath like I’ve always fantasized about. “Look at the size of your closet, babe.”
Something snaps deep inside of me. “It’s not my closet, Tristan,” I bark.
He pulls me into his arms. “But you like it ... right?” I look around as I search for something nonbitchy to say.
I’ve got nothing.
The boys all scream in excitement as they look at the rest of the upstairs.
“I’m having this room,” Harry cries.
“I want this one!” Patrick yells.
“I can see the pool from mine.”
Tristan’s eyes search mine. “What do you think?”
“About what?” I snap.
“Do you like it? I think I’ll make an offer today.”
“An offer for what?”
“To buy it for us to live in—what else?”
I screw up my face at his presumption. “I don’t want to live here.”
“Why not?” His face falls. “It’s close to the boys’ new school. You, Fletch, and I all work in New York. There’s a yard for Muff and Woofy.” He smiles as he pulls me into his arms again. “It’s perfect for us.”
“I’m not moving, Tristan,” I insist. “I want to live in the house we are in.”
“Claire,” he says flatly, and I know he’s about to give me his hard-core sales pitch. I can already tell he’s made up his mind on this house, and when Tristan Miles decides he wants something, he doesn’t give up until he gets it.
I’m shutting this down right now.
“I’m not moving,” I snap. “End of story.” I pull away from him and storm downstairs and out to the car.
“How was it?” Michael smiles as I walk out onto the street.
“Lovely,” I reply.
“Can you see yourself living here?” He winks.
I glare at him as the last of my patience dissipates. “No. I can’t, actually.”
I get into the car and slam the door, and ten minutes later Tristan and the boys amble out of the house. I watch as he talks to Michael as the boys all listen, and then finally they get into the car.
The boys are all excited and talking about everything they have just seen.
Tristan gives me a sideways glance, annoyed with me.
“What?” I snap.
“Don’t give me what ,” he growls as he pulls out into the street. “You didn’t even look at it.”
“I don’t have to. I’m not moving from my home in Long Island.”
“It’s too small for us.” He rolls his eyes, as if I’m an idiot, and my blood begins to boil.
“I want my boys to have room to have their friends over,” he asserts angrily.
Something snaps inside of me.
Wade had plans for his sons, and I can’t ignore them.
I won’t.
“They are Wade’s boys,” I bark. “You need to stop calling them your boys.”
The car falls deathly silent.
He narrows his eyes at me. “What the fuck is that supposed to mean?”
I glare out the front windshield and cross my arms, too angry to form words.
“You do know, Claire ... that when we get married—”
“ If we get married,” I fume.
“I will be adopting the boys.”
“What?” I explode. I stare at him for a moment in utter shock ... what the fuck? He wants to adopt them. “That’s not happening, Tristan.”
“What?” he screams.
“They already have a father,” I snap.
“I want them as my sons in the eyes of the law.”
“Well, you can’t fucking have them legally. You get to live with them—that’s enough.”
“Mom!” Fletcher cries from the back. “Stop it.”
Tristan’s eyes bulge from their sockets. His eyes flick between the road and me. “So you’re telling me I can care for them, I can love them, but I can’t ever call them my sons.”
“They have a father,” I repeat. “And they will remember and respect his wishes.”
“He’s fucking dead, Claire,” he barks. “And I won’t be punished because he’s gone. I want them legally to be my sons.”
I lose the last of my control. “It’s never fucking happening,” I splutter. “They are my and Wade’s sons. Not yours. They will never be yours. I told you to find someone else and have your own children—you can’t have Wade’s.”
He punches the steering wheel as he loses control, and we all jump. Patrick starts to cry.
“You’re scaring him.”
Tristan grips the steering wheel with white-knuckle force. His eyes fill with tears as he stares straight ahead.
Why did I say that?
Tears well in my eyes, and I angrily wipe them away.
We drive in silence the rest of the way, and he pulls into the driveway. He leaves the car going.
“Are you coming, Tris?” Harry whispers.
“No, buddy,” Tristan replies as he stares straight ahead. “I’ll call you later.”
“No, Tristan,” Patrick begs. “Please come in.” He begins to cry. “Don’t go.” He grabs him over the back of his seat as he begs him not to leave.
Tristan closes his eyes.
I get out of the car, angry that my children would choose him over me. Surely they get my point? Don’t they have any loyalty to their father?
“Get out of the car,” I demand to the boys.
Fletcher gets out.
“Get out of the car,” I snap. Patrick slowly gets out.
Harry sits tight.
“Get out of the car, Harrison.”
“I’m going with Tristan.”
I’m furious. How dare he say that in front of the boys and put me in the position where they think I’m the bad guy? I’m being loyal to their father ... and so should they.
“You will do no such thing.” I yank the door open and grab his arm as he fights me. “Let me go!” he screams as he kicks at me. “I want to stay with him.”
Tristan pinches the bridge of his nose, overwhelmed by the situation.
I struggle to get him out as the two other boys watch in horror, and I slam the car door hard.
The tires screech as Tristan takes off like a maniac.
I turn to the boys. Tears run down their faces as they glare at me. “I hate you,” Harry cries. “Make him come back.”
He runs inside and slams the door.
“You ruined everything, Mom!” Patrick yells.
They turn and run inside after Harry.
I close my eyes ... fuck, how the hell did that escalate to this?