Chapter 3 #2
The mention of their beloved father had Christina dropping her head again, pushing back the threatening tears. “I have endured well enough.”
“But you will endure alone no longer,” Sophie promised. “I am here for you now, Christina, just as you have given your support to me.”
Christina sniffed. “I must ask you not to share what I have told you with any other, Sophie. I know it is a difficult thing for me to ask, since husbands and wives are so dear to each other, it is expected that they will share their burdens, but I cannot have it known to any other. Not as yet.”
“I quite understand.” Sophie set her shoulders back. “We will find you a happy match, and your thoughts of Lord Coventry will disappear.”
Christina did not hold the same hope but smiled all the same.
The Southport card party was not the sort of event Christina would have chosen for herself, had she the liberty to refuse it.
The rooms were warm, overfilled with candles and guests, and the press of perfumed air clung to the back of her throat as she entered on her mother's arm.
Clusters of gentlemen and ladies mingled near the card tables, their laughter mixing with the clink of glasses and the soft shuffle of dealt cards.
Christina pressed one hand flat to her stomach, held it there for a breath, then released it. She adjusted her gloves, smoothing fabric that was already smooth, and lifted her chin a fraction — the posture of a woman who was perfectly composed and had every intention of staying so.
"Come, my dear." Lady Bedford steered her gently through the first room. "I see Lady Mowsbury. Let us join her."
Christina allowed herself to be guided, but her gaze drifted.
She could not help it. Her eyes swept the room with the precision of someone cataloguing every potential threat and ally — the clusters of gentlemen near the hearth, the matrons settled on soft chairs near the windows, the younger ladies gathered around the pianoforte.
She noted the nearest door, the French windows that opened to a narrow terrace, and then, catching herself, forced her attention back to her mother.
Lord Coventry was not here.
The thought arrived unbidden, and she pressed it away at once, irritated by its persistence.
She had no reason to look for him. No right to care whether or not he was present.
And yet, even as Lady Bedford introduced her to Lady Mowsbury's small group, Christina's attention continued its restless patrol of the room.
It was when she turned to accept a cup of ratafia that she noticed the gentleman arriving at the door.
Lord Pennington stepped into the room without the usual announcement of a carriage — there had been no sound of wheels on gravel, no handing of a hat to a footman that she could see.
He had arrived on foot, then. She registered this without particular interest, filed it to one side like a letter she intended to read later, and returned her attention to the lady speaking beside her.
She did not have to wait long before he found her.
"Miss Oldham." Lord Pennington appeared at the edge of their group with the ease of a man who considered himself always welcome.
He bowed with a practiced grace, his smile wide and his eyes warm.
"And Lady Bedford. How delightful to see you both.
We are family, after all, and I confess it lifts my spirits to find relations in such company. "
Lady Bedford brightened at once, and Christina could not fault her mother for it.
Lord Pennington's charm was natural enough, his manner open and his features arranged in the picture of genuine pleasure.
He inquired after the family with gentle questions — was Sophie well?
He hoped Lady Bedford was finding London to be a pleasant change from the quiet of the country.
"How kind of you to ask," Lady Bedford replied, clearly pleased. "We are all very well, I thank you."
"I am glad to hear it." Lord Pennington turned the full weight of his attention to Christina, and something in her tightened.
It was nothing she could articulate — he was perfectly proper, his expression open and interested — and yet his gaze lingered a moment too long.
His warmth felt proprietary rather than familial, as if he were examining something he had already decided belonged to him.
"Tell me, Miss Oldham, are you enjoying the Season thus far?" He tilted his head, studying her with what seemed to be genuine curiosity. "I know it has been some time since the family has been in London, and I imagine it must be a significant adjustment."
"It has been pleasant enough, I thank you." Christina kept her tone even, her words polite and complete. She offered nothing beyond what was required.
"You must find it rather overwhelming," he continued, apparently undeterred by her brevity. "Especially after your father's passing. These things leave a mark, do they not? One wonders whether the family's affairs are quite settled."
Christina's fingers stilled on her glass. It was a strange question — oddly specific beneath its veneer of concern. She glanced at her mother, but Lady Bedford appeared to have heard nothing unusual, already turning to speak with Lady Mowsbury again.
"The family is well situated, Lord Pennington," Christina said, carefully. "I thank you for your concern."
"Of course." His smile did not waver, but something about it changed, becoming a fraction too fixed, as if he were holding it in place by force of will. "Family must look after family, must they not? Especially when circumstances alter."
A cold finger traced down Christina's spine. She reached for her ratafia again, her posture straightening incrementally — a slow, unconscious armoring that she was not even aware of. Her eyes flicked to the room. Where was the nearest door? Lady Mowsbury was to her left. Her mother was turned away.
She was being ridiculous. The man was making polite conversation. He was a relation, however distant, and his interest in the family was perfectly natural.
And yet.
"Might I fetch you something, Miss Oldham?" Lord Pennington gestured to the card tables. "Or perhaps you would care to join a round of whist?"
"I thank you, but I believe I shall find refreshment myself." She excused herself with a nod that was correct but cool, her composure a fence she placed firmly between them. "If you will pardon me."
His jaw barely tightened — a flicker, there and gone, like a candle gutter in a draft — but he stepped aside with easy grace. "Of course."
Christina moved through the press of guests toward the refreshment table, her breathing measured and deliberate.
She was being foolish. Lord Pennington was a gentleman of standing.
He was related to the family. There was nothing in his manner that crossed any line she could name, and yet, as she reached for a plate of sweetmeats, the unease remained, sitting low in her chest like a stone she could not dislodge.
It was then that she caught the scene at the edge of her vision.
Lord Pennington had not returned to the card tables. He stood in the narrow corridor that led to the servants' entrance, and he was speaking to someone. Christina paused, her hand still extended, and turned her head just enough to see without appearing to stare.
The man was a servant — a footman, by his livery, although she did not recognize the household colors.
He was young, his face pale and drawn beneath the candlelight, and his posture was wrong.
Everything about him spoke of a man who did not want to be where he was.
His eyes were too wide, his weight shifting from foot to foot, his shoulders pulled up toward his ears as if bracing himself against a blow.
Lord Pennington had one hand on the footman's arm. It was not a casual touch. His grip was firm — too firm for a gentleman speaking to a servant in passing. Christina could see the fabric of the footman's sleeve bunch beneath Pennington's fingers.
The footman — George, though she did not know his name yet — pulled his arm free with a sharp twist and stepped back, his hands lifting briefly as if in surrender.
Then, without another word, he turned and disappeared into the servants' corridor, his rapid footsteps swallowed by the noise of the party.
Lord Pennington remained where he was for a beat.
His hand fell to his side, his fingers curling and then opening.
He smoothed the front of his coat with the careful deliberation of a man putting his appearance back in order, and then, as if nothing at all had occurred, turned and walked back toward the card room.
Christina watched him go. The stone in her chest grew heavier.
She told herself it was nothing. Gentlemen and servants had dealings of all manner — debts owed, errands arranged, wagers placed through intermediaries.
It was not her business, and she had no cause to think anything of it.
The footman had looked frightened, certainly, but there could be a hundred reasons for that, none of which concerned her.
All the same, she found herself noting the details as she returned to her mother's side: the grip, the fear in the servant's eyes, the way Pennington had composed himself afterward with such practiced ease.
These things settled into the back of her mind like sediment in still water, present but invisible.
The evening continued. Lady Bedford was in good spirits, enjoying the company and the music that had begun to play from the smaller drawing room.
Christina stood beside her, a pleasant expression maintained, her contributions to conversation modest and appropriate.
She was, by all outward appearances, a young lady of gentle temperament enjoying a card party.
Only once more did anything disturb the surface.
A lady Christina did not know mentioned Lord Coventry in passing — something about his return to London and whether the Season might finally see him settled.
Christina kept her face perfectly still, but heat climbed up from her breastbone and settled behind her ears.
She pressed her lips together and said nothing, and moved the conversation carefully onward.
In the carriage home, Lady Bedford spoke happily of the evening — of Lady Mowsbury's wit, of the music, of Lord Bedford's absence, and how he really ought to attend more social gatherings. Christina listened and nodded and made the appropriate sounds of agreement, but her mind was elsewhere.
She thought of the footman's pale, frightened face. Of Pennington's grip on his arm. Of the way he had asked about the family's affairs with such oddly specific concern. Of his smile that did not waver even when something behind it changed.
She could not connect these things. There was no thread she could see running between them, no pattern that made itself plain. It was only an impression — a shadow that had crossed the edge of her evening and left behind a coldness that the warmth of the carriage could not quite dispel.
"You are quiet, Christina." Lady Bedford looked at her with gentle concern. "Are you well?"
"Perfectly well, Mama." Christina smiled, and if the smile did not quite reach her eyes, her mother did not appear to notice. "I was only thinking."