Chapter 7 Esme
CHAPTER SEVEN
ESME
The doors groan open like the mouth of some ancient beast, releasing a breath of warm air tinged with magic and old parchment. I step into the king’s study with my chest drawn tight and my fists clenched at my sides, every muscle coiled for confrontation.
I expected a throne room. I expected posturing, intimidation tactics, the cold grandeur of absolute power meant to make me feel small.
A grand ceremonial greeting designed to put me in my place before a word was spoken.
The space beyond is not what I imagined, it appears to be a study, no, a sanctum. A place of learning, not lordship.
The room is larger than I thought as well, yet somehow cozy and warm despite its vast scale.
A domed chamber of deep violet stone and moonlit glass stretches above us, the ceiling painted with constellations that seem to shift and breathe in the ethereal light.
Parchment-strewn tables occupy every available surface, their edges weighted down with crystals and curiosities.
Books float in lazy spirals through the air, their pages turning of their own accord, while orbs of soft golden light hover in tight orbits like miniature stars caught in an endless dance.
The air is thick with the scent of old candle wax and fresh ink, of years upon years of scholarly pursuits and the weight of memories accumulated over centuries long past. Ancient tomes line the far wall in towering mahogany shelves that stretch toward the domed ceiling, their leather spines bearing titles in languages I don’t recognize.
The windows are arched like cathedral glass, but instead of stained colors depicting saints and saviors, they burn with the violet glow of Vanir’s perpetual twilight sky.
Heavy drapes in deep crimson spill like blood onto the obsidian floor, pooling in elegant folds that catch the shifting light.
Everything gleams with quiet, terrible wealth, the kind that comes not from ostentation, but from centuries of careful accumulation.
There’s a fireplace in the far corner, its flames dancing in shades of pale blue and silver, casting no heat but somehow warming the space with their ethereal glow.
A massive desk near the arched windows is stacked high with open texts, rolled maps, and what appears to be correspondence bearing official seals.
It’s a place I can easily see myself spending hours in, poring over ancient texts and grimoires unavailable in the Mortal Realm, losing myself in knowledge that could unlock the mysteries of my fractured magic.
The scholar in me, the part that spent countless nights in the library at HellNight Academy seeking answers, recognizes this as a true sanctuary of learning.
Sam hovers beside me, every line of his body tense with protective instinct.
His eyes dart constantly around the room, cataloging exits and potential threats even in this moment of supposed safety.
My mother walks just ahead of us, silent and composed as always, though I can see the rigid set of her shoulders through the rise of her dark cloak.
The way her hands remain carefully still at her sides speaks to an inner tension she’s fighting to contain.
Locke lingers behind us, silent as shadow, watchful as a hawk.
A warden on an invisible leash, torn between duty and something else I can’t quite name.
Then he’s there, emerging from behind the massive desk like a figure stepping out of legend itself, my father.
King Rhys Ayla rises with fluid grace, and the very air seems to shift around him.
Tall and broad-shouldered, he carries himself with the easy confidence of someone who has never doubted his place in the world.
His salt-and-storm locs are swept over one shoulder, threaded with silver that catches the light like captured starshine.
A beard carved with matching silver streaks frames a face that’s weathered by time and responsibility, yet somehow timeless.
His robes are deep black, trimmed in gold filigree that seems to move and shift in patterns too complex for mortal eyes to follow.
His presence fills the room, stern and regal and utterly, devastatingly still.
Then he sees my mother, and the world seems to stop.
He doesn’t speak. Doesn’t even seem capable of it.
Instead, he moves, not toward me as I expected, but around the desk with careful, deliberate steps.
Each movement is restrained, controlled, as if one wrong gesture might shatter something already fragile beyond repair.
When he reaches us, he stops before my mother, and for a heartbeat that stretches into eternity, they simply look at each other.
Then he kneels.
The King of the Night Court drops to one knee before my mother, one hand clenched in a fist against the cold obsidian floor, the other reaching out before hesitating, hovering in the space between them before gently, reverently brushing the edge of her cloak.
His gaze rises, locking with hers, and in that look I see decades of longing, of regret, of love that time and distance couldn’t quite kill.
My mother doesn’t breathe. Doesn’t move. She stands like a statue carved from self-preservation and sorrow, her eyes wide and unblinking.
The silence presses in around us like the air waiting for something to break, to shatter, to finally give way.
“I was never supposed to forget you,” he whispers, and his voice cracks with the emotional weight behind his words.
Her breath catches audibly in the stillness. “You did.”
“No,” he shakes his head, and I can see the pain etched in every line of his face.
“I was made to forget. I didn’t remember, not at first. I don’t know what magic ripped it from me when I passed back through the portal, but I felt like something important had been cleaved from my very soul.
Something vital was missing, and I was incomplete without it. ”
A silence blooms between them, thick and reverent, and heavy with the weight of years.
“I fell through that gateway half-dead,” he continues, his voice gaining strength even as it remains soft.
“Chased by my brother’s blades and a curse that tried to erase everything I was, everything I had been.
You found me in the forest, broken and bleeding and barely clinging to life.
You nursed me back to health. Gave me sanctuary when I had nowhere else to turn.
You gave me love when I had nothing else to give in return. ”
His free hand trembles slightly as he speaks.
“I remembered you in pieces after I returned to this realm,” he says, voice growing raw and deep with emotion.
“Flashes of memory like fragments of a shattered mirror. Dreams that felt more real than waking. Moonlight filtering through mountain pines. The sound of your laughter echoing through forest clearings. It eventually came back, like a tide I couldn’t fight, washing over me in waves that left me gasping. ”
I watch my mother’s face, see the tears that brim in her eyes even as she fights to maintain her composure. Still, she doesn’t acknowledge him, doesn’t give him the absolution he seeks.
His hand falls to his knee, fingers curling into the black fabric of his robes.
“I went mad with it for a time,” he admits.
“The remembering. And when I finally recalled your name, Cashira, it was like a bell tolling in my soul. I searched for you,” he says, voice cracking with the weight of old grief.
“I searched the forests until my feet bled and my guards thought I’d lost my mind. ”
I swallow hard, feeling tears prick at my own eyes as I witness this raw display of regret and longing.
“I tried to find the way again, tried to claw the portal back open with my bare hands,” his voice breaks completely now.
“I lost you, Cashira. I didn’t want to let you go; I never wanted to let you go.
I just couldn’t find my way back to you.
I knew I had responsibilities as a new king, duties that couldn’t be ignored, but I wanted to be there for you as well.
I couldn’t straddle both realms, no matter how desperately I wished for it. ”
My mother’s jaw trembles, the first crack in her carefully maintained composure. “But you didn’t. . .” she whispers, voice barely audible. “You didn’t see me. When they brought me before you in chains, you looked at me like you didn’t know me. Like I was nothing.”
Pain flashes across his features like lightning.
“When they dragged you before me in court that day,” he says, his words coming faster now, desperate to explain, “bound and filthy, surrounded by my guards who thought you were a spy sent to infiltrate our realm, I knew. Gods help me, I knew exactly who you were. But I couldn’t so much as blink in your direction without giving everything away.
No one in court knew what had happened to me during those lost months in the Mortal Realm, except for General Erron.
He was the only one I trusted with the truth, and together we explained my absence away as a period of healing.
I wanted to keep it that way. I couldn’t show weakness, couldn’t reveal that the king had fallen in love with a witch. ”
My stomach twists at his words, at the political calculations that kept him from protecting her.
“You were never a secret I was ashamed of,” he says softly, urgently. “You were my greatest loss. My deepest regret. Every day since has been colored by your absence.”
Cashira closes her eyes, and I see a single tear escape to trail down her freckled cheek. Then, finally, she reaches out with one trembling hand and cups his jaw, her thumb tracing the line of his cheekbone with infinite tenderness.