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Hazel’s yellow head pops up in the tall grass.
She’s come back to wait for Maisie but when she sees me she decides I am enough.
Together we take the dirt road past the wall of hemlocks and white pines to the barn.
The cherry trees are so burdened that I don’t know how we’ll get the fruit picked before it rots.
Most of the crew trailers are empty, three families down from the usual ten or twelve.
Joe has divided the acres and given everyone their parcel to work.
We wave to each other at a great distance.
I leave a tray of sandwiches at the sorting table in the morning and pick up the empty platter at night.
Emily’s ever--helpful boyfriend, Benny Holzapfel, is no help at all since he is working sixteen--hour days on his own family’s farm.
Holzapfel—-meaning crab apple, or the crabby people who hang out near sour little apples—-is a selling name but does not suit our warm and generous friends.
You could spend years in a New York apartment never knowing the people who live two feet away from you, but live on an orchard in Michigan and you will use the word neighbor to refer to every person for miles.
You will rely on them and know their children and their harvest and their machinery and their dogs.
The Whitings have an old German shepherd named Duchess, though she could have just as easily been Princess or Queenie.
Despite her wolfish appearance, she is a sweet girl.
Duchess has been known to walk all the way to our back door in the summer.
I give her a bowl of water and some biscuits, and after a nap on the warm flagstones, she heads off again.
Past the pond there is a place where the two farms touch, ours and the Holzapfels.
My husband used to joke that someday one of our girls would marry a Holzapfel, but when Benny started showing up in our kitchen his senior year of high school, Joe dropped the joke for fear of scaring the boy away.
Since then my husband has whispered his dreams to me alone, in the winter, in our bed late at night: Emily and Benny would marry and join the farms. We would fix up the little house, put on a proper porch, a new kitchen, a real master bedroom, everything on one floor.
Joe and I would move to the little house and give our house to Emily and Benny so they could have children here, children who may one day marry the children of the Otts or the Whitings nearby, weaving together an ever greater parcel, because even if a person can’t work the land they have, they will still want more.
It has been years since Emily was bewitched by Duke, and years since the enchantment was broken and our daughter returned, and while we love her and rely on her, we’ve never completely gotten over being afraid of her.
She says that the farm is her life, and of course she’s going to stay here.
She says it with Benny standing beside her in the kitchen, both of them barefoot, shucking corn for dinner.
But Emily had always been interested in the farm, and she had always been interested in Benny, and over time those two interests slowly pushed Duke aside.
Or maybe it didn’t have anything to do with the farm, maybe she just outgrew him.
She came home from East Lansing to work the harvest every summer.
She said we needed to think about building our own cold storage so that we wouldn’t have to outsource refrigeration, and that maybe we could build a big one and split the cost with our neighbors.
The investment would pay for itself when we started selling more sweets for the fresh market.
Where was Duke in all these plans?
He was nowhere.
Hazel heads up the hill to the cemetery where generations of my husband’s people are buried behind a low iron fence, and for whatever reason I follow the dog.
A plush vegetation is knitted over all the graves, and I think of how meticulously Joe’s aunt had kept things here, but this is not the summer for weeding.
The cemetery is the highest point on the property and would have been the logical site for a house, the way it overlooks the trees and the barn and all the way to the edge of the lake, but those first settlers gave the best land to their dead, the very first a two--year--old named Mary.
One by one they followed her up the hill until twenty--nine of them were resting beneath the mossy slabs, and there they wait for us to join them.
That’s what life was like back in the day, you buried your children, your husband, your parents right there on the farm.
They had never been anywhere else. They had never wanted to be anywhere else.
I look down from the hill until I can see Emily in her green Michigan State cap, and a minute later I see Maisie and Nell walking out to the barn. Hazel picks up the distant scent of Maisie in the breeze and darts off to thank her again for her life.
Benny Holzapfel had long professed his faith in fresh--market sweet cherries as part of a healthy system of cash flow.
He was still a sophomore in high school when he talked my husband into pushing out the plums at the east end of the upper orchard and putting in forty acres of dark sweets.
I hadn’t been in favor of taking the advice of our fifteen--year--old neighbor at the time.
I said we needed more trees like we needed more goats, which had also been Benny’s idea.
You can’t shake sweet cherries mechanically.
You have to take them by hand and they have to come off perfectly, as if every last one was employed by the Michigan tourism board.
Tarts are frozen and later boiled down to juice or jam or sold for pies.
They’re dried into sturdy cherry--raisins and no one cares what they looked like.
The problem with tarts is that distributors make a down payment on delivery and don’t pay the balance until they sell them, and because the cherries are already frozen or dried, there’s never any rush.
You could work yourself to death bringing in tarts in July and not see your profit until December, or next July.
Sweets, on the other hand, don’t freeze.
Early in the summer they last two weeks in the cooler, and by the end of the season when the sugar is high the turnaround is considerably faster.
Of course the brines become maraschinos, and some other sweets wind up in yogurt, but most of them we sell through an agricultural co--op for cash, and the co--op in turn sells them to grocery stores and CSAs.
The money we make off those pretty cherries put Nell through the University of Michigan and is now subsidizing Maisie’s veterinary education.
Thank you, Benny Holzapfel.
“So, Mr. Ripley has asked you to audition for a film,” Emily prompts once the four of us are in a row of trees picking cherries, buckets hanging from our necks.
Emily is tall like her father, strong enough to hoist full lugs all day long.
Maisie is smaller than her older sister, though by no means small, and her curls give her extra stature.
Nell is like me, or Nell is like I was. It’s as if the genetic material from which these girls were made diminished with every effort, so that the eldest daughter is strapping and the middle is middling and the youngest is a wisp.
They might as well have been three bears.
I flick away a tiny green inchworm. “Why am I telling you this part?”
“Because you’re putting together the whole picture,” Nell says. “Telling us everything you previously kept from us.”
“You need to go back and get a hat,” I say to Nell.
She touches the top of her head, surprised. She was still half--asleep when she left the house. “I will at the first intermission.”
What Ripley wanted to convey on that phone call, which cost me seven dollars and eighty--five cents in change and made me late for American History, was that he was worried about his niece finding out that he was asking me to audition.
“My sister doesn’t know about this particular movie.
She wouldn’t be happy to find out a part for someone Rae Ann’s age had been given to the girl standing next to Rae Ann onstage. ”
Had he given me a part? I didn’t ask.
“So when you leave town it would be better if you said you had a family emergency, a funeral or something. Tell her your grandmother died.”
I felt like he had stuck me with a pin. “I’m not going to tell her my grandmother died.”
“Think of someone else then.” Ripley’s voice was incapable of concealing boredom.