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Connor
S carring on her brain? Oh, my Gods. She’s told us a little about how she’s gotten some of her scars, not specific ones. I can only fucking imagine what he did to her to make her brain be scarred. Everyone is just standing here, watching Healer Daniel heal her. No one says anything. I think everyone is too afraid to breathe right now, or can’t breathe because they are trying to calm themselves down. I’m not sure which. I can’t focus on any of their thoughts right now. I am transfixed on the spot, watching Farlen get healed. I don’t know what I’m hoping for out of this, but I just hope it helps her somehow, some way.
Healer Daniel takes his hands off of Farlen's head and he nods to all of us. Everyone is still too stunned to move, so I walk forward to her and put my hand on her face. She gasps as soon as my hand makes contact, and she brings her hand up to touch my hand.
“I can feel you! Not just the warmth from your hand, but like I can on that spot on my back!” She makes the cutest fucking squealing noise. I don’t know what is happening right now. She sounds just like Farlen, still the broken, raspy voice. But there was no hesitation in her words, and they were all spoken with perfect clarity. Kind of like she does in her head.
She makes another gasping noise. “That was so easy to say! I didn’t have to think about it and how I wanted my mouth to move to form the words. I just thought about the words I wanted to say and my mouth said them all by itself! Just like it’s doing now! How is this possible?! ”
I look back at my brothers, and they are all standing there with their mouths wide open. She touches her mouth and gasps again.
“I can feel it when I touch myself! My hand doesn’t feel as good as yours does Connor. Oh! Can I feel all of you now?”
I look up to Healer Daniel. He has Payne by the hand and is pulling him out of the room, and Payne the hardass has tears in his eyes. I need to get them something, but what do you give to the people who did unspeakable kindness to the most important person in the world to you?
“Hey are you guys okay? Why isn’t anyone moving? Rhi? Connor? Xander? Vashu? Guys?”
I don’t think about it, I just act. I move forward and kiss her. She makes a groaning noise and all I want to do is to deepen the kiss, but I pull back and she is looking at me. She looks like she is going to cry.
“I get it. I understand what she meant now.”
“What, who meant sweet girl?”
“The lady from the first song, when she said that the kiss, made her feel like she was flying. My heart feels like it is trying to fly.”
Zachariah comes over to her and I step back. She gasps as his hand makes contact with her face.
“Oh Rhi, I can feel you too!” She is crying now. He bends down and kisses her. She makes the groaning noise, and Zachariah uses it as an opportunity to deepen the kiss. She grabs his shirt and pulls him closer to her, well at least I don’t need to break this apart, and she seems to be enjoying it. He breaks the kiss and puts his forehead to hers. She breathes in through her nose. And then she really starts to cry. Zachariah looks like he is fucking panicking.
“Why are you crying, gorgeous?”
“Coffee and chocolate.” Is all Farlen says. I worry that maybe the healing didn’t last long enough, but Zachariah laughs and picks her up and spins her around the room. She is laughing too, so there must be something I don’t understand. Xander and Vashu walk up to her when Zachariah puts her down. They have their hands out towards her face. She grabs their hands and puts them on her face and she gasps again.
“I can feel all of you! How! I thought my scars were what was stopping me from feeling you all. But I can feel everything. Xander and Vashu are both warmer than Connor and Rhi, but Vashu’s hand doesn’t feel as soft as Xander’s. How is this possible?”
The other guys have her right now. I pull out my phone to text my mom and before I can even type the question; she sends her reply.
Mom: You don’t have to get them anything son, knowing that this is making her this happy is all that they needed to hear. Payne is going to look like he is on the verge of tears anytime Farlen gets touched by one of you, and Healer Daniel is going to remain professional, but he is at home in his center's arms, crying right now. If you all had made her change, she would have spent too long deciding on what to wear, not sure why you all reacted that way, and then you wouldn’t have gotten here in time for this. Now put down your damn phone and get to your girl.
I shake my head at my mom. I look up at Farlen, and she is standing between everyone. She is smiling and crying. Everyone has a hand on her somewhere. I walk over to her and place my hand on her arm. She turns to me and smiles at me and is crying even more.
“My heart feels so full. I still can’t believe I can feel all of you and I can finally say what I want to say without it coming out funny. Now, one of you needs to teach me the eyebrow thing because it isn’t fair that you can all do it and I can’t.”
I don’t think anyone but me knows what she is talking about. So I look down at her and raise my eyebrow at her.
“That’s not fair Connor! I tried making my face do it, but it wouldn’t! The only way it worked was if I used my fingers to push my eyebrow up! How do you do it? Please tell me?”
Zachariah looks over at me and catches on. He raises his eyebrow at her. She looks over at him.
“Howwww! I want to do it too! Is it something only guys can do? If it is only something guys can do, I want to be a guy too! Why do you all look like that? What did I say? Why can’t I be a guy like all of you? Then I can be taller, and not be so small, and maybe I can get big muscles like all of you.”
She does this in her thoughts a lot. She just kind of rambles about something. It’s part of the reason I give her privacy in her thoughts. She doesn’t need me listening to her ramblings, especially because sometimes it’s about us and our muscles. I have a thought, and I might get an ass chewing for it later on, but I’m going to give this a go.
“Farlen, how about this? We will all teach you how to do the eyebrow thing, but I want you to do something for me? I know you are scared about sex, and you have every right to be, but I want you to think about it. Have any of us hurt you? Or done anything to you that was mean? Just because what he did to you hurt, doesn’t mean that it would hurt with one of us. I want you to stay very still, and not move, I am going to touch you with my mouth on your neck, if you don’t like it say stop and I will move away, but if you like it, just please think about what I said okay, and we will teach you.”
“I will think about it, and I know you guys wouldn’t hurt me. Even when you get angry, you are never angry at me. Rhi said that I am where home is, but you guys are where my home is. And I have thought about that before, you guys are all so nice to me, and you make me feel so light, which I have never felt before, and that night you and Rhi touched my back I wanted to know what it felt like for you guys to touch me all over, because it felt so right in my heart. I never had those feelings before.”
I lean down and kiss up the side of her neck. She makes small little moaning noises and throws her head back, giving me more access to her neck. Zachariah comes over and adds his mouth to the other side of her neck. She is breathing heavily and moaning. I pull back and Zachariah gives her neck a little nip and she groans. He pulls back and smirks at me .
“That was. I still don’t know the words to say it. But it made my stomach really low, feel tight and fluttery.” Xander, Vashu, and Zachariah groan. She looks over at them and then back to me, “I’ll think about it, Connor, because if sex with you guys feels as good as that, we are going to have sex every day.” Everyone groans now and Farlen is looking around at everyone, confused.
“Why do you guys do that sometimes? Did I say something wrong or do something wrong? Is everything okay with you guys? Are you in pain? Do we need to get Healer Daniel in here to check on you?” Zachariah adjusts himself while she is looking at me. He gets her attention so everyone else can fix themselves.
“No gorgeous you didn’t do anything wrong or say anything wrong, just when you talk like that you make all of us a little excited because we want to make you feel that good all the time, and it is hard for us to control ourselves when you talk like that.”
“Oh! Okay, I will try not to talk like that then.”
“Nooooo.” Everyone says, glad I’m not the only one then.
She laughs and smiles at all of us.
Zachariah looks down at her and looks over at all of us. “Fuuuuuck, I wish I didn’t have class this morning, but I have paperwork I need to go work on.” He reaches up and cups Farlen's cheek and brushes his fingers across it. She gasps and smiles at him and leans her head into his touch more. She closes her eyes and I swear I can feel the peace and tranquility rolling off of her. Gods, please let her have this much joy in her life every day.
Vashu pulls out his phone. “Eh fuck it, Instructor Payne knew where I was, and he was late for class, anyway. Might as well skip the end of it and just go to shifter class.”
Zachariah leaves out the door, with one last glance at Farlen. I pull out my phone to check the time.
“Shit, your shifter class starts in fifteen minutes. We’re going to have to run someone carry Farlen.” Xander scoops her up and we take off towards the training field.