Chapter Twenty-Seven - Daniel
CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN
Daniel
DR. ELLIS SETTLED into her chair, flipping open a notebook. “So. What brings you here?”
Daniel exhaled slowly, looking down at his hands. “I fucked up my marriage.”
A pause. “In what way?”
His jaw tensed. “I cheated on my wife.”
She didn’t react. No raised eyebrows, no shift in expression.
Daniel let out a breath that felt like it had been lodged in his chest for months. “She’s left me. I just—”He clenched his fists. “I don’t even know what the fuck I’m doing here.”
Dr. Ellis tilted her head slightly. “Why did you make this appointment?”
He licked his lips. They felt dry, cracked.
“Because…” He exhaled hard, ran a hand down his face. “Because I don’t want to be the kind of man who does this.”
“Does what?”
His stomach twisted. “Who throws away the best thing in his life and pretends it wasn’t his fault.”
Another beat of silence.
Then, quietly, “That’s a good place to start.”
Daniel let out a short, humorless laugh. “Doesn’t feel like it.”
Dr. Ellis leaned forward slightly. “Tell me something, Daniel. What do you want?”
His jaw locked.
I want Hannah.
The thought hit hard, sharp as glass in his throat.
But even if she miraculously forgave him, even if she somehow let him back into her life—he wasn’t the man she deserved. Not yet.
So instead, he swallowed, staring down at the floor.
“I don’t know how to be good enough for her,” he admitted, voice hoarse. “But I want to learn.”
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Daniel sat in his car, gripping the steering wheel like it was the only thing keeping him tethered to the earth.
His head was pounding.
His first therapy session had been…
Not brutal. Not in the way he expected.
But exhausting.
Dr. Ellis hadn’t lectured him. She hadn’t shamed him. She had just listened. Asked questions. Made him say things out loud he hadn’t wanted to hear.
“Why did you cheat?”
A question with a hundred tangled answers.
He didn’t even know where to start.
And yet, for the first time, he had forced himself to sit with it. Really sit with it.
Not the excuses. Not the justifications. Not the lies he had told himself to make it easier.
But the truth.
The ugly, aching, sickening truth.
I was selfish. I was weak. I was insecure. I wanted to feel relevant. I wanted—
God.
Daniel dragged a hand down his face, exhaling hard.
It all sounded so fucking pathetic when he said it out loud.
Because it was.
And the worst part—the absolute worst part—was that none of it had been worth losing her.
Hannah.
Lovely, brilliant, patient, Hannah .
His eyes burned, his throat tight.
She had loved him. God, she had loved him.
Without conditions. Without hesitation.
She had been steady, warm, soft where he was sharp-edged and restless. She had built a home for them—a real home, full of quiet laughter and sleepy Sunday mornings and inside jokes and stupid little rituals.
And he had taken it all for granted.
Because she had always been there.
Always in his corner. Always the person who believed in him, even when he didn’t believe in himself.
She was the only person in the world he had ever truly talked to.
And now?
She wasn’t his.
Not his wife. Not his person. Not his anything.
She had been so good to him. Too good.
And he had repaid her with lies. With betrayal. With cruelty.
Daniel squeezed his eyes shut, pressing his forehead to the steering wheel.
He was doing this for her.
Not to win her back—he wasn’t that delusional anymore.
But because she had deserved better.
And if he ever wanted to be a man she could at least respect, even from a distance…
He had to change.
For real this time.
No shortcuts. No empty apologies.
Just work.
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Dusk had already crept in, laying a dim, slate-colored hush across the walls and floorboards of what used to be their home.
Daniel stepped inside like a man stepping into a grave.
The house still smelled faintly like her shampoo—citrus and rosemary—and the ghost of it hit him like a blow. He stood there for a long moment, just breathing through it, trying not to fold in half.
Everything in this place had her fingerprints on it. But none of it felt like her anymore.
She was gone.
Gone.
And it was his fault.
He moved through the living room on unsteady legs, passing photographs he couldn’t bear to look at.
He pushed the door open to the bedroom.
The bed was still made, but the room didn’t feel intact.
It felt like a ruin.
The little things were still here. Her cardigan slung over the chair. Her earrings in a dish. A dog-eared novel. A stray bobby pin pressed into the carpet.
But the ring—her ring—sat in the center of the dresser, still in the ceramic dish he had set it in that first night, too stunned to process what her absence meant. Back then, he’d told himself she’d come back for it. That she couldn’t leave without it.
He hadn’t known then how far gone she already was.
He stepped closer, the world narrowing to that one small circle of gold.
It looked impossibly small.
And yet it had once held so much. A promise. A home. A future.
He reached for it slowly. Reverently. His fingers trembled as they brushed the metal. For a moment, he just held it there, balanced in his palm like something alive, fragile, holy.
He couldn’t breathe.
She had worn this. Every day. Slipped it on every morning like it was part of her. Twisted it when she was nervous. Let it touch his skin when she held his face in her hands.
He had given it to her with steady hands and a vow he’d believed in.
A vow he had broken.
He sank down onto the bed, curling forward, his elbows digging into his thighs, the ring pressed to the center of his palm like a brand.
She had trusted him.
And he had betrayed her in the worst possible way.
Not just the act.
But the erosion.
The slow decay of truth. The thousand little withholdings. The moments he could’ve turned toward her and chose not to. The weakness he called loneliness. The selfishness he disguised as confusion.
He hadn’t just broken her heart.
He’d broken something sacred between them.
And now—God, now she was gone. Not metaphorically. Not temporarily.
Gone.
He’d seen it in her eyes the last time they spoke. The calm. The clarity. The love, burned clean away.
He stayed there, bent and silent, for what felt like hours.
And then—slowly—he stood. Walked to her jewelry drawer. Pulled it open like it might bite him.
He found what he was looking for—a thin gold chain.
His hands were unsteady as he threaded the ring onto it.
He held it up to the fading light.
It gleamed.
A reminder. A wound. A prayer.
He slipped it over his head and let the weight of it fall against his chest, tucking it under his shirt, where no one else would see. Where it could press into his skin like penance. Like memory.
He didn’t wear it to win her back.
He wore it because the ring still meant something.
Because she still meant everything.