Lily
“We should use a condom this time,” I say as Ivan takes my hand and leads me from the dining room. I already know what he intends to do to me from the look in his eyes, and I can’t say I haven’t been thinking about it nonstop since the last time.
“Who said anything about sex?” he asks, flipping the script on me.
My face flushes, and I feel like a fool. “Oh, um, I thought you wanted to…”
He chuckles. “Yes, my dear, but not in the traditional sense. I’d like tonight to be about you, about your pleasure. We should celebrate your initiation into the Bratva.”
“Oh,” I reply as we enter the hallway. I’m pleasantly surprised by his suggestion, a wave of excitement rolling through me. I wonder what he has planned, what ways he intends to give me pleasure without actually having sex.
“Trust me, darling, you’re going to like this. Have you ever had an orgasm under the stars?” he asks, his voice a deep purr in the back of his throat.
I think for a moment, but there’s not much inventory to go through in my mind. I haven’t had the most exciting sex life. Hooking up with Ivan was the most exciting thing I’ve ever done.
“I’ve not done much of anything outside, to be honest,” I say as he pulls me toward a sliding glass door.
“Great, then it’ll be a wonderful new experience for you,” he says, sliding the door open.
A rush of cool floral air rushes to greet me. It’s sweet like honeysuckle, and fresh like it just rained. I close my eyes as I step outside with Ivan, taking in the beautiful smells as they envelop me.
It takes me way back in time, to a little place in my childhood where I felt safe. That was before I realized how awful my parents were, before I even knew that there was a right and wrong way to be. I was truly innocent then, concerned only with the present moment, high on life in the most divine way possible.
There was a garden behind my grandparent’s house, a little retreat that felt huge to me because of how small I was. When we visited them in the summer months, I would run back behind the house, overwhelmed by the beautiful flowers and crickets chirping in the evening.
My parents always fussed at me for picking the flowers, but my grandmother never complained when she was handed a big, sloppy bouquet from her own garden. She said the flowers were there to be enjoyed.
Tonight, I have no urge to pick the flowers and ruin Ivan’s gorgeous garden, but I do intend on enjoying them as they were meant to be enjoyed.
My eyes flutter open, and I look around at the dark bushes ripe with hundreds of flowers. Every color is present, like a garden from a dream. I laugh a little from sheer awe. “This can’t be real,” I whisper.
“It’s very real. I’ve spent years putting this place together,” Ivan says, motioning to all the plants. “Take your shoes off. Feel the grass between your toes, darling, and tell me this isn’t paradise.”
I slip out of my shoes, leaving them behind as I wander forward. The grass is cool beneath my feet, slightly damp but in a pleasant way, like it’s been watered regularly, and the soil isn’t all dried out.
My toes wriggle into the ground, feeling the solid earth beneath me. After all the instability following Dimitri’s death, it feels good to have something solid in my life. Mother earth will always take care of me, even when I’m finally six feet under.
“It’s a clear night,” Ivan says, walking up slowly behind me.
I turn to see him looking up at the starts.
“Orion is just there,” he says, pointing at the inky black sky.
I follow his finger to the sky, marveling at how clear the stars are out here. I’ve been in the city my whole life, and the streetlights make it impossible to see the sky clearly, even when there aren’t any clouds.
On Ivan’s estate, there’s no interference, and the stars sparkle like glitter in the sky. It’s incredible how many there are. The longer I look, the more I see, and I get chills thinking about how small we really are on this planet.
One little dot amongst trillions of others, and I’m worried about the consequences of being in the Bratva. What morals can exist in a universe so grand? What great judgement can I expect for the life I’m living?
I breathe the air deeply, grateful just to be alive. I haven’t felt grateful for my life in a long time. I’ve been grateful for people like Dimitri and Ivan, and for having a roof over my head and food in my belly, but life has never really felt like it was worth much…
Until now.
I look back at Ivan with a smile stretched from cheek to cheek. “It’s just incredible, isn’t it?”
He nods. “I look at them every night, thinking how many planets there must be. I’m certain there are people just like us somewhere out there, living a very similar life.”
“I never thought about that,” I say, looking up again. “Do you think they’re also about to have a little fun under the stars?”
Ivan’s laugh is pure and loud in the stillness of the night. “Yes, I do believe they are.”
“Then we’d better hurry up and join them,” I say, feeling a flutter in my belly at the thought of being intimate with Ivan again. I’m a little shy, but the reward is worth all the butterflies and nerves.
“You can lie down here,” Ivan says, motioning with his hand to a patch of grass next to a rose bush.
I look down at the dark grass, wondering what kind of bugs might be waiting for me there. “No blanket or anything?” I ask, doubt creeping into my voice.
He chuckles. “No, darling. That would ruin the experience. Trust me on this one.”
I’m reluctant for a moment, but then I remember what’s waiting for me at the end of this, and I’d never turn down such wonderful pleasure from Ivan. He knows just how to touch me to make my body go crazy. His hands are magic.
I settle down in the grass, testing it with my hands first. It’s pleasantly soft, and I don’t know why I was so scared of it. I’ve been to this garden before. It’s absolutely lovely during the day, and the nighttime hasn’t brought any scary spiders or snakes out to bite me.
It’s just me, Ivan, and the stars up above us.
I put my hands behind my head, turning my nose up to the rose bush just behind me and inhaling deeply. The scent is so sweet I’m almost convinced it isn’t real. How can flowers smell so divine? Nature is truly blessing me tonight.
“You’re going to want to take your clothes off for this,” Ivan says as he stands over me.
He usually looks tall no matter what my position is, but when he’s towering over me like this he might as well be a thousand feet. His head nearly disappears into the darkness, and all I can really make out clearly are his feet and his powerful thighs.
I slip out of my clothes, putting them on the ground at his feet like an offering. It’s weird to be completely naked outside, but it’s also freeing in a wonderful way. I never thought I’d feel so good being exposed. It’s always been a fear of mine to be exposed in public.
I guess we’re not actually in public, but it feels that way. There are no walls around me, and if someone were to fly overhead, they’d get a lovely view of my naked body glowing under the stars. I’m so pale that I’m certain someone would see me, even from miles away.
Ivan kneels down by my feet, placing his hand on my shin and running it up until he reaches my knee. He gives it a playful squeeze before continuing upward, his fingers tracing up the insides of my thighs.
Slowly. Slowly. And then, his fingers find my pussy, pressing lightly into my labia and spreading my lips.
A smile spreads across his face, and his green eyes flash like emeralds in the darkness. “That’s right, darling. Just relax and let me take care of you.”
I tilt my head back, settling deeper in the grass. It tickles under my arms and around my neck, but it’s a pleasant sensation, not dry and itchy like some lawns are. Dimitri never watered his grass. I think he liked it when it was all dry and brittle for some reason.
But Ivan clearly makes sure his stays plush and soft. It’s delightful against my skin, enhancing the waves of excitement running through my body as Ivan explores me with his hands.
I feel a soft heat against my thighs now, but not from his hands. Those have found my breasts, his thumbs brushing my nipples and making them hard.
The new warmth is from his breath as he lowers his face to my pussy, pressing his lips against my clit and sucking it into his mouth.
A jolt of pleasure hits me so hard that I let out a little yelp of surprise. I can hear Ivan chuckling in his throat as he continues to suck my clit, working it gently with his mouth until I’m sweating from how good it feels.
This feels impossible. How can a man be so dangerous, attractive, generous, and so willing to please all at the same time.
There should be a catch but there isn’t. Ivan is just amazing and meeting him was the biggest blessing in disguise. I thought my life was over, but in reality, it has just begun.
My toes curl in the cool grass as pleasure rises up from my lower belly, moving into my torso and twisting around my heart. I don’t want to let go so easily, but what Ivan is doing to me goes beyond control. I can’t hold back.
I’m going to…
My fingers dig into the grass to either side of me as a rush of colors cascades across my vision. Pleasure burns through my body like the flames of a wildfire blowing in the wind. My voice is lost in the pleasure, but I’m certain I’m screaming Ivan’s name.
He continues eating me out, even as I squirt over his face. It would be embarrassing if I didn’t know he enjoyed it. Everything I do, he’s obsessed with.
He doesn’t stop, even when I’m writhing on the ground, unable to take much more. He sucks my swollen clit into his mouth, milking every drop of agonizing pleasure from my body, draining me of all the energy I have left.
Another orgasm, even more powerful than the first, grabs hold of my body, and I find myself lost in an ocean of bliss, drowning in the shimmering gold waves. I don’t know where I am anymore, nor who I am, and I don’t care at all.
I’m one with the earth, dissolving into the soft ground.
And then it all comes rushing back like I was sucked through a wormhole into another dimension. My eyes open, and I can see Ivan kneeling over me. He’s no longer eating my pussy. He’s just staring at me with a curious expression.
“I’m going to sleep so good tonight,” I say with a laugh.
A smile makes his handsome face even more attractive and he places his hand on my thigh. “Just wait a minute, darling. I’m not even close to being done yet.”