Chapter 14 The Lull
The Lull
Harper
Eli drives me home after school. I’m still a little numb from how easy it will be to make me want them, but also still a little turned on and frustrated. He pulls into the driveway before he says, “Turn on your laptop tonight.”
I glance at him as I go to open the door. “Why? I’m not being punished, am I?”
I didn’t do a damn thing to deserve a punishment today. I made sure of it. Even if the second half of the day flew by in a daze. My lips felt swollen. My ass bruised from their touch. My panties damp with desire. My pussy throbbed with need.
Going to class turned on seems like enough punishment for the day.
“No punishment, kitten.” Eli reaches over and tugs one of my tendrils gently. “We like to see you and until you aren’t grounded, this is the best way.”
I open my mouth to protest and then shut it. This is a battle I don’t want to win. I like seeing them at night. It’s safe with them in their rooms and me in mine.
As far as I know, no other girl has had this from them. It’s all mine. They’re all mine.
“Fine. After your practice is over, I’ll open the window on my laptop.”
“Good.” Eli waits until I get out of the car before saying, “We can kiss you whenever we want now, kitten. Starting tomorrow. Only kissing though.”
I give him a thumbs-up when I really want to flip him the bird. Great. Kissing I feel all the way down to my toes. I might as well kiss my virginity goodbye.
He chuckles darkly as I close the door and watch him pull out of the driveway back toward school. I shudder to think my first time might be the same as today. Passed from one asshole to the next. Maybe even timed.
The horny bitch cheers. I don’t even know what to do about her. She would be happy to take all of them at once. I pause and scrunch up my nose. How would that even work? All of them having sex with me at once?
I’ve seen some romance books with threesomes in them, but I haven’t searched for anything more. Maybe I should do some research.
I shake my head. I’m not having sex with all of them at the same time. Not if I have anything to say about it. They still want me to give them my virginity, so that can be on my terms. I make my way into the house.
“You didn’t drive today?” My mom looks up from her phone as she sits at the kitchen island.
My asshole owners insisted probably won’t cut it. “My friend wants me to ride with him.”
“Him?” Mom perks up. “There’s a him?”
There are four hims, and I can’t stop thinking about those kisses. Does that make me a whore because I want them all? Does that make me their whore? I don’t even know what to think anymore. For years, I haven’t done anything with any guy. No guy has even tempted me.
But these guys. Every single one of them makes me want them. Every single one of them tempts me to lower my guard and let them take anything they want. Fuck, maybe Kenz is right and I should just give in and have one hell of a senior year fucking four guys.
Mom clears her throat.
Heat rushes to my face. “Uh, yeah, there’s a him.”
And his three friends.
“Oh.” Mom looks a little shocked, and then she registers my outfit and makeup.
Things I’ve never worn before in my life because of them. Not that I can tell her why the sudden change in clothing is only partially about boys or why I felt it necessary to hide before.
She gets this mom look in her eyes, and I know I’m in for a talk.
“You know to be safe, right?” Mom straightens on her stool and pins me in my place. “Birth control pills won’t protect you from STIs. You can’t trust a guy when he says he’s clean or a virgin.”
I press my lips together to hold back the bark of laughter at those guys claiming they’re virgins. “I’m not having sex, Mom.”
Yet. If they get their way…who am I kidding? If that horny little bitch inside me gets her way, we’ll be banging the fuck out of those guys. That thought doesn’t terrify me like it once did. I’m so fucked in the head.
But I still want to find a way out of it. I have to. It should be my choice who I fuck. Not some guys claiming me as the last virgin.
“You have to be prepared. You should start carrying condoms.” She stands. “I can go buy you some, so you have them. You can’t rely on the guy to always have one. I know too many girls who thought in the heat of the moment, one time wouldn’t hurt and ended up pregnant at our office.”
“I’m not going to get pregnant, Mom. I have a future. I need to get out of this town and go to college where no one will have heard of—”
Fuck, I almost said the horsemen.
Her eyes narrow on me.
“Me. No one knows me.” Not my smoothest save, but good enough. “I can start fresh. Trust me, I’m not going to get a boyfriend my senior year and let him complicate my life. Next year I’m going away to college.”
Besides, I can’t get a boyfriend while the horsemen own me.
I probably won’t be a virgin by the time I go to college, but hey, how many girls are actually virgins in college? I don’t need to tell anyone about my first time with four guys. Yeah, that probably wouldn’t go over well with a future boyfriend.
Besides, I might not give them my virginity. Maybe I’ll just end up a technical virgin. I might get away without parting my legs, but I know at some point they’ll have me down on my knees. Jack’s cock pops into my mind, and the feel of all of them against me.
Not really hard to imagine doing things with these four. Not after making out with them.
“Protection.” Mom grabs her keys. “You need protection.”
“Mom, really—” My words fall on deaf ears as she shuts the door behind her. I shake my head, but she might not be wrong.
Those guys push all the right buttons. Fuck, I even liked it when Luke spanked me. How desperate must I be to want the very guys I avoided for years? I go into my room and get out my homework.
I let my hair down and change into a loose t-shirt and shorts. I set an alarm on my phone to let me know when the guys finish their practice and then turn on some music while I work on homework.
I almost start to feel normal when there’s a knock on my door. Like this is any other year. Focused on homework, getting good grades. Mom checking up on me.
“Harper?” Mom’s voice seems a little hesitant, and then I remember why. So much for normal.
I squeeze my eyes shut and say, “Come in.”
She’s carrying a Walgreen’s bag. “Now I know you think you don’t need these, but I’d rather you be safe than sorry. I got two sizes. It’s important to use the proper size of condom.”
She sets the bag on my bed, and I wonder how red my face can get before my head explodes.
“I know you don’t want to talk about sex with your mother, but know that you can. There are websites that can give you information on sizing. I’ll try to answer any questions as best I can. If you need an appointment with the doctor…” She trails off. Mom works with an OB-GYN.
“Really, Mom, I’m fine. I’ll keep the condoms just in case, but I really don’t plan on having sex anytime soon.” As long as I behave, they won’t have a reason to punish me. Luke even said they would take things slow for me.
Of course, that was before I rode him like a wanton hussy.
“Sex is a normal part of life. I don’t want you to feel ashamed because you want to have sex. It’s natural. I just want you to be safe when it happens.” Mom twists her hands together.
“You’re right. I’ll get right on that then,” I tease. “It looks like you got me enough for the entire football team. Twice. Goals, right?”
“Maybe just try one guy at first, okay?” She smiles and shakes her head. “Just be prepared. Our mind doesn’t always account for what our body wants.”
I can feel my cheeks heat again. Yeah, I’m quite familiar with my body and mind not being on the same page when it comes to the guys. My mind shut down when they kissed me, but maybe that was because they were my first kisses.
I’m sure I’ll get used to them kissing me.
“I’ll be careful.”
Mom nods and moves toward the door. “Honey?”
I lift my eyes to hers. We have the same coloring. Same dark eyes, same brown hair.
“Just be careful.” She blows a strand of hair out of her face and gives me a considering look before she ducks out of my room. “I’ll leave you to your studying. Gotta get those good grades for college. Dinner in thirty.”
She closes the door. Careful, I wish I could be more careful. My alarm goes off and I open the program I never installed on my laptop. I don’t think Luke installed it either. He doesn’t seem like the tech type, but one of my horsemen did.
The window opens with four streams. I recognize each of their rooms, but they aren’t in them yet. For all I know, they’re going to go hang out at Caden’s for a few hours and no one will be in their rooms.
I sigh. This will be my life, waiting for them to decide what they want to do with me until they get bored with me. That makes my heart ache a little, but I know it’s coming. I’m just an average girl. Not enough to hold onto four guys who are the top of the social totem pole.
They may want me now, but it can’t last.
Harper’s Phone
Kenz:
Do you think Mr. Wick will accept a drawing of Shakespeare for our first report?
Me:
Maybe if you used the words of your essay as the lines?
Kenz:
Boo! That means I still have to write it
And do a drawing
Me:
Something tells me English Lit means written word
Kenz:
But a picture can tell a thousand stories
Me:
*eyeroll emoji*