Chapter 11
Perfidy
Harper
“Oh, wow.” Kenz stares at me over her pancakes. Her fork is halfway to her mouth as she digests what I just told her. We have a booth back in the corner, away from everyone else, so I filled her in on everything that happened last night.
I take a bite of my French toast while she processes.
“Wait, so Nico is a horseman?” She gives up on her bite and sets her fork down.
“Apparently. I’m still not sure how that works.” I’m starving, so I continue to eat while she gets this far-off look. Hopefully I burned off some calories last night, and I’m replenishing and not just stress eating.
“And they just let him join in?” Kenz focuses on me.
I nod and blush.
“And you were okay with that?”
I inhale and nod again.
“I knew he liked you.” A smile pulls at Kenz’s lips as she glances around to make sure we’re alone. She leans across the table and whispers, “You blew all of them?”
I bite my lip to hold back my smile as I nod.
Her eyebrows shoot up almost to her hairline. “And they all ate you out?”
“Yes, Kenz.”
“My god, how many times did you come?” Her blue eyes are huge and her voice is awe-filled.
“I didn’t count,” I admit. “But a lot.”
Just thinking about last night has me squirming in my seat.
“You’re my hero.” She sits back and shakes her head. “I only came twice last night. I can’t even imagine what having five guys on you at once must feel like.”
“Overwhelming.” I pick up my coffee and take a bracing gulp before looking around to make sure no one else is close enough to hear. “Has Brandon ever done anything to your… butt?”
Kenz leans forward excitedly. “One time when he went down on me, he slid his finger in my ass. I came so hard.”
“Eli…” I bite my lip and glance around before leaning across to whisper, “He licked my asshole and stuck his tongue inside.”
Kenz’s eyes grow rounder. She’s practically vibrating with excitement. “Holy shit. What did that feel like?”
I shake my head. “It didn’t feel bad, but I was so self-conscious of him being there. I couldn’t relax.”
“Fuck, H, I think you’re more experienced than me and you’re still technically a virgin.” Kenz relaxes into the booth. “What’s holding you back from giving in to them?”
“Besides the fact it’s five on one, and they all want to be there when it happens?
” I bite out a laugh and then it all floods out of me.
“It hasn’t even been two weeks! What happens when I give in?
Isn’t that game over? Isn’t that what this whole thing is about?
The chase? So if that goes away, what keeps them from leaving me?
And why do I even care if they leave? Sure they promised to be only mine for the whole year, but how can I keep them satisfied? Five guys, Kenz.”
I hold up my hand with my five fingers extended and thrust it toward her.
“Five. How does that even work? When do I have any time to myself? Let alone my studies. That time on the webcam, they all came twice. Luke is already threatening to have me down on my knees to service him constantly. Probably between classes, after school, after practice, before bed. When will it end?”
“Calm down, sweetie.” Kenz holds up her hands, and I realize I’m practically panting.
My breath heaves in and out so fast. My head is spinning.
“Look at me.” Kenz motions to her eyes, and I raise my gaze to them. “All right, easy now. Breathe in, slow. Breathe out. Come on, five more. In. Out.”
I follow her breathing until my heart stops trying to race out of my chest.
“Okay, let’s take this one piece at a time.
” Kenz takes my hand on the table and holds it.
“Five guys, hmm. Obviously, you’d have one in your pussy, one in your ass, one in your mouth.
” She taps her finger on her lips. “I guess you could have the other two in your hands. Or they could trade off. But yeah, that would keep you kind of busy. But my guess is they don’t have sex every night, and the whole all five at once would probably be more of a once a week or maybe all weekend type thing. ”
My mouth drops open. “They’re all huge. My jaw is sore today from last night, and you think they’ll take my pussy and ass at the same time?! They’ll rip me apart.”
“How do you think Jack and Caden do girls together?” Kenz gives me a look meant to calm me.
“One takes their mouth and the other the pussy. Or for a more experienced girl, they do her ass and pussy. They make sure the girl is ready for it. So if other girls can take Caden and someone else, you’ll be fine. ”
“That’s not very comforting.” My chest burns thinking of other girls with the guys. I know they aren’t virgins and have been with girls I have class with. Even so, it’s hard not to think of them as mine after last night.
“The question of will they stray after you give it up.” Kenz squeezes my hand and her eyebrows pull down. “I don’t know the answer to that. I don’t think anyone can give you that answer either. It’s not like you guys are all in love.”
My lips press together to stop the denial, because she’s right. We aren’t. Emotions have nothing to do with our arrangement.
“But you have an agreement, and from what I know about the horsemen, they don’t go back on their word. They may try to renegotiate, but they would definitely give you a heads up if something was going to change.” Kenz’s words sink into me.
I take a deep breath, trying to cool off the burning in my chest at the thought of them with someone else. “It’s about trust then?”
“Doesn’t it always come down to that?” Kenz smiles. “Fuck, I worried Brandon might dump me after getting what he wanted.”
“Really?” I’m surprised because they’ve been together for the past two years. I figured they were solid.
She shrugs. “Sometimes men really want something and when they get it, they’re done with the chase. I couldn’t be sure with Brandon, but I’m not sorry I finally had sex with him. It’s so much better than just fooling around.”
I nod and look down at my plate. I’ve eaten most of my meal and I could use a coffee refill.
The thought of them being done with me still circles my head.
I guess as long as they enjoy sex with me, they’ll continue to want me.
At the beginning, I wanted them to leave me alone.
But now… I don’t know how I’d feel if I finally gave in and then they went back to how it was before.
Sighing, I admit, “I know it’s a gamble, but you and Brandon have two years of being together to rely on.
I’ve been with the guys since last Monday and haven’t really fully committed to being theirs.
If this is just a game, do I lose if I give in so quickly?
Do I make them wait until they beg for it? ”
“I don’t have an answer for you. You’ve already gotten them to give you more than any other girl with the exclusivity. But that might mean they expect more from you.” Kenz takes a bite of pancakes and chews thoughtfully.
“What if I’m not what they expect me to be?
” I ask softly, afraid of the answer. Afraid that even my best friend knows I’m not enough for them.
What girl could be? It would take a team of girls, like the Cheermonsters, to keep them satisfied, and even they couldn’t keep the horsemen.
This crazy part of me wants to be enough though.
Wants to hold onto their attention when no other girl could.
“If I were you, I’d enjoy it while I can and have some nice memories for when I’m old and gray and my husband can’t get it up anymore.” Kenz winks as she shovels another bite into her mouth.
I smile and shake my head. “I was afraid you were going to tell your grandkids about it.”
“Nah, they don’t need to know grandma got railed by five dicks at once.” Kenz laughs.
“Talk about needing therapy.” I join in her laughter and it feels nice.
“Okay, enough about boys,” Kenz says. “What do you think about our classes for this year?”
Kenz finishes her meal while we talk about our classes and the potential hell our homework and studying will be this year.
The waitress comes by and gives us more coffee and takes our plates.
I take the opportunity to look around, as the place has gotten more packed.
Penny and her crew are at a table across the way and she gives me an enthusiastic wave.
I smile, but don’t gesture her to come over.
I don’t know what those girls want from me yet.
“What are you doing Monday?” Kenz asks.
Before I can answer, a female voice joins in. “Probably Eiffel Towering the football team.”
We swivel our heads to see Sidney, Emma, and Ashley closing in on our table.
“You know me so well.” I give Sidney a fake smile and make a note to ask Kenz what an Eiffel Tower is. “What’s up, bit—uh, cheerleaders?”
Sidney’s eyebrows pop up at my almost slip. Really, what’s up, bitches can be a friendly greeting. I’m not sure it would have been coming out of my mouth to them. But they haven’t exactly been friendly, so it’s accurate.
“We stopped for breakfast and saw you guys hanging out.” Sidney grabs the chair at the table beside ours and turns it to sit at the end of our table. Emma slides in next to me, and Ashley sits next to Kenz.
Kenz arches an eyebrow. “Please join us.”
“You date Brandon Walker, yeah?” Ashley asks Kenz.
“Yes.” Kenz draws out the s like she’s wondering where Ashley is going with this.
“He’s a nice guy.” Ashley waves the waitress over. “Can I get a hot chocolate?”
The others order coffee. I guess they’re staying? What the fuck is happening?
“No one thinks this is your fault by the way.” Sidney leans back in the chair like the bad bitch she is. “I mean, no girl wants her first time to be with five guys. That’s a fucking hamburger chain, not a relationship.”
“I really didn’t ask for this.” Something settles in me, knowing they don’t blame me. “I don’t even know how they knew I was the only one left.”
Sidney smiles. “The guys keep tabs. Really, I’m surprised they didn’t clear the board before this year.”
Kenz kicks me under the table. I glance at her and she raises her eyebrows like what the fuck am I doing. We should totally bounce.
But I’m curious what the cheerleaders want. Know thy enemy and all that. “Where’s Hannah?”
“Still fucking bitter as hell.” Emma scoffs. “She likes riding Caden’s monster dick and bragging how big it is.”
That burn starts in my chest. I remind myself I knew the guys weren’t virgins. They have a past and each of the guys except for Nico were in at least one of these girls, if not more than one.
“Not going to lie,” Ashley says. “Those are the best dicks in school. Most of the other guys think you should be grateful they have one and don’t try to learn what to do with it.”
“It’s not just the status we’re worried about.” Sidney reaches across for the cream to add to her coffee. “We can find boyfriends, but if we do, we need to make sure the horsemen don’t come back on the market.”
I press my lips together. “I have no control over what they do.”
Sidney’s smile is not so nice. “We know about the deal to keep you for the whole year. We just need a guarantee you’re willing to keep your end of the bargain and they don’t start straying. But if they do, it better be with one of us.”
“Wait,” Kenz interrupts and draws Sidney’s attention. “What exactly are you asking Harper to do?”
“Keep the horsemen close and satisfied while we raise our boyfriends up to their ranks.” Sidney arches an eyebrow and blinks her eyes almost innocently.
“The horsemen never wanted to be our boyfriends, but they definitely appreciated us being available. They tend to wander, but they always came back.”
“How do you think we keep being top of the school?” Emma takes a sip of coffee. Her dark eyes meet mine. “We kept them satisfied, and that makes everyone happy.”
“Look, you’ve been hiding for so long you can’t possibly know what happens when they don’t get sex on the regular.” Sidney tosses her blond hair over her shoulder. “The guys are aggressive, and when they have pent up needs, they can get dangerous.”
“So if you can’t keep up, you need to let us know so we can step in and pick up your slack,” Ashley adds. Her smile turns into a grin. “Think of us as a public service.”
Hoes-R-Us?
It’s taking everything in me to keep my mouth shut. What the hell have I walked into? I kind of want to pry into these women’s minds to figure out what the fuck is going on.
Kenz doesn’t have my reservations. “So you guys fuck the horsemen into the decent guys they are?”
The girls laugh.
“Oh, sweetie, yes.” Sidney turns her eyes on me. “We keep them calm. Right now, they’re focused on you, but the second their attention strays is when the punishments to the whole school ramp up. So if you haven’t already popped that cherry, get on it and keep the guys in line.”
The girls all rise as one.
“If not,” Emma says, “free them up so they can get what they need.”