37
Connor
I wish this night would end. We all fucked up tonight, well except Zachariah, but he was in class, though he would have fucking thought the same thing. Gods, the way she reacted to everything. Zachariah called Healer Daniel to see if it’s anything we needed to be worried about. He said it sounded like a panic attack. She thought she was back where the bastard hurt her, and didn’t know she was safe with us. He said there could be other triggers and we need to watch out for them and avoid them. If she does have another panic attack, we need to get her to breathe and calm her down.
Kramylor sits down, and I listen to his thoughts. Fucking Gods. And this is why I started finding out if they were going to accept Farlen before we told them anything. He doesn’t know if he wants her. Zachariah brings Farlen and sits her down. We all put a bit of everything on her plate and she starts eating. Everyone waits for Faith to get her food too, because if she eats everything and there’s nothing left for us, it’s fine. She’s more important than we are. Faith makes a hand motion, saying we can all get ours and everyone digs in. I tune my thoughts to Farlen to see how she likes her food. She doesn’t like the rice, but everything else she seems to like. Ah shit, not the lime, but she just licked it and didn’t squeeze it on anything. We are going to have to try that again and show her what to do.
She ate a lot more today than she had before. When she pushes her plate away from her, everyone smiles at her. I hear Kramylor fucking yelling about shit in his head and I tune into it to see what has him all wound up. THIS FUCKING MAN! Are you kidding me? Can’t you see she has been through so much fucking shit? Gods! He needs to leave now. If I have to sit here and hear him think things like that again about Farlen, I am going to fucking have Vashu hold him down while I rip out his teeth.
Faith asks about Farlen. I tune into Zachariah; he notices me looking at him; she says to tell her everything. Though we need to wait until it’s just her, and she can’t tell Kramylor, I don’t like the way he’s looking at her.
“We will get to it soon, Faith, but before we tell Kramylor anything, he’s going to have to have his match blood work confirmed and then he’ll have to answer a single question from us.”
He pushes himself away from the table and leaves. Good. If he can’t see what a fucking prize Farlen is, he doesn’t deserve her. She doesn’t need someone in her life who doesn’t know if they want her or not.
I look over at Zachariah. Gods, I wish I could project my voice into people's heads. They tried to teach me how to do it when I went to school here, but I could never get the hang of it.
“Are you doing it or am I?” I ask him.
“Farlen said I could tell her, so guess it’s on me this time.”
Vashu and Xander come over and give Farlen a hug. She melts into their touches, so it looks like that is going well. Xander touches his head like Farlen does. Guess this is a thing for our match group. I tune into Xander, nodding my head so he knows I’m listening.
We can’t listen to this again without ripping down the house, so we are going to go for a run. We’ll be back in like an hour, depending on how fast the dragon can fly and if he can keep up with me.
I nod at him. They got over their shit fast. Fuck, I am going to be kicking myself in the ass for a long time for that. All I could see when we opened the door was Vashu holding Farlens' leg up on the table. Her small little skirt flipped up and the damn thong she has on, on view for everyone, his enormous frame leaning over her. I thought the worst of my bond brother. Gonna have to buy the dragon something shiny to say sorry.
“Farlen, do you want to be here for this? If you want to go listen to some music gorgeous so you don’t have to hear this, we all understand.”
“I want to be here. I can’t talk about all of it, but maybe I can explain some things better now.”
Zachariah nods at her. As he tells Faith about Farlen's life, I go over and pry her hands off Farlen. Girl is strong, and that was hurting her. Farlen smiles at me and sits next to me across from Faith. Faith looks remorseful about what she did. At least she seems like she’s going to be a fixture in Farlens' life. When Zachariah tells Faith about what he did to her, and her consequent fear of sex, Faith runs into the kitchen and vomits. She sits back down and nods to Zachariah. Damn, that girl has some enormous balls. It took everyone a long time to digest that information. Zachariah ends with what happened today.
She nods her head, and it’s so damn tempting to listen to her, but she doesn’t seem to stop the flow of her mouth, so I’m sure we will find out what she is thinking soon. She looks over at Farlen and I swear I can feel the love pouring out of them in just that one look.
“Alright, well, I’m guessing I’m not to tell Kram any of this until you all talk to him, which is good, because I don’t think I could speak of this shit to anyone. It isn’t my story to tell. I want to get penciled into Farlen time. I’m going to take her shopping and show her how to do girly shit. Who knows, maybe we will get matching BFF tattoos or both get our labia pierced!”
Farlen starts to talk and I hold my finger over her lips. I already know where this is going. “I will explain to you what labia is later.”
Faith laughs. Then she stops and glares at me. “That better be with just words and not with a physical explanation.”
“None of us are going to touch Farlen that way until she is ready for it. If it takes decades, we are all ready to wait until she’s ready. Even if she never is, we are here for her, and as long as you don’t mind one of us tagging along with you on your ‘Farlen time’ I’m good with it, though no shopping, I took her out to get clothes when we first got here and it wasn’t a good experience.”
Faith nods. “I have so many clothes I don’t wear anymore because they got too small on me. I could drop them off for her if you all want? I think they might still be big on her, but I’m not going to get any smaller, ya know? And if she can’t go shopping, then she can just shop in my closet! Oooo, we could do a makeover! I could do her hair and makeup and then we can have her try on different clothes and she can show them off for you guys.” Faith is nodding her head. I tune into her thoughts because she looks so sure of herself. She could totally pull off that black skirt I have. Though I don’t know how my shirts are going to fit her, the bitch has such big breasts. Ah well, at least I’m taller than her. She has boobs and I have three inches on her! Seems like a fair trade to me!
I bite my fist to stop myself from laughing. I think she’ll be good for Farlen. It may help her come out of her shell more. I glance at Farlen and she looks like she wants to ask something. I squeeze her hand, “Whatever it is you want to say sweet girl, just say it, Faith understands a lot more now, so she knows whatever you want to say isn’t something she should be upset by.” Farlen nods her head and looks at Faith, she bites her lower lip. When did she start doing that? Zachariah is transfixed on her mouth as she nibbles her lip.
“Does sex always hurt?” Damn, should have seen that question coming.
“Oh! No, well, bad sex sucks, but only the first time hurts. But good sex, ohmygods good sex is what makes this life worth living. It is one of the greatest feelings in the world.”
“Why does the first time hurt but not after? It always hurt before.”
Faith looks to Zachariah and me. I put my hands in the air. You wanted in girl, here’s your chance.
“Uhhhhhhhhh. Man. Well, I guess this is good practice for when I have kids of my own one day. Well see, women have something called a hyman…” I tune out. I know how it all works, th anks to my mom, and I’m not a virgin. That conversation was painful enough with my mom. I don’t need to hear it from someone who is a complete stranger. Farlen is tugging on my hand, so I look down at her.
“Sorry sweet girl, I was thinking of other things like what to make for lunch tomorrow. What was your question?”
“Faith says that all penis’s feel like steel but are really soft. Is yours like that?” Gods I’m praying one day she will find out for herself. I nod my head to her.
She looks over at Faith again. “I have another question. Vashu’s penis was really big, and he said it got bigger, but HIS wasn’t. If HIS hurt me that bad, why won't it hurt really bad with Vashu? And will there always be blood? You said a little blood the first time, but there’s always been so much blood.”
Faith looks lost. She keeps looking at me and Zachariah, who puts her out of her misery. He takes a deep breath.
“Gorgeous. Did he ever put knives down there? When he did those things to you?” Farlen nods her head. Faith runs to the kitchen again to puke. Holy fuck, how much horror has my sweet girl been through? Gods, I wish we could bring him back from the dead so we could kill him over and over. Faith comes back in more collected and sits down.
“Okay, wow, I wasn’t expecting that. Uhhhh well. I don’t really know how big either of them is, so I don’t know how to answer that. Uhhh, how big is Vashu?” Farlen tries to show her with her hands. Faith fans her face. Well, if my sweet girl thinks that is impressive, she may be in for a surprise then. Looks like I have something over the dragon then.
“Okay, and what about HIM?” I don’t want to hear this answer. Farlen looks around for something. She grabs two beans from the table and sticks them end to end. Wait, what the fuck? I look over at Zachariah. He nods.
Faith laughs. “Well, that might explain his rage! Oh, my Gods, how did you even feel that? Oh man, I’m going to be sick again.”
“Is Faith okay? Do we need to get Healer Daniel?”
“She’s okay, sweet girl. Some people get sick when they hear things that are hard to hear.”
Faith comes out of the kitchen a few minutes later.
“Okay, I don’t think my stomach can handle any more revelations like that. I am going to head back to my dorm. Farlen, if you need anything or have any more questions, message me, okay? I will try to keep the messages smaller, sorry didn’t know you were using text to speech! Uh, you guys might as well get my number from her. If you ever need me for anything with her, let me know.” Faith walks over and gives Farlen a hug.
As she walks out the door, she blows Farlen a kiss and then leaves. Farlen looks so confused. I don’t have the heart to explain it to her tonight. She looks at me and then looks at Zachariah. He has a faraway look in his eyes; I don’t think he’s all here right now. Farlen yawns.
“Why don’t you go get ready for bed, sweet girl? I’m sure Vashu and Xander will be back soon and want to hug you before you go to sleep.” As soon as I hear the water turn on, I shake Zachariah. He looks to where Farlen was and looks around.
“She’s getting ready for bed. Where did your thoughts take you? I’m trying to stay out of everyone’s head.”
“It’s what Faith said. If he really was that small, she wouldn’t have been able to feel him. Then I remember her saying he used knives. We need to have a healer look her over, but I don’t think I can let Healer Daniel do it, and there’s no fucking female healers on staff. We may need to ask about a student. I know there’s at least one female student who has the gift of healing. Which we still need to talk to the others about.”
I send Vashu and Xander a message to tell them Faith is gone, and we need to talk. A few minutes later, Vashu strolls through the door, and Xander comes in behind him, panting.
“It’s not a fair race if you use your wings! It was supposed to be a footrace through the forest, not you just flying off and saying you win!”
“Xander shut up for a few minutes. We learned some more stuff tonight, which I think we will tell you one night outside, because the house wouldn’t be able to withstand your anger from this. But uh, we need to talk about if everyone is okay with Farlen having students heal her scars. She says she is, but there are risks to it, ya know. They could overload her body and stop her heart.”
“If it’s what she wants, then do it,” Vashu says.
“I don’t think all those scars are very comfortable for her. I would love to see her without all of them, but they don’t really matter to me. She’s still perfect with them.” Xander says.
“If it’s what she wants, we will do it. We also need to see how you guys feel about a student female healer checking over her vaginal area. Some of the shit she said tonight has me worried that we may be overlooking something.” I don’t know what Zachariah is thinking, but if he’s worried about it, then maybe it’s something we should do.
“Honestly man, if it is something you’re that worried about, I would rather not trust a student with it. Healer Daniel has his own match group, and he has a daughter. I don’t have a problem with him looking so long as one of us is there. The scars? She said she wanted it, so I’m game.”
“Overlooking what?” Vashu says, his nostrils are flaring out and his eyes keep blinking like the dragon is trying to take over.
“Vashu, if I tell you what I am afraid of, you’re either going to take down the entire house, or half the school, so for now you’re just going to have to trust me.”
“Farlens out of her bath and is getting dressed. Gods, I hope she has more short skirts like that somewhere, and are all her underwear thongs?” I roll my eyes at Xander.
A few minutes later, Farlen comes out in some silky pajamas. She walks over and gives me a hug, next she hugs Xander and then Vashu. When she hugs Zachariah, she pulls him down to her and talks in his ear. He nods at her and smiles at us.
“Go lay down gorgeous. I will be there in a minute, need to talk to the guys for a second.”
She nods and walks down the hallway, yawning the entire time.
“She’s afraid that she’s going to have bad dreams tonight. I told her to wake me up if she ever had them and I’d hold her for the night to help keep them away. She wants me to sleep next to her tonight. So we will see how this first night goes, then you all should offer to hold her when she sleeps, if you think you can keep your hands to yourself.”
“The incubus is lecturing us about keeping our hands to ourselves! How do we know you will keep yours to yourself?” Xander asks.
“Because, unlike all you fuckwits, I am not ruled by what I am. Yes I am an incubus, yes I want to bury my face in that sweet little pussy and have her writhing beneath me, but I can control my damn urges. It would hurt her for any of us to rush it, and I won’t be the one to do it. I can read her body language, and can tell what she likes. But I refuse to be the one to start anything with her. I will let her come to me, because it will be so much fucking better than trying to coax her into something she may not be ready for.” He smirks at me. “I am not fucking two beans big, and it would fucking scare her, so I am going to keep my hands to myself, I am going to hold our girl so she knows that she is safe, and that nothing is going to hurt her. Including us.”
He opens Farlens door and shuts it behind him.
“Why did he say he’s not two beans big? What the fuck is that supposed to mean?” Xander asks. “Dude is strange sometimes. I always thought he was a hardass, but are we sure he is all there?” My phone vibrates in my pocket. I yawn as I pull it out, shit it’s getting late. Ugh, one new message from my mom.
Mom: Expect a package from me tomorrow. And remember what I told you before: DO NOT FREAK OUT. I mean it, Connor, don’t do it. And tomorrow take lots of deep breaths. I love you and give my daughter a big hug from me. She’s going to need it tomorrow. By the way, I like Faith. She will be a good friend to her, but she isn’t allowed to pick anything but what I sent!
Me: Love you too, Mom.
“I’m going to go to bed guys, try to keep it down. Oh, and my mom is sending a package sometime tomorrow, knowing her it’s going to be here before the fucking sun is even up, so don’t murder the person knocking on the door that early.”