Chapter 1
Torsten stretched on the pallet, only half awake.
Another dawn, followed by another morning, then another afternoon, each more tedious than the last. Days were following one another with frustrating predictability, blurring into a mass of discontent he was finding hard to extricate himself from.
Why he’d been feeling so dejected of late, he wasn’t sure.
Only…that was not quite the truth, was it? .
If he were completely honest, he had a fair idea why he felt so wretched.
His eldest brother, Steinar, had recently remarried.
His new wife, a Saxon named Cwenthryth, was much more suited to his needs than his first wife had been, and had just given him the little girl he’d always dreamed of.
His younger brother, Sven, was being as carefree as usual and bedding all the willing women he could find, of which there were many.
His sister, Eyja, was happier than ever with her two girls and her husband Moon, who also happened to be his best friend.
His parents’ love was growing stronger every day.
In other words, everyone in his family was content with their lives, right where they wanted to be.
Everyone except him.
He wanted more. Or…something, at least. But what that something might be, he wasn’t sure.
That was one of the problems, he realized in a sudden burst of clarity.
He’d lost his sense of purpose, along with the will to want anything.
His situation was so dire that he had started to hope fate would do what he seemed incapable of doing, and place what he needed right in front of him.
Of course, he would still have to recognize it for what it was when the moment came.
As he was crossing his hands under his head, his gaze landed on the bulge tenting his blanket.
He was hard. That wasn’t new either, and little cause for excitement.
Any healthy man of thirty summers woke up hard in the morning.
Closing his eyes again, Torsten started to stroke himself idly.
Could he make the most of the opportunity?
Yes. Why not? It was not as if he was in any hurry to get up, or had a woman who could see to his needs later.
His mind was dissatisfied and he had no idea how to remedy it, but he could at least offer his body this small satisfaction.
The blanket was thrown to one side with decision.
His hand landed on his shaft, hard and ready for him. Sleeping naked had its advantages, it would seem; he was able to see to his needs in an instant.
It only took a few strokes for heat to start gathering in his loins. He was close, but he already knew this would be a hollow satisfaction, a releasing of tension, nothing more. As usual.
He increased the speed of his strokes, doing his best to conjure up lewd images able to spur him on.
This was always the difficult part for him, because he didn’t have a wealth of experience to draw from, quite the opposite.
Even worse, if he started to think too hard about the experience he did have, he might well never manage to bring this to its natural conclusion.
Just when he was starting to despair, he heard a laugh outside his window.
It was such a rich, evocative, dirty laugh that his cock gave a twitch.
It was the laugh of someone intent on seducing the man she was talking to, and even if it had not been directed at him, it did what his imagination had not been able to do.
It sent his arousal spiking. The woman laughed again, and the throaty sound pierced his spine, pushing him over the edge.
Torsten sat up and groaned as pleasure shot out of him in thick, white spurts that coated his tightly corded stomach.
The warmth of his seed scalded his skin, which had become excessively sensitive.
He blinked, disconcerted by the strength of a release that had seemed to be wrenched from depths he didn’t even know he possessed.
He fell flat on his back, his breathing ragged and his fingers clenching repeatedly.
Well. That had been unprecedented, definitely more satisfying than a mere releasing of tension. And it was all thanks to the mysterious woman laughing outside his window. Who had she been? He had no idea but he would make sure to find out. Surely no two women possessed such a laugh.
Full of a motivation he had not felt for months, Torsten stood up and wiped his stomach with the piece of cloth he kept by the basin of water.
Then he got dressed and picked up the comb he was currently working on.
Of the three brothers, he was the most artistically inclined.
Steinar was best suited to tasks requiring physical strength and stamina, and Sven…
Well, Sven had yet to find his special talent.
Luring women into bed with little more than a smile and a wink didn’t count.
Torsten started to decorate the bone shaft with an intricate leaf design mirroring a coil of ivy climbing a young tree.
It would be one of his finest pieces, he thought while he carved, observing how regularly the teeth had been sawn, how smooth the polished antler had become.
Not that the perfection of the piece mattered, of course, as he had no one special to give it to.
He might have the skill and patience to create beautiful objects, but he didn’t have anyone to lavish them on.
The burst of optimism created by this morning’s unexpected pleasure was quickly starting to dissipate. If he didn’t do anything, soon he would find himself submerged in gloom again. He didn’t want that, not today.
Abandoning the comb on the table, Torsten made his way to Steinar’s hut.
When he was in a grim mood, nothing was guaranteed to lift his spirits more than seeing his new little niece, Sanna, who was only two months old and the most beautiful child he had ever seen, with big dark eyes and hair as black as her mother’s.
With such a mane, it would not be too long before she needed a comb. He smiled at the thought.
Yes. If he hadn’t found anyone else to give it to before the winter, he would gift the ivy comb to little Sanna.
“Edita will be visiting us soon.”
“Will she?” Aife worked hard to infuse enthusiasm into her voice but wasn’t sure she succeeded.
“Yes. Birgit writes me that she recently lost her husband, Eowald, and needs the distraction. It might be that she arrives before the end of the week, as she was set to leave shortly after the missive was given to the peddler who delivered it earlier today.”
Aife nodded and helped herself to another slice of dried apple but did not pass any comment.
Her mother had come to visit this afternoon, bearing a letter from her youngest sister, who lived in Mercia.
Unfortunately, the news it contained was not the best. Her cousin lived a long way away, which was the reason why they didn’t see one another too often.
Edita was only a couple of years older than she was, fully Saxon, unlike Aife who had a Danish father, and completely different to her.
The two cousins had gotten along well enough as children, but the last time they’d met, some four years ago, Aife had been disappointed.
Edita had been very quick to point out that she had wed her husband the summer she had turned seventeen.
The man, a rich merchant ten years older than her, had pursued her relentlessly, while Aife and her younger sister, Hedda, were both still unmarried, aged five-and-twenty and three-and-twenty respectively.
What she would say now didn’t bear thinking about, and this time Aife would be alone to bear the brunt of the attacks.
Hedda had left the village two years ago, to go to Denmark.
Alone amongst the five siblings, she had decided to go live in their father’s country, having been fascinated by his stories from a young age.
It had been hard to see her go and they all missed her dearly.
No doubt Aife would miss her even more when she had to face Edita alone.
But perhaps being widowed had dulled her cousin’s sharpest edges and restored her to the girl she had once been? One could only hope.
Unfortunately, it didn’t take Aife long to see that nothing had changed.
Three days after they had received the letter warning them of her visit, Edita herself arrived.
As soon as she opened her mouth that night, Aife understood that her behavior would be just as bad as before, if not worse.
Far from being heartbroken or even simply listless, her cousin announced that she had already chosen her next husband, one of Eowald’s closest friends, and then spent the whole meal boasting about her stroke of luck.
“Wulfric has been in love with me all that time, and I only found out now, if you’ll believe it. He’s been waiting for years in secret, hoping I would one day become available to marry him.”
“Some loyal friend he makes, waiting for his friend to die so he can wed his widow,” her father, Sigurd, mumbled under his breath—and in Norse.
This earned him a sharp, disapproving glance from his wife who, Saxon though she may be, had learned to speak his tongue.
But Aife agreed with her father. It seemed particularly underhanded on this Wulfric’s part to lust after Eowald’s wife and then pounce as soon as he was dead.
An uncharitable thought crossed her mind.
Edita’s husband had been one of the richest men in the village.
Could it be that his friend was more interested in the money this marriage could bring than the bride herself?
It was a possibility, because Aife didn’t see how anyone could fall in love with someone as conceited and frivolous as Edita had become.
She excused herself as soon as the table had been cleared and went back to her hut, leaving her poor parents to prepare a pallet for Edita.