Chapter Ten Purity
It has been about two months now since I have been on the job. It’s definitely been a learning experience. I’m embracing it all though. This is what I worked so hard to achieve. Now that I’ve reached this point in my life, I vowed to myself not to take it for granted.
I stepped into this role just being my genuine self, and my clients appreciated me for that.
My office always feels like a welcoming environment.
My job is to establish trust with them so they can seek guidance and confide in me if necessary.
I didn’t want to be one of those harsh ass PO’s that take their job a little too seriously. All I wanted to be was Purity.
My impact may not be as substantial just yet, but I can see improvements in some of my clients.
There are noticeable changes in them that are different from day one.
For example, Tavian Carter. Whom insists that I call him Trill.
The day that he came in with his dress shirt on, there was something different about him.
It was written all over his face, but I didn’t want to pry.
He’s normally always in a plain black t-shirt and jeans.
That’s how I met him and that’s the way he has presented himself every day since.
Not that day though. Effort was put into the look.
Like he wanted to leave a lasting impression.
It stood out to me, so I’m sure that anyone else who saw him peeped it as well.
I also found it noble that he didn’t just run off and miss our session. He had something else he needed to take care of that day. Instead, he asked me for an alternate time. Being that my schedule wasn’t jam packed, I helped him out. That’s what I’m there for, to assist.
He’s one of my most memorable clients. I talk to my girls about him often due to his playful banter.
He’ll never let me live that night in the club down.
He’s convinced he was my savior or some shit.
I found it cute. He might’ve saved my life, but I’ll never give him all that praise.
All that will do is go straight to his head.
I wouldn’t stroke his ego and give him the satisfaction.
The shit he says and does makes me laugh behind closed doors.
I refuse to let him know that I think he’s funny.
That’ll only be another thing he can use against me.
With my new job, my new salary has changed my life drastically. My savings account is back up. My son has all his needs and some of his wants. Same for me. I have been treating myself a little more without having to feel guilty about it. I actually have it to spare; all the while bills are covered.
God is so good. Dom and I have walked into new roles with salary increases. It makes me so excited to see what the future looks like. Every time I count my blessings, I count him and my son twice. Growing up, all I wanted was a good man that’ll treat me just as good as my dad treats my mom.
It wasn’t about money or materialistic shit.
Having a successful man is a plus though.
We’re both successful, making us a power couple in the eyes of many.
With the success comes the long hours and late nights though.
Luckily for me, my job doesn’t require me to stretch myself thin.
I get to do what I love and make it home to my son at a decent time.
Dom’s new position has him taking on all of these new cases.
It’s like the firm wants him to go extra hard to justify them promoting him.
I get having to prove yourself. If he wasn’t worthy of the position, I don’t think he would have ever gotten it in the first place.
Some jobs just have people that wants to be assholes.
As his fiancé, I can’t do shit but understand.
I know he won’t be able to make it to dinner every night.
I understand the fact that sometimes plans will change.
In those moments, I just have to pivot. This is the life I’m signing up for.
I’m just trying to prepare myself now because by marriage it may be the same.
I love the man dearly so I’m willing to adjust any way that I may need to.
The words that my mom and dad said to me a little while back, still replays in my head.
So much that I finally broke down and talked to Dom about it.
He knows that his schedule has been so crazy.
It has been in the way of a lot lately. I’ve just been trying to keep myself busy to occupy my mind.
I still discuss wedding details with my girls because it makes good girl talk.
They’re a huge part of my day, so I trust their input.
It feels good to be able to have someone to discuss my fairytale wedding with.
My girls are always down to listen and even send me different ideas to pull from Tiktok, Pinterest, and Lemon8.
Most of my evenings are filled with watching different videos.
I enjoy the DIY videos the most. Any chance to save some money, I’m down with that.
I would love to put more money into the honeymoon.
“Baby”, Dom called out to me from the living room.
“Yeah baby, be right there.”
I made my way into the living room, where I found him sitting on the couch. He instructed me to sit on his lap. I did so and allowed him to pull me closer to him.
“I know that work has been in the way a lot lately. I want the opportunity to make it up to you tonight. What do you say about a romantic dinner date?”
A smile crept across my face. I have been waiting on the opportunity for us to spend some real quality time together. A dinner date is just what I need with my man. I want the opportunity to feel the lovey dovey side of him that I have been missing.
“I would love that baby.”
“It’s a date”, he said smiling. “I arranged for you to go down to Sak’s to find you something nice to put on for the night”
“Thank you so much baby. I will call my parents to see if they can watch Zakai for the night.”
“I look forward to it baby. I’ll make the reservations and send you the details. I have to go to work for a few hours but if it’s not too much to ask, can you meet me there?”
“Sure baby, that’s fine with me.”
“I love you. I’m going to go ahead and head out. If possible, I want to get a jump start on the day, so that I can make dinner. I’m ready to hear all about the wedding plans that you have already”
“I can’t wait baby”
I kissed him on the lips, and he stood up to leave.
I hugged my man tight as hell. I was just happy to be in his arms. Seems like lately I see his back more than anything.
It felt good to know that he sees me and hears my concerns.
I love the man to the moon and back. I have no interest in leaving him.
I just want things to get back to the way they were.
The days where his attention was on me more. Tonight though, that’ll all change.
When he left, I went into my room and turned my music on.
All of a sudden, I was in a good ass mood.
My baby heard me and came in to join me.
I placed his small hands in mine, and we danced all around my room to Beyonce’s “Party”.
One thing about my baby, he loves music.
He gets that from me for sure. I love whatever he loves.
As his mom, all I want is to see my baby smile and to be genuinely happy.
Though I likely know that he is autistic, the fact that his actual evaluation is coming up has been weighing on me.
It’s one thing to feel it and another to actually get the confirmation.
I have been trying my best to mentally prepare myself for it every day.
If we happen to get a positive diagnosis, I know that will open up the door for him more help.
Without an actual autism diagnosis there are limitation on certain therapies.
No matter how long this road is, I’m prepared to see it through to the end. I’m not going to give up on my child. Work, wedding planning, none of that will stand in the way of me seeing about him.
“Do you want to go visit nana and papa baby?”, I asked my son.
He just smiled and got all giddy. I took that as a sign that he was with it. There was never a time he would pass up on that anyways. I just needed to check with them to make sure it was okay first. Considering the fact that they know Dom has been consumed with work, they’ll probably look out.
I facetime them so they could talk to him.
We talked about ten minutes before they eventually asked for him on their own.
That was even better. That way I didn’t have to feel guilty about it.
Even though, I hardly ever ask them to watch him for pleasure purposes.
If it isn’t for work, my son is normally always with me.
That’s the only exception I ever really make.
Once I had my baby bags packed, I went ahead and dropped him off. They offered to keep the entire weekend. I’m blessed beyond measures to have living parents. Especially parents that are hands on with my son. Since the day he entered this world, they never once missed a beat when it comes to him.
After I said my goodbyes to my son and parents, I headed over to Sak’s.
I love to shop but sometimes it’s no fun doing it alone.
I called my girls and asked them to meet me there.
I wanted their input on the perfect dress for tonight.
I want to look damn good for my man. I also feel like tonight is special.
Being that it’s our first date that we have been on in a while.