Chapter 17 #2
I can’t feel his cum, but I feel him grow harder and pulse, and it’s enough to satisfy that greedy bitch inside me who wants more.
As Brody comes down from his orgasm, he tilts his head, leaning it against my leg.
A smile stretches his lips. Not the cocky one or even a flirty one but just pure, unadulterated bliss.
Exhaustion tinges the edges, but I can tell he’s happy.
I don’t need to see my matching smile to know how I feel.
Tonight was big. Majorly so. And though I keep throwing landmines in his way, Brody is dodging each and every one of them, not ignoring them or denying their power but giving them the respect they deserve. The respect I deserve. As a woman, as a racer, as . . . me.
My armor cracks a little, a small piece of hope worming its way inside.
Maybe he won’t try to make me small or make me fit into whatever box he deems appropriate.
I don’t have time for him, but if he’s willing to wait while I figure some shit out, a guy who likes me for me is who I would want by my side when I’m ready for more.
Brody flexes and his cock jumps inside me. “Where’d you go again, Lil Bit?”
I focus my eyes on his, and the smile that had melted under the weight of my thoughts returns. “Just thinking that you surprise me, Cowboy.”
Oh, now I get that cocky grin and full-fledged arrogance. It should piss me off, but it’s sexy for some reason. “Well, let’s get upstairs and I’ll surprise you again.”
I wiggle, trying to get up but still impaled on him, and he groans as he puts fierce hands on my hips, stilling me.
“Nope, not like that.” He lets my legs fall from his shoulders and slowly tortures us both as he pulls out.
He takes off the condom and throws it in the trash can by the wall of toolboxes.
“Two points,” I offer generously, which gets me a sardonic brow in response.
He adjusts his clothes, zipping his jeans, and then reaches for me.
He picks me up like I’m light as a feather, my legs wrapping around his waist even as I argue.
“Put me down,” I say with no heat, smacking his shoulder like a butterfly.
I don’t know why I feel the need to fight this even though I’m enjoying it, but I do.
Fighting it feels like something I should want to do.
“You maybe weigh a buck ten, Lil Bit. I could carry you all damn day, so I can sure as shit carry you up the stairs to your apartment.”
That sounds like a challenge to my ornery ears, so I decide to make this a little extra hard for him. Seeing as I can’t eat a dozen cupcakes and weigh more, I go with the distraction method. “Mmmkay, if you say so.” I’m certain those words have never passed my lips, in seriousness or sarcasm.
I kiss and nibble along his stubbled jaw and he groans.
Victory tastes sweet. His skin tastes salty.
I nuzzle into his neck, smelling the fumes of the racetrack on him, another thing I never knew would turn me on so much.
I sniff him and swear to God I don’t know who I’m becoming around this man.
When I suck at the skin of his neck a bit, he groans and pauses on the stairs.
“Damn it, Erica. You wanna get fucked on the stairs again?” He’s being stern, like that’s some grave punishment.
I laugh, and he takes two more steps, slow and easy.
I’m sure he wants me to think he’s doing it so he doesn’t drop me.
I’m almost certain he’s doing it so I’ll keep kissing his neck.
I think I found a new erogenous zone on my Cowboy.
His hands grip my ass hard, encouraging me.
I’m pretty sure I just got ten fingertip-sized bruises on my nonexistent butt, but fuck if I don’t like the idea of that.
In response, I find that sweet spot over his pulse and suck it, delighting in the way I can feel it race under my mouth.
I murmur against his skin, “Keep going upstairs or I’ll stop. ”
My threat holds no weight because as soon as I say the words, I go back to kissing down his neck to where it joins his shoulder. A good bite in the muscle there has him taking steps double-time as I bounce and laugh in his arms. “Brody!”
I fly through the air and bounce as I land on my bed. He follows, and we get down to round two.
Both of us are early risers, even with the night’s activities. So I wake to find Brody curled around as the big spoon to my little spoon. I can feel his hardness, and I wiggle my hips a bit, encouraging him. “Good morning,” I whisper in the darkness of the pre-dawn.
“Mmm, good morning.” His voice is gravelly with sleep, but he grinds against me.
I arch, and he moves his hips, slipping between my legs. I buck my hips, sliding along his length and coating him with my arousal. I swear, I’m always wet when he’s around, but especially when he’s in my bed, all soft and sleepy.
“Condom.”
His hands tighten on me. “Can we just do this? I won’t go in bare, but just slide on me, use me.”
I look over my shoulder, meeting his eyes.
There’s no deceit, no doubt there, just pure need and hope.
The thought of feeling him skin on skin is too tempting to say no to.
I slip my pussy along his cock, over and over, liking the idea of leaving my juices all over him.
Marking him with my essence the way I marked his neck last night.
I’m not a possessive woman, but fuck if that idea doesn’t turn me on, and I buck faster, searching for my orgasm.
Not for my own pleasure but to coat him with it.
He reaches over my hip, finding my clit easily and helping me get there. He rubs me, mimicking what he watched me do last night perfectly, tapping and petting me as he growls in my ear.
“Fuck, Lil Bit. I’m gonna come. Can I come on you like this?”
His cum on my skin is equally filthy and also arousing as hell. “God, yes, come on me, Brody.”
My words are enough to send him over, and he jerks behind me. I feel the heat of his cum this time, feel him rubbing it onto my clit and using it to slide his fingers against me faster and harder. “Come on me too. I want to feel you come with nothing between us. Please.”
Brody Tannen does not beg. In the bedroom or anywhere else.
I know this as well as I know I don’t beg, either.
But damn if that order with the request at the end doesn’t send me spiraling.
I come hard, feeling every inch of him behind me and between my legs.
He encourages me, whispering in my ear how beautiful I look when I let go and telling me to keep going and give him more.
I take delight in the sweetness of his words as I filthily cover him with my cream.
Who knew I’d be into that? Certainly not me. Guess I’m learning things every day, about Brody and even about myself.
We sag, sweaty and messy, and I make a note to wash my sheets today.
Brody lays a kiss to my shoulder, his morning scruff a bit scratchy in a good way, and disappears for the bathroom.
A minute later, he’s back with a wet washrag which I use to wipe up as he looks on, proud as a peacock at the mess we made.
“We’ve got another hour to rest before we have to get going for the day. Wanna move to the couch?” he offers. He holds out a hand, taking the corner of the cloth and tossing it to the hamper in the corner.
“You’re pretty good at adulting. I think most folks would just fall back into bed, fighting over who had to lie in the wet spot and leave the cleanup rag on the floor.”
I mean it as a joke, but as we walk to the couch and settle in, my back to his chest between his spread legs, he doesn’t laugh.
In fact, he’s gone quiet. “Been adulting for a long time. After my mom died, I was it. I was technically grown, but not really, you know what I mean? Overnight, though, I grew up real fast. I took care of my family the best way I knew how. I kept the animals working, did both dad’s and my share around the farm, kept them all safe and protected. And yeah, I did laundry too.”
I remember his words of understanding about my keeping my secret from Dad. This is Brody letting me into his past, his secrets. I’m quiet, listening and taking each of them into my heart, holding them more delicately than I thought I’d be capable of.
“What happened?” Nothing in his words leads me to believe he’s doing anything but still keeping everything running smoothly, and he’s talked about the cattle and harvests, even showing me pictures when we text. But the tension through his body tells a much different story.
“Everything went to shit, and no matter how hard I tried to keep it, I lost everything. It all washed through my fingers like sand I couldn’t hold onto.
” He holds his hand up, making a fist to catch the invisible grains.
I weave my fingers through his, kissing his knuckles.
I feel the thick swallow he makes and wonder what part of the story he’s forcing down.
I know his Dad died so maybe that’s what he’s understandably not ready to talk about?
“Actually, that’s not true. I have near everything now, just not in the way I thought I would.
Mama Louise and the Bennetts are real good to us, better than we ever deserved, especially from them. I’m grateful for them.”
I think back to the oddly comfortable dinner I’d had with the Bennetts and how it’d seemed like they were one big, happy family. But maybe that’s not always been the case? I don’t voice the question, letting Brody share what he wants the way he let me do the same.
“One day, I’ll have a ranch and own and work my land, not someone else’s.
It’ll be somewhere safe for my brothers and sisters, a place to be Tannens, no matter what else is going on.
It won’t be the same as it was before, I know that.
Shayanne and Luke are always jetting off here and there, and they’ve got a place of their own.
Brutal and Allyson’s house will be done soon enough, and they’ll be gone.
Bobby’ll find his way—maybe fall in love, maybe just run off to Nashville.
But one day, I’ll have a ranch where the cattle’s mine, the choices are mine, the good times and bad times are all mine.
” It sounds like a prophecy, like he’s putting that out into the universe and expecting it to deliver any moment.
I realize with a start that he wants what I have, in a way.
My dad’s garage, a legacy from him to me, is exactly what Brody wants.
A place of his own, for his brothers and sister, like he said, but I think it’s more than that.
Brody wants a future and roots. His is just grass and dirt, while mine is grease and oil.
He thinks he’s a casual, fly by the seat of his pants type, but he’s not. He’s just playing at it.
He rests his chin on the top of my head, a move that feels like a connection.
A string. We said no strings when this started, but damned if they’re not stitching themselves to us with each and every share.
Right now, I don’t examine that too closely.
I just snuggle into him and will the tick of the clock on the wall to slow down, wishing for the sun to sleep just a little longer so I can stay in Brody’s arms.